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Here's to us...

You werent there....

I looked around me at the court, and I shrunk back into my seat. I hated this, I didn't understand why my parents couldent just leave me be, why they couldent just leave me with my auntie. I heard my farther and my auntie arguing over me, and the judge stouting at them to stop. I felt tears prick my eyes. I wanted Andy, I wanted him here beside me. He said that everytime I needed him all I needed to do was shout and he'd come. I wanted to shout him, but I lost all hope a long time ago that he was going to come back, that he was going to save me. I let the tears slide, and the security pulled my auntie and farther apart. "The Jury has come to a disision.." The judge said, and everyone held there breath. "She will go back to her parents and live with them."

I felt like someone had punched me in the stomach. I started to cry, and I sunk to the floor. "No No No No..." I said, shaking my head. "I'm not going! I'm not going back there!" I screamed, running off the platform and to my auntie who held me tight. My farther came towards me and grabbed my arm. I lashed out at him, punching him hard. "Don't you dare touch me! I hate you! I'm never going to go with you!" I screamed. The security got involved, and pulled me away from my dad. I struggled as they pulled me out of the court room. I screamed as the pulled me away. I saw some people talking outside the door. The shut my in a room, and I heard the lock go. I screamed, and started to punch the walls, and yell that I wasn't going to go with them, and that they can drop dead. I stayed in there for ages, screaming and yelling.

Suddenly the door opened, and my parents came in. I sat there, and turned away from them. "You have to go with us now.." My mom said, and I left storming past them. I hated this so much, and I knew what would happen when I got home. The car ride was scilent, and when we got back I tried to run upstairs. My dad got to me first and grabbed me by my hair, and slammed me against the wall. "How dare you pull a stunt like that! You imbarresed us!"
"I don't care! You imbarrsed yourself!"
"Don't shout at my girl!"
"Well your shouting at me! Let go!"
"NO!" he yelled, punching me hard in the stomach. I fell to the floor, and I chocked on the floor as my dad walked off into the kitchen...

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I shot up panting, hitting my head off the top of the bunk. "Ahh fuck.." I said, rubbing the top of my head. I felt tears rool down my face, and I quickly wiped them away. I was used to having nightmares like this, nightmares of the past. It confused me sometimes, because it seemed like when Andy left everything fell apart. I sighed, and got out of bed, and opened the curtians to Dahvies bunk. "Wakey wakey.." I said, shaking his slightly. He grunted and turned over facing away from me.

"Come on Dahvie now.." I said, shaking his again. He sighed and sat up, rubbing his arms. "Ok I'm coming."
"Please don't do that. This bus is new and were here for a long time so I don't want any body fluids around me." I said, grinning, and he chuckled, throwing a pillow at me. I giggled, and dodged the pillow, running to Jayy's Bunk. "Come on Jayy, time to get up." I said, and he grunted, grabbing my arm to help him get up. "How early do you get up?"
"Well it's our first full day and I want to live it to the fullest." I said, skipping into the bathroom.

I decided to wear a pair of black high waisted shorts, a guns and roses crop vest top, and my converse. I did my usual winged eyeliner, and put on my bright red lipstick. I left my hair natural and let it fall in red waves down my back. I smiled, and left the bathroom, letting Jayy in there. After the boys were dressed we walked to the stage. I grinned as we walked out on stage, and began to sing. I smiled as we went through the set, and I loved every minute of it. Jayy and Dahvie shouted as we left the stage, and we were unmiced. "Come on lets go!" Jayy said, scooping me up and putting me on his back. "Hey I think we should have a race." Dahvie said, and we grinned. "Well who's gonna be on your back?" I said, and he stopped, thinking a second. "How about Roise?" He asked and I nodded. Haley was our make-up artist and was awesome.

He called her over, and we walked to the field where everyone stayed. Ronnie agreed to be the one who decided who wins, and I jumpd onto Jayy's back again."On your marks, get ready, set....GO!" Ronnie yelled, and we ran off. "Faster Jayy Faster!" I yelled, and he chuckled, running faster with his long legs. At the last minute Dahvie ran in front of us, causing Jayy to lose his ballance, and we bot fell over beside a table full of people. We disolved into fits of giggles, and I rolled around. Jayy got up, and picked me up again. I climbed around back onto his back like a monkey. "Jesus your lilke a monkey."
"I know I am and I'm proud to be one." I said, and he chucked as Dahvie, Rosie and Ronnie ran over to us. "You two ok?"
"Never better." I said, sliding off Jayy's back and onto the floor.

The people on the table whp we had landed beside started at us. "Crash landed there didn't you?" I heard someone say, and I looked up to see Sammi and the guys sitting at the table, including Andy, all grinning at us. I laughed, and looked at them. "yeah I did, I tend to do that," I said, and Jayy tapped my shoulder. "Here want one?" He said, passing my a cigarette. I took it, and he lit it for me, I took a deep dragg, and held it between my index finger and middle finger. "I might join you," Sammi said, sitting down on the floor beside me. "So how you been?"
"Good, just got off stage and about to have a break." I said, looking at Andy. He was smiling from ear to ear, staring at me. I smiled back and turned back to Sammi. "So you on your break to?"
"Yeah were off for a bit still yet."
"Awesome, have to check out your set later."
"Would love it if you did." she said, and I smiled, taking another drag of my ciggarette.

"You coming then Lzzy?" Andy asked, standing up, and nodding towards the bar. I nodded and stood up, and I stubbed out my cigarette before following him. We walked to the bar, and ordered our drinks before sitting down. "I didn't know you smoked?"
"Well yeah, new habit really but I don't do it much."
"Oh, I smoke all the time, but It's not good for you."
"I know."
"Well you've changed alot Lzzy. I never thought I'd see you with this many tattoo's."
"yeah neither did I but here I am with green contacts, tattoo's and red hair." I said, and he chuckled, taking a sip of his drink. "So how long you on warped tour?"
"Errm, the whole of it I think. How about you?"
"The whole of it to."
"Cool." I said,and there was scilence.

"You've changed Lzzy." He said, and I stared at him. "Well I've had to."
"Why? You've never had to change."
"I have."
"When?"
"After you left I had to." I siad, and he paused. "So me leaving made you change?"
"No."
"What did then?" He said, and I glared at him. "You wouldent know because you wernt there. What happened to coming and seeing me? What happened to staying in contact?"
"I....I was busy, and It's not like you tried to get in contact with me."
"I couldent!"
"Why Not?"
"Because I was sent back to my parents Andy! I was beaten for three years until I got the guts to leave! And that whole time I was waiting for you to come back and see me, maybe even save me, but no. I ended up having to dig myself out of the shit! And as for school, the whole school hated me Andy, everyone. Joe tried it on with me nearly everyday until I just ditched school all the time! You wernt there like you promised Andy! Nobody ever keeps there promises to me!" I said, getting up, and running away. I heard him call after me,but I ignored him. I continued to run until I got to the bus, and went inside, slamming the door, and bursting into tears....