Later on that evening
Isis POV

Ashley somehow managed to talk CC and Gemma into going to the after party hangout that's was going to happen. The only reason why she agreed to go was so she can keep a close eye on me. I wasn't too sure how I should handle what happened earlier, but I know I for sure needed to straighten things out. I love Ashley too much to even allow myself to make that mistake to happen again....if it even happened the first time. Could he be lying? I saw Ben standing off to the side talking to someone else. He noticed me staring and flashed a huge grin. Dammit. I looked away back towards Ashley. He knows something is going on with me, but he also know that I would tell him within time. So he already knew he has to be patient with me.
I looked over to Gemma and saw that she was talking to CC, all happy, but in a split second, her smile faded when I saw her look in a different direction. I looked to where she was staring and saw Danny walk towards our direction.
"Ohhh shit." I mumbled.
"Hmm?" Ashley asked as he took a sip of his drink. I nodded towards Danny.
"How are you beautiful people on this fine evening?" Danny asked us as he took a seat next to me. I glared at him. I still never forgave him from what happened with him and Gemma.
"Ok enough with the glares now,” He said, “Seriously it’s been five months! I know I done a shit thing but really? I get Gemma and CC’s coldness, but you don’t need to be like it, afterall I got your squeeze talking to you again. So you’re welcome.” I glance at Ashley.
"What is he talking about?" I asked Ashley, getting a little embarrassed.
“The half naked cowboy!” Danny replied, “That my dear, was my doing.” I facepalmed.
"No way!" I said, "but how?" I looked to Ashley. "But you were at a stripclub that night..?"
“I was to start” said Ashley, “But then Something happened, which I won’t get into just yet, I left and Danny found me and poof.”
“Oi! I’m not a poof!” protested Danny.
“Brusnop.” Ashley said, Danny shrugged in agreement.
"Poof and Brusnop?" I was more confused. "Did you witness a brusnop moment?"
"Oh I’ve witnessed many over the years,” Ashley laughed, “But not that night, A dancer went further than what was in her contract, I pushed her away and threatened her job if she decided to get too friendly ever again. So I left and got a bit too drunk in another bar, Danny and I talked while I sobered up enough to come home to you.” I laughed as I remembered that night. I guess the half naked cowboy did help.
"Wait.. Which stripper was it?!" I asked a bit angry now.
“Isis.” Ashley said as he looked down at his drink. My jaw dropped.
"My name twin? Is that why she targeted me and I got a lap dance off of her?" I asked.
“I think so,” said Ashley, “but she thought the girlfriend that she was distracting me from was Gemma.”
“Wait wait wait!” interrupted Danny, “You went to a strip club, together, and she got a lapdance! Where was my invite?”
"Apparently you weren't invited." I laughed. "Also you missed out on another lesbian moment."
“Fuck!” he said slamming his beer on the table, “I miss out on everything!”
"Well if the circumstances were different, then you could've been there" I mumbled, shrugging.
“Yeah,” he said, “I dunno what I’m gunna do to make it up to them both, I hate myself for it, I still don’t remember much of that night.”
"Yeah I know how that feels." I sighed. "But at least I have some decent memories. In your case, I'd hate to remember. But I'm sure in time, they'll come around. At least they didn't take you to the police."
“That’s one upside,” said Danny, “Why didn’t they go to the police? By rights I should be in prison right now, just knowing that I'd done something that low, and put not only Gemma in danger, but her baby too. That I’ll definately not get over in a hurry.”
"I'm not too sure, but it's a good sign. From what I know, the baby is doing just fine." I told him.
“That’s ok then,” he said sighing, “Still, I can feel her icy glares freezing what’s left of my soul. I know she won’t ever be ok with me, but to know that they both outright hate me, I can’t deal with that, CC was a really good friend. It’s just another thing to add onto the never ending list of stupid mistakes in my fucked up life.”
"Well why not go talk to CC for starters?" I asked.
“I’ll try to get through to him about how sorry I am,” he said, “But I know it’ll fall on deaf ears”
"Well it's a lot safer to talk to him than it is talking to Gemma at the moment." I laughed.
“Good point,” he said smiling slightly, “I’d take a fist fight over pregnancy hormones any day.” I glanced at Gemma and saw that she was headed our way.
"Looks like you no longer have a choice." I mumbled.
“Fuck,” he said looking over his shoulder, “Tell Ben I love him!” he added dramatically.
“You two ok over here?” she asked looking between me and Ashley, her jaw clenched along with one of her fists. I nodded.
"We're fine. Just chatting." I calmly responded.
“What’s he doing here?” She didn’t look at Danny once.
