The Wretched And The Divine

Isis POV

I was woken up with the sun in my eyes so I quickly covered my face with the blanket. That was when I noticed that I was half naked. Last night was a blur. What the hell happened? I pulled the blanket off of my face and looked around the room and saw that I wasn't at home. I was at CC and Gemma's house and apparently not alone? I looked to my side and saw Ben sound asleep holding me in his arms. Oh my god please don't tell me I cheated on Ashley again. Oh wait.. Ashley. He broke up with me last night. But why is Ben here with me? I really hope nothing happened. I rolled over so we were face to face and I poked his cheek until he started waking up. He opened his eyes and squinted at the brightness.
"Fuck," he said, "did we cheat again?"
"No." I said. "That doesn't matter anymore."
"What?" He asked rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.
"I had a weird dream that you were touching me." I said changing the subject, "It felt really real"
"Possibly," he said, "apparently I'm a touchy feely drunk."
"Weirdo." I laughed.
"Says you, the Queen of weirdos." He laughed.
"Exactly." I said, "wait what? Hey!"
"You're also a tinsey bit slow." He laughed again as I glared.
"I'm still confused with what happened to our clothes." I said, "Did you take off my clothes as I was asleep too?"
"I don't think so." He said lifting the covers up for a look. I quickly grabbed the cover before he could see.
"Don't look!" I laughed.
"Why not?" He asked, "I've seen it all before."
"That's besides the point." I mumbled.
“Spoilsport.” he huffed. I laughed as I covered myself so he could only see my eyes.
“Weirdo,” he said, “time to go see if they’ve made us any brekkie?”
"Yeah! And if they didn't, I'm gonna jump in between them if they're still in bed." I said as I rolled out of the bed.
“You really have no boundaries, do you.” he laughed. I shrugged.
"It makes life fun." I said as I walked towards the door. I opened the door when I hear Ben clear his throat. I turn and look back at him.
"What?" I asked.
"You forgetting something?" He asked as he pointed at my clothes that was on the floor.
"Like you said, no boundaries." I said laughing, "Come on!" He chuckled as he got up and followed me to the kitchen area. We saw no one was in there so it was time to initiate plan B. I walked towards their bedroom door where I saw them sound asleep.
“They’re asleep, leave them be.” said Ben behind me.
"Nah. They had plenty of sleep already because they went to bed before us! They're just slacking." I whispered as I slowly opened the door. I crept to the bed and gently rolled over CC, making sure not to disturb him and landed right in between him and spooned Gemma. I stayed there for about a minute until CC rolled over and wrapped his arm around me, spooning me. I gave Ben a confused face as I tried to hold my laugh. Ben then came and joined in by spooning CC. I felt CC snuggle up closer to me and then suddenly stop.
“What the hell?” he whispered, “Oh god, Isis get out, and Ben get the fuck off me.”
"Shh.." I whispered, "this is all a dream"
“No it’s not,” he said, “If it were, then it’d just be me and Gemma.”
"Lies. Let's not bring up your old fantasies." I said sarcastically.
“They didn’t include Ben.” he said, “Now get out.”
"Fine party pooper. I'm gonna eat everything in your kitchen then." I said as I sat up.
“No you wont,” he said, “there’s no hot cheetos.” I laughed.
"How inhumane... Oh well. I'm sure I'll find something" I said. Ben got off the bed and I rolled on top of CC again to get off. We walked out of the room and into the kitchen.
"So what are you cooking me?" I asked Ben.
“Who said I was cooking?” he asked as he sat down at the breakfast bar.
"Me." I said as I rested my elbows on the counter in front of him and placed my chin in my hands looking like a small child asking for candy.
“Still no.” he said. I pouted.
"Fine then." I said as I grabbed a bowl and made myself cereal.
“See, that wasn’t so hard was it.” he smirked. I stuck my tongue out at him.
"Oh whatever." I grumbled as I stared at my food. I still couldn't believe that everything between Ashley and I was over now. I'm glad nothing happened between Ben and I last night or else I would have a whole lot more regret. Because apparently I was a mess. I glanced at Ben only to catch him staring at me.
"What?" I asked trying to hide my body behind the counter, feeling self conscious.
"Just enjoying the view." He smirked, making me want to hide more.
"Go home now." I teased.
