I Am Bulletproof

Jade's P.O.V
I was sitting in my room, listening to black veil brides, I like other bands but lately I've only been listening to them, the bullshit that's going on has been too much and they were always my favorite band, they could always make me feel better within seconds. I never really connected with anyone, sure I went on the internet, had a few friends here and there but it wasn't much. My family life sucked, my mom and 2 older brothers passed away when I was 12 in a car crash, so it just leaves me and my abusive father, most abusive parents are alcoholics and do it because of intoxication, but not my dad, he's always sober, he just thinks I'm an "emo faggot" he was never like this when my mom and brothers were around, because my brothers always protected me, but now they're gone, I have no protection. At school people don't call me names out loud, they just laugh behind my back, it's always been that way, but I do get beat up daily, it doesn't really phase me though, they're weak. My brothers always taught me how to fight but now they're gone I'm in no mood too. My dad is the one who hurts me the most though. But anyways, " In the end, as you fade into the night oh woah oh oh who will tell the story of your life " blasted through my speakers, I always had them close to full blast when I got home from school because my dad didn't get home until 4:30. I decided, today im leaving, im not taking this bullshit anymore, today i'm giving up my dad, I've saved enough money from my job to move from Canada to somewhere in California where yet im not sure. I will be on my flight to cali at 5:00. I started packing everything I needed, I didn't have much, just my band tee's several pairs of jeans, leggings, my combat boots, converse, make-up posters etc and of course, my razors. About a year before my brothers and mom died I had started self harming, I attempted to stop more than I can think of and i'm tried killing myself once, but I didn't want to. I wanted to try and fulfil something in life. it was now 4:25 any moment now dad would be getting home, everything was packed, I decided to throw everything out the window in the back and use my alley to get to the street where my dad wouldn't see me, I walked a little bit and called a cab which showed up 5 minutes later and drove me to the airport, I looked at the leaving cab and said " Goodbye Canada "

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