"Well..," I started not really know what to say to not set her off
“I was clearing the air,” said Danny, “Like I want to with you and CC, I know you both hate me for what I done. I hate myself for it too, even more now cuz you know, I still don’t remember what happened that night, and I dont want to. I know you won’t forget it, but please hear me out.”
“I don’t have to listen to anything you have to say.” snarled Gemma, “You ruined my life, and you could have killed mine and CC’s child, and for that I will never forgive you, so don’t even think about trying it.”
“Gemma,” said Ashley, “calm down, remember what the doctor said, stress isn't good for either of you.”
“Screw what the doctor said,” she raised her voice, “I don’t care right now! I don’t ever want to see your face again Danny! I thought I made that clear in January!”
"Although your reasonings are valid, you need to chill out, I don't want you hurting yourself!" I told her. I stood up and grabbed her arm to pull her away.
“Isis, he raped me!” she said, “I can’t let him think it’s ok to rape a pregnant woman, I dread to think what could have happened if Ben hadn’t stepped in, I am never going to forgive him for this, unlike what you seem to have, you were looking very cozy the three of you.”
"He feels like crap for what he did, he didn't know you were pregnant and regrets it! It still upsets me, but it's hard to explain. But you can't stress over this right now. You're going to hurt yourself again." I argued.
“And I’ve done my best to avoid the stress by avoiding him!” she shouted, “and now both of you are bringing him back into our lives, I don’t care about your reasons, just keep him away from me!”
"Well technically, we were away from you until you came along." I mumbled.
“Argh!” she screamed, and walked off.
“Well that went well,” said Danny, “Well better than expected.” He added off of Ashley’s look. I looked over to where she went, she’d gone to find CC, who was now glaring at us all.
"I mean she has a valid reason to be upset." I sighed. We continued about our business throughout the night. I tried to keep the thoughts of Ben out if my head but realized it was nearly impossible. I needed to talk with him. I've noticed I became more shy around him which was annoying, because it wasn't that long ago, I was perfectly fine. I walked around the club trying to find him and soon enough, I spotted him sitting with a few other guys talking. When I walked to him, I somehow caught the attention of the other dudes he was talking to.
"Damn girl, let me get a lap dance!" One of them hollered. "I'll pay ya 10 bucks."
"Nah dude gimme more than that.." The other dude replied, "I'll pay you more too." He flicked his tongue at me. I froze, not wanting to get closer. Ben glared at the two guys who were obviously making me uncomfortable.
"Seriously? That's how you're going to treat my friend?" The guys looked at Ben in shock.
"Oh shit, I'm sorry bro.." One spoke. Ben shook his head.
"Get the fuck outta here." He said disgusted. The guys got up and walked away with their tails between their legs. He patted the now open seat that was next to him with a smile. Once I got near to him, he grabbed my waist and pulled me on his lap. I quickly looked around, making sure anyone we knew wasn't near or looking.
"You're going to get me into trouble." I nervously spoke.
“Does it look like I care?,” he smirked. I face palmed.
"But I do!" I pulled his arms from my waist and shifted off his lap and over to the chair that was next to him.
“So?” he smirked again.
"But you're married. Don't you feel guilty?" I asked.
“Not really,” He said, “I barely see Sam, she doesn’t mind.”
"That doesn't make it okay," I said, "Ashley and I aren't married and I still feel like crap. Especially since you're one of his close friends."
“You told me it felt right?” he questioned, “did you not trigger anything when we kissed earlier?”
"I said that?" I sat there trying to remember. "I'm actually starting to feel bad because, no, nothing triggered." I looked down at my hands.
“Oh,” he said, his voice dripping with disappointment. I honestly didn't know what to believe or do. I love Ashley dearly, but from the way Ben is acting, maybe he and I really did have something? My heart dropped as I realized his reaction to my memory loss was similar to Ashley's.
"Maybe.." I started, unsure if I should finish my sentence, "maybe we can.. Start fresh?"
“Really?” he said looking hopeful. I slowly nodded, sealing my fate. He pulled my head down to his level and kissed me. I instantly felt guilty. But unfortunately, this is something that I needed to get used to.

Notes

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! Hope ou all had a good night and are not too hungover if you were drinking last night, I was essay writing :/ what a way to bring in the new year lol ah well, I had a bottle of wine to help lol anyway, isis still doesn't have her ipad back, hopefully will do soon but anyway

enjoy :)