"Wait so you did what?" Alex laughed as i retold him the story of last night.
"I promise it wasn't my idea. My sisters' the crazy one not me!" I giggled it finally dawning on me how absurd and crazy our whole ordeal sounded. "Sure," he continued barking out another laugh. "Wow Cassara you should of told me you where crazy before i decided to befriend you!"
"Im NOT crazy just a little bit psychotic.."
"Oh cause that makes it better.."
"Shut up!" i teased pushing him with little force.
"Nah you know I'm only teasing Cass."

Falling into a comfortable silence the two sat under the bare tree in the lone field, thoughts crashing around Cassara's mind.

Ruby seemed nice enough i mean we left as soon as we where introduced but with the Cheshire grin and glow around Dad last night i'm sure she's amazing. Although can never be too careful, i guess i'll have to Sherlock my way around this because i mean that's MY Dad. Yeah, i'd hate to see Jake, Jinxx, Andy or Ashley falling in love with a bitch but to see my Dad fall for someone like Jaidee would be horrendous. I mean to see someone like that could become his wife, become my Mum makes me sick even thinking about it. Oh look at that another episode of Cassara Coma worrying about nothing. On another note Andy wants me to meet Juliet on Saturday where the three of us will go out for a while then hopefully i can give him my seal of approval. As for my love life well what's there to tell, Austin's ignoring me and has done for the past week so i'm guessing he's done and as much as that's breaking my little heart throwing away our relationship and friendship i think deep down i knew. I knew that everything wasn't going to work out but i suppose nothing does in my life its just one bullet after another. I knew everything between me and Aus was over when i began to realise every time we where together i was never happy, always had my guard around myself or paranoid that he would leave me for someone better, lie to me or as what became reality cheat on me. What a douche, i know i'm not perfect hell i'm far from it and i am no angel in any sense but to cheat on someone who gives you the world who would take a bullet for you ,literally i tired to stop that bullet from hitting him, is just down right disgusting and for that i will never trust him, not if he came begging for my forgiveness. I guess it goes to show how so much trust can be taken away in a split second, in one decision everything you loved is gone.

"CASSARA!" Alex shouted making in jolt up in shock his hand waving in front on my face, "Daydreaming or just very interested in the grass?"
"Uh yeah just you know just uh thinking you know exploring my dark mind." I replied a slight blush tinting my face.
"You know in the wise words of Albus Dumbledore happiness can be found in even the darkest of times if one only remember to turn on the light! With all these dark memories you try to suppress so hard they probably have had good consequences on you, made you stronger or given you strength things like that." Alex spoke trailing off at the end as he stood up wiping the grass from his butt. "You know sometimes you really are like a wise old elf, hard to think you are only 6 months older than me." I chucked as he pulled me to my feet.
"Thanks shortie but if anyone's the elf its you, you're like four foot." He teased with a grin on his face.
"Hey i'm actually 5ft 4 and can wear heels to make me taller but you're stuck with that ugly face!" i giggled. Suddenly his face changed into a mischievous one making me gulp and run as fast as my "little" legs could carry me my laughter following me as i ran. Too soon he had scooped me up from behind making me flail dramatically my ribs hurting from all my laughter. Being thrown over Alex's shoulder he began walking as i pounded his back demanding to be put down between my giggles. "You know i hate being manhandled put me down Alexander!"
"Not until you admit that you're sorry!"
"NEVER!"
"Hmmm well what if i do this.." With that i was thrown down as his hands tickled my body making my curl up in laughter. "Okay, okay i'm sorry you're face is perfect!" i panted clutching my searing ribs. "Now was that so hard Short stuff? hmmm!" Alex chirped yet again pulling me to my feet, beginning to head towards the park in a comfortable silence.

