I am In Love With My Teacher

fly leaf all 'all around me' blast through my speakers as i enter the school. The feeling i have been having was spiraling out of control. i pull down my beanie stopping at my locker. I open it slowly grabbing my biology book and slam it shut again. The bell rang and i walked to my worst nightmare.

i walk in seeing my sister with a huge smile giving me a half wave. i just nod going to my seat, Danny grabbed me tight hugging me. She pulled out one ear phone and sighed. "I missed you, i threaten than fucker for three days."

"Okay." i whisper sliding down my seat grabbing the pen and begin to scribble down on my note pad. "Said you would never leave me, i believe." i quietly whisper.

My gut yell at me to look up. I did and saw him walk in. he stops dead in his tracks eyes widen. I lick my lips lowering my head once again. "Yesterday we talked about the heart." Andy spoke.

My foot tap lightly on the floor as another song of fly leaf came on 'sorrow'. Danny nudge me bobbing her head. i turn mine seeing Andy in front of me. "pull out the earphone please Sam." He whispers.

My head cock to one side and a small smile came on my face. "Or what? You gonna break my Ipod like you did my heart?"

"Don't." Danny warns putting her hand on my shoulder.

"Please." Andy begs.

i roll my eyes pulling out the ear phone. "happy?"

"Far from it." He mummers walking away.

A heavy sigh escape my lips as i turn to my best friend. "What?"

"I love you. But don't put your shit on me okay. He cheated not me."

"You are right, i am sorry Danny but i feel like want to throw up. In his face. I feel i can throw him with a rock so he realize how much i hurt. I can't do this and pretend this man in front of me is my teacher." I groan pulling of my beanie. My hair falling down my face like a curtain. The mask should come on earlier.

"I understand trust me i do, but don't let man defy who you are."

"Danny. Shut up." i snap standing up. "I need a hit." i walk to his desk with no emotion.

"Bathroom pass please."

Andy shook his head and sighed. "You ignored me for three days, please just talk to me."

"Say it."

no respond.

"Just give me the bathroom pass." i demand.

"You are not doing drugs Sam,"

I begin to burst from laughter. "I am not." i am.

"Fine." he slides the pass over, i grab it but he caught my wrist first. "I said i am sorry Sam."

"And i said we are done, Now get your hand off me before i scream." Okay did i just say that.

"Than do it." Whatttt? "Scream. You are breaking me Samantha." He seethed. "I can't sleep, i can't eat. I can't even write a damn song without sounding like a love sick puppy."

"You wanna talk? fine. but i am keeping my promise. You can never feel what i felt that night when i saw you. It broke me, you are breaking? Try not to cry in front of your parents when they talk about love. You are glad i just punched her and not you. You should be glad i did not bust your windows out of your car, i can be a bitch, now let go of me."

He lets go wide eyed. "lunch." i say with a smile walking out.

I ran to the bathroom straight to the stall. I burst from tears, my hands wet so was my shirt.. Is this what it feels like to really cry?

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