Ashley's P.O.V

I couldn't stop thinking about Christina, though...I looked out the window and I wanted to go back to L.A so bad..just to spend some time with her and at the same time I want to make it up to her for all the things I've done..I should had been nice to her when I could, but I wasn't and I feel stupid, really stupid.
"You okay, Ash?", Jake asked as he sat next to me.
"I've been thinking now for awhile and I'm thinking in quitting"
"What?!"
I nodded, "I don't know if I'm enjoying this anymore"
"You're not saying this because of Andy, right?"
"It has absolutely nothing to do with Andy..I just want to go back to my roots", I said.
"What are we talking about?", CC said as he sat opposite us.
"Ash is thinking on leaving the band..", Jake said.
"You're out of your mind?!", CC asked.
I rolled my eyes, "Is not like we're not seeing each other again"
"But, it'll be the end to Black Veil Brides..", Jake said.
"Why you want to leave the band exactly?", CC asked.
"Who's leaving the band?", Andy asked as he got in.
"I am.."
"What's the matter with you?!", he asked.
I rolled my eyes, "Nothing...I just want to leave this"
"But why?!"
"Because I can and I want to, Andy"
"Or maybe he just want to go back home because he misses somebody..", Jake said.
"Who do you think I'm missing?", I asked.
"Christina Jade Ferguson..", CC said.
"Did someone said my daughter's name?", Jinxx asked as he got in the living room.
"Yeah, I admit I miss her..", I said.
"You what?", Jinxx asked.
"Christina is not the reason why I want to leave the band"
"You're leaving?", Jinxx asked.
I nodded, "This time for good"
"Someone talk to him and bring him into reason", Andy said.
"Ash, can we have a word in private?", Jinxx asked.
I nodded and standed up as we walked to the bunks area, "What?"
"Tell me the truth..", he said.
"What you want to know?
"Is it Christina?"
I shook my head, "Your daughter has nothing to do with my decision, but she made me realize that I've been wasting my time..Black Veil Brides had bring the worst out of me and I'm not saying that being with you guys is not fun, it's wonderful but I have to leave..I'm not getting any younger here, Jinxx"
"Why you say it brings up the worst out of you?"
"Look at what I did to your daughter?"
"What the fuck you did to my daughter?", he asked protectively.
"You know, I didn't like her when I saw her and I never treated her good, neither and I feel sorry...I feel unsecure, and I wish I could know what to do, that's why I'm leaving but it's just temporary"
"Talk to her.."
"To who?"
"Christina.."
"Why?"
"She always knows what to say when it comes to this"
I shook my head, "I know she won't take it well.."
"You never know, maybe she will but if you need help, then that's why we have Sammi for..", he said as he pulled out his phone.
"What are you doing?", I asked.
"You'll see.."
I trust Jinxx and his judgement but at the same time I feel this is not where I'm needed...Anybody in my position will know the way I feel and I hope Andy doesn't does the same mistake as me and I hope he realizes he's wrong before he loses someone as awesome as Christina..I walked back to the living room and the guys looked at me like if they were waiting for me to change my mind or something..
"What?", I asked.
"What you guys talked about?", CC asked.
I shrugged, "Nothing at all.."
"Promise me something..", Andy said as he sat next to me, "Promise me you'll think about this"
"I already did.."
"What made you change your mind, huh? Christina, is the bitch that's making you think that"
"How you called her?", I asked.
"You heard", he said.
"Leave her alone, okay? She has nothing to do with this! She has nothing to do with the fact that you're an asshole, Andy! What she did to you, huh? She was only there when you needed her and this is how you pay her back?!", I said as I standed up and walked out of there.
I can't believe Andy had the nerve to talk like that...I swear to God that if he says something else his pretty face is going to meet my awesome fist. He wasn't there when she was rescued, he calls himself a good friend and wasn't even there for Jinxx. I hope his bastard soul burns in hell...Honestly, he's the main reason why I want to leave..where's the never let you down, huh? He left Christina down and worst than ever...when she most needed him, he just gave his back to her and honestly, what I'm trying to do is to pick those pieces. All, I'm going to do right now is sleep and wake up when it's time for me to do my work.