"You know Cassara.." Alex began when my phone sounded causing me to hold up a finger , "Hold that thought." Pressing answer i was met with a loud squeal from Veronicka on the other end making me grin. "What go you so happy Nick"
"JACK ASKED ME TO THE DANCE! i mean i thought he was gonna ask Red but he asked me which is amazing cause like we are really good friends and i have a slight crush on him but what if he likes me too i know he likes me but what if he like likes me oh my god i need a dress what do i wear? what if he doesn't like it, what if i'm under dressed what if..
"Woah Nick calm down, take a breathe. This is amazing and there is no need to worry about if he will like your dress or not you'll look great in anything i promise."
"But what if.."
"Hey no buts why don't you go tell Rebecca and start planning your outift yeah?"
"K bye!" Laughing to myself at her mental state and quick ending i placed my phone back in my pocket turning back to Alex his chocolate eyes meeting mine.

"What where you going to say?"
"Oh nothing i doesn't matter."
"Yes it does what was it?" i pushed further.
"Nah i've forgot anyway." Not fully believing him i let it go not wanting to be overpowering. Quickly lightening the mood i sprinted towards the swings, Alex following closely behind. Jumping onto the black swing i began to swing back and forth Alex soon joining with me after he began playing music from his phone. Swinging away to Sleeping With Sirens us both screaming the lyrics until our lungs burned and our throats were raw no cares in the world, smiles plastered to our faces. 3 2 1 JUMP Springing off of my swing i landed on the floor in a swift move however as Alex landed his foot clipped a stone sending him forward knocking us both to the ground his body pinning me to the ground. Gazing into each others eyes my blue orbs contrasting with his chocolate ones all was well untill....

"Cassara?"
"Austin?"
"What the fuck is going on!" He seethed sending daggers to Alex as we got off of the ground.
"None of your business that's what's going on!"

I can't fucking believe of all time he could show up it has to be now, when i'm with Alex.

"Oh so i come to find you to apologise for everything and you're way to fucking some dude in a park really classy Cas!"

"A) Don't you fucking dare call me out for anything of the sort we weren't going to have sex we fell its called and accident and B) Its not nice is it Austin. Finding the person you potentially love with another person is it? cause that's what i had to go through so you can get fucked cause i'm done all that options i gave you to say sorry, to make a mend and you didn't they're through. You only care when my happiness is involved when you find me with someone else is that it? are you just jealous? Well you know what fuck you." Sending him the finger i grabbed Alex's hands and stormed off leaving Austin in the dust.

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"Who the hell was that guy?" Ignoring him i paced back and forth my mind swirling. "Cass? come on speak to me." Alex tried again. "Cassara."
"What!" i shouted regretting it as soon as it left my lips, "Look i'm sorry i'm just really agitated."
"Its okay i get it, now who was he?"
"Just some douche bag."
"No he wasn't i can see that by the way you spoke you have past with him am i correct?" Nodding my head i began again "That's Austin, my long time bes friend and well ex."
"Wait so he's he guy who lied and cheated on you. The guy who made you cry that night... is that who the song was written about Cass?" Nodding again Austin got up onto his feet
"I'm gonna kill that guy, for what he did to you!"
"NO.. no just leave him what i said is everything he needed to hear everything i felt. Please i know him, if he's still sane he'll leave me alone now. If no then you can do what you like but please don't hurt him, not now what i said will hurt him more than any physical contact."
"Okay,"
"Okay now how about we go get some ice cream and pretend that didn't happen?"
"I swear the amount of ice cream you eat is unreal Cass."
"You know you love it" i teased as i skipped forward.
"Yeah i do." Alex whispered to himself as he quickly jogged up to meet Cassara smiles on both of them dispite the previous train of events.

Notes

ITS ALMOST CHRISTMAS!! If you couldn't tell i'm really excited! Anywho with xmas comes xmas break so i have got 2 weeks of from school = no stress and more updates! So happy holidays is basically what i'm trying to say!

QOTD: What are you wanting for Christmas (if you celebrate it that is) and what did you think of the chapter?

- Em xx