Our pain will shine our light to, those who understand

Two days until new years eve. Am i excited you ask, hell yeah i'm excited i just want this year over and done with, i mean yeah it's been the best and worst year of my life. I mean i got freakin adopted by the best father ever, have amazing uncles who are more like brothers and got a sister. Then there is the fact that i got to go to warped tour and meet all my hero's along with my best friend. On the downside my past came back to bite me, literally, you know who kidnapped me and then ugh..i don't even want to think about that bitch.

Stretching out my back as i yawned i skipped down the hall towards the kitchen hoping to get myself a ice lolly. Debating in my mind whether to pick a raspberry or lemonade flavoured lolly a shushed conversation sparked my interest. Tip-toeing up to the living room door i peeped through the thin gap finding my Dad pacing back and forth his hand on his head as beads of sweat ran down his forehead.
"Look I'm sorry Mr Clark but i had too, you cannot possible do this to me, to my family. No, don't no me, how do you expect me to cope? I have a 16 year old daughter who would be distraught not to mention my 4 other band mates who would be at your throat." Dad barked his voice raising. Wow i wonder what's going on.
"What so you mean you have to post-pone this discussion, but..Oh man that mother fucker hung up on me." He continued throwing his phone in a rage as he sank to his knees. Rushing in not caring the fact that it was obvious that i was eaves dropping,
"You okay Dad?" i questioned.
"Uh yeah i'm fine." He spoke wiping obvious tears from his eyes away trying to make me not worry.
"You don't look it."
"Cassara I'm said I'm fine, i promise, look why don't we go find your sister and we can go somewhere yeah?" Still not satisfied that he was okay i didn't push him any more, if something as terribly wrong he would tell me right, right?

"Oh Veronicka, my sweet sweet sister Dad wants us to go do something!" i hollered. Not hearing a reply i groaned stomping towards our room dramatically opening the door i began, "Veronicka did you not hear me" a stern tone to my voice, stopping mid sentence at the scene before me my heart broke. The small child was crumpled up into a ball, sobbing into a pillow. Rushing forward in a state of frenzy i pulled her into my lap as she sobbed into my t-shirt. "Shhh shh what's the matter? what happened?" i whispered rubbing her back as i did so, "She..she..."
"She who?"
"Red..My best friend Rebecca..she got into an accident..she's in hospital right now." Veronicka stuttered as another tsunami of tears washed down her face, her blue orbs glassy. I knew exactly how she felt, the pain she is going through when your best friend is potentially dying. Ten minutes later the sobbing began to subside, pulling away from my grasp her eyes all red and puffy.
"You didn't did you?" i questioned not sure if i wanted to know the answer. Her head now bowed, a small tear trickled down her face as did mine. "I wanted to so bad but i didn't." A small smile on my face i pulled her into yet another hug, pulling up her sleeve the now fading scars littered her arms, faded, she didn't buckle. "I'm so proud of you." i spoke meaning every word. The side of her lips began to curve into a smile at those words, heck i knew exactly how it felt, then to be told that someone was proud of you it was the best feeling. To know that someone cares for your well being, cares for you in all ways possible.
"Now how about we go collect our dad and have fun yeah?" Standing up i held out my hand beckoning her to me, with that she stood up wiping her eyes.
"Sorry about your shirt Cas." She giggle making me look down at my now mascara stained tee, "Nah no problem, i still look damn fine." i joked striking a pose making Veronicka giggle. "To neverland!" With that the two girls stumbled out the room laughing away like maniacs

Notes

Why is CC mad?
Will Nicky's friend be okay?
Where's Austin, we haven't heard from him in a while?
All good questions. Hope you guys are having a great morning/afternoon/evening!

- Em xxx