~TIME LAPSE~
It was seriously a bad idea to sleep, though...we're about to get on stage and I swear to God, I look awful and I wish I could go back to my bed, but I can't let our fans down though. I looked myself in the mirror and I looked liked I just got out of bed, plus it'll be stupid to use glasses at night...
"You're okay?", Jinxx asked as he shook me.
"Kind of.."
"What you mean with that?"
"I want to go back to sleep"
"Sleep later, you have work to do", he said as he walked over to Jake.
Well, he's right..time to work and I'm still wondering who Jinxx called and what for...and how is it going to help me, though? We heard the buzz and it was time to perform...I didn't even know if I wanted to play, but I have to..
~TIME LAPSE~
San Diego is awesome! Once I stepped out from the shower I felt all the stress I felt before fall off my shoulders....I was putting on my shirt when I heard female voices outside. I opened the door and stepped out the bathroom. I wanted to jump all around the room, when I saw Christina..she walked to me and hugged me.
"What are you doing here?!", I asked.
"I missed you guys so much, plus Sammi told me we should come and I thought it was a great idea before you move to another place"
"I missed you too!", I said as I kissed her cheek.
"Why are you leaving the band?", she asked.
Now I know, who Jinxx talked to, "Can we talk in private?"
"Sure.."
We got out the room and I know she didn't took it well and that's exactly why she's here, to ask me to stay.
I sighed, "Christina you don't have nothing to do with my decision, I swear.."
"Maybe I don't, Ash..but why do you have to leave? I know you're not getting any younger, but the Army will miss you a lot"
"I can't believe you got over everything I did to you.."
"Ash, I did..because if I was in your shoes, I wouldn't trust me neither"
I chuckled, "So you're telling me I did right?"
"I'm not saying it was right, but you had your reasons and everyone deserves a second chance"
"Even Andy?"
She nodded, "Even Andy.."
"After everything that happened, you're willing to forgive him?"
"Yes Ash and I wish I could talk to him without starting a fight, but I want him to calm down first.."
I nodded, "I understand..and I've been in fights with Andy and he'll get over it, don't worry"
She smiled and nodded, "Are you going to leave? Because I swear to God that if you do, I'm dying"
"I won't leave", I said as I hugged her. "I just wanted to see if you were able to really forgive me"
"How I'm not going to? You're my friend, you work with my dad...and I needed to get over it, plus you just needed to get to know me"
"When are you guys leaving?", I asked.
"On sunday"
"Well, I guess we're going to be spending time together, then"
She smiled, "Yeah, we're going to...I'm coming back, I have to find Sammi..she got a call and stayed at the parking lot"
"Okay..I'll be here"
Once she left, I got in the room where Jake, CC and Andy were talking. Jinxx was at the bus and wasn't here for his daughter's surprise. I needed to talk with Andy and tell him about Christina's way of thinking. I recorded the conversation in cases he didn't believe me...He needs to get over it and to see that she's always going to love him, no matter what...no matter how much he shows he "hates" her.
"Are you still hating Christina, Andy?", I asked as I sat next to Jake.
"I don't hate her..", he said.
"Your actions assure another thing", CC said.
"She wants to talk with you and she's willing to forgive you too", I said.
"Bullshit"
"Andy you need to start to calm down and talk to her...look yourslef in the mirror, is that you?", Jake said.
"Are you willing to talk with her?", CC asked.
"I will, but tomorrow..I'm tired right now and I don't want to talk", he said as he standed up and got out the room.
I know Andy is not going to talk with her, is like if he haven't say lies at all...but Christina did for a good reason and it's not her fault, she did it for her father..

Notes

So, I'm going to be writing love stories from all the members, and that's why the sequel to this story is going to have a delay..