"Never!" he said dramatically
"Why?" I asked.
“Cuz you don’t want me to.” he smirked
"Don't you have a practice to get to?" I asked.
“Not for a few hours” he said, getting up and making his way over to me.”I can think of a really good way to kill time.” I shook my head.
"That's not a good idea. I'm with Ashley still." I lied.
“Like that stopped us before.” he said now kissing up the side of my neck. I stepped away, glaring at him.
"Because you lied to me." I said.
“I can remember bits of last night, and it didn’t bother you then.” he said, “You were all for it last night.”
"Well I'm glad we didn't make that mistake again." I said.
“And for some reason I stopped you,” he sighed, “What was I thinking?”
"Maybe you were being a decent person for once." I muttered. He laughed.
“Like thats ever gunna happen.” He doubled over laughing.
"You never know." I smiled, "you could be a really nice person under all of that assholeness."
“Assholenes?” he asked, “And really? The nice guy only comes out for special people, so you must have been pretty special last night for me to stop you, I remember asking you about something, or you telling me something that made me stop, but I can’t think what it was, so what happened?”
"I don't know what you're talking about." I said hoping I didn't tell him anything about Ashley and I last night.
“Really?” he said, ”Cuz since then I’ve had this overwhelming urge to hug you.” I laughed.
"Well your hugs are always welcomed" I said with my arms wide open. He came over and hugged me. "Do you have any idea what I said to you last night?"
“Um,” he thought for a second, “Nope, but I know it must have been big or emotional.” Right then, I realized that I have told him already.
"Well it was probably nothing." I said, "I don't remember what it is and so it's not that important anyway."
“Well it must have been if you told me in the first place.” he said.
"Do you know what it involved?" I asked.
“Well obviously it was something important to you,” he said, “Maybe involving you, and the only thing that comes to mind is that what went on yesterday with Ashley, so tell me”
"Fine.." I sighed, "Ashley broke up with me last night."
“Oh,” he said, ”and I have a feeling it was cuz of me?”
"For the most part." I said, "but I have some fault in this too."
“I’m sorry,” he said, “I should have thought before anything, come here.” He came over and hugged me again.
"Sorry for being moody last night." I said, "and probably for confusing you too."
“Like its hard to confuse me.” he laughed, “And it’s understandable.”
"Just to make things clear, I still intend to get back with him, so I'm trying my best to stay out of trouble." I gave Ben a look.
"Really?" He asked, "you actually want to get back with him, why? When you can have all of this." He gestured to his body, I couldn't help but check him out. He smirked and I face palmed.
"Shush..." I mumbled, "and yeah believe it or not, I love him for more than his looks. I want things to work out between us because that's what you're suppose to do. Work things out and not run away from your problems." I jumped as I heard Ben's phone ring. He laughed at me.
"Hello?" He answered, "really? Right now? You guys can't figure it out on your own? Alright fine. I'll be there soon." He hung up and looked at me. "Well the guys need me earlier than expected. I gotta go." I nodded as he walked to the bedroom and got dressed. I walked him to the door and he stopped to look at me.
"Well I'll see ya at Mayhem, right?" He asked.
"Yep! Gemma and I will be there." I said. He nodded and hugged me before he walked out. I walked back into the kitchen and finish my cereal. As I sat there alone as I began to think how things would’ve went differently if Ben wouldn't have stayed over. I can't believe we almost did it again! Did I have feelings for him? I thought it was just an attraction. Maybe Gemma was right. I was just denying my feelings for him this whole time. I looked down at my wrists where I saw small bruises that came from the handcuffs being too tight. I guess it makes sense why Ashley got so upset when he saw us together. I sighed. I screwed things up between us. I need to fix this. I want Ashley back.

Notes

So the chapter title wasn't too far off, right? Haha except its more like a snuggle sandwich.
Anywho I wanna know what you guys think of where this story is going!
Do you think Ashley and I should get back together?
Should I move on with Ben?
Let us know!

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