Rock 'n' Roses (sequel to found again)

Again I wake up with a banging headache. Pandy turns to me and smiles. "Oh god what am I going to do Andy?!" I said "well we could do it again if you want" I slapped his chest which I was comfortably lying on and we laughed. God, I felt so guilty but I felt so right too. Andy ran his fingers through my hair "Andy I can't do this" I whispered "riot...we just did... three times and an amazing three times at that. Riot that wasn't just sex to me. That was love and I know, I know, it's cliché, but whatever. To me that was making love because Riot I love you. I always have and always will." He said and kissed my head "but Andy what about Alex?" I whispered "what about him? Riot, I know you do love him in a way but if you loved him that much to want to be with him you wouldn't have had sex with me and you definitely wouldn't have had sex with me three times, twice when you were sober and once drunk and still immensely enjoyed all three, drunk or not" he said "but Andy I can't hurt him the way you hurt me. You have no idea how I felt. I just felt so betrayed and let down and hurt. You sat me down and expressed your feelings for me and said you've had strong feelings for me for a long time and then you went and done that?! Can you not understand how hurtful and confusing that was for me?" I said "and that's why I can't do this Andy" I said and kissed his chest and got up off the bed. "But-" Andy began but I cut him off "but nothing Andy, I am NOT going to break Alex's heart. I'm going for a shower, I'm sorry to say this but try and be gone when I get out. I'm so sorry Andy" I replied and turned to go into the bathroom. As soon as the bathroom door shut, I slid down it and burst into tears. After a while I heard my hotel room door shut. I took a deep breath and walked out of the bathroom. I made my way to the bed and reached in for my lighter and cigarettes, when I heard someone clear their throat from the doorway. "Andy I thought I told you to leave!" I said to Andy who stood against the back of the door with his arms crossed and his right foot against the door. Fucker was too fucking sexy! "And I thought I told you that I am completely and utterly in love with you. If you think I'm going to give up that easy then think again Riot because you should know that...when I want something, I won't stop trying until I get it" at this point he had walked over to me and had pushed me down on the bed and was hovering above me. He trailed kisses down my neck and exposed breasts. Then he stopped and lifted his head up to look at me. Before I could say anything, his lips were on mine and kissing me passionately but lovingly at the same time, then he pulled away and looked into my eyes "bye riot" he said and smiled a smug smile and made his way to the door. He turned around and smiled "oh by the way, BEST sex I've EVER had Riot, all three times of it and I'm serious and telling the truth when I say that "I throw my hands to my face and laugh into them "goodbye Andy!" I said he laughed and the hotel room door closed. This time when I looked up he was gone. Gone to god knows where but now the guilt is beginning to set in. How could I do this to Alex? He didn't deserve this. Maybe Andy is right. Maybe I'm not in love with him anymore because if I was then I wouldn't have done that to him

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