Recollection

Once the three of us had an early dinner, we sat back on the sofa and enjoyed some quiet time in front of the television. Ash spent most of the time channel surfing like a pro as I watched Punk sleep in the pack-n-play laid out directly at our feet.

Thoughts and words I wanted to speak filled my mind as well as doubt on the upcoming tour. I was torn about going. I still hadn't fully recovered and Ash needed to be completely involved with the band and not his personal life. I had the feeling if I accompanied him, things could turn out to be disastrous.

"Something bugging you?"

"What gave it away?"

"The frown on your face. You can talk to me!"

Taking a huge breath in and exhaling moments later, I launched head first into the conversation.

"Did you really give any thought to how hard it's going to be touring with a little boy in tow and me being in the shape I'm in?"

Ash was silent. I wasn't sure if I caught him off guard or if he was choosing his words carefully.

"It's not going to be easy, I can't help with Punk. At least, not until this damn cast comes off and even then I'm not sure what's in store after. You need to be devoted to your performing."

"Autumn, I thought long and hard about it. I even spoke with the other guys. We'd all pitch in and help! The guys love you just as much as I do. I want you and Punk to be there."

"I don't think it'd be a good idea, Ashley. At least not yet! I can find a place to stay until you get back home."

"No, you'll stay here. You can get Niki or one of your other friends to stay with you."

"You're not going to fight me on this?!"

"There's no sense to. You've made up your mind, I can hear it in your voice."

And I could hear the disappointment in his. It broke my heart to have to tell him no, but I figured it'd be for the best.

"I'm gonna put Punk to bed. I'll be back down in a few minutes."

I watched as he delicately picked up his sleeping son and cradled him in his arms. He disappeared up the stairs and returned more than ten minutes later. Tossing a baby monitor onto the coffee table, he leaned over, grabbed my neck from behind and slammed his lips hard against mine.

"I'm going to miss the craziness I feel for you." he breathed into my mouth.

He kneeled down to my level while his hands found the front of my shirt. He lifted it up enough to scale his fingers across my stomach around to my back, edging me closer.

I spread my legs to allow him to close the distance and he lifted me up to settle upon his waist.

Not caring about the TV, he asked me to hold on tight while he grabbed the baby monitor and carried me upstairs.

We passed Hunter's nursery on our way to the bedroom. Once we entered, I finally realized what took him so long.

Candles were lit all around the massive room, giving it a soft warm glow. He laid me down upon the bed and took ease at first removing my jeans, socks and underwear. I tried tugging my shirt down one handed to cover my lower nakedness but his hand stopped mine.

"I don't think so!" his teeth raked my lower lip before he began sucking ever so gently on my lip ring.

I allowed his hands to roam freely and they moved up and down my sides softly. In a quick attempt, my shirt was torn into two pieces and his mouth left mine to trail its way down my neck to the valley between my breasts. He asked me to lean forward so my bra could be undone, letting the cool air set upon my nipples.

He leaned back upon his heels, taking in the sight in front of him.

"Damnit!" he expressed when I sat up and gazed into his eyes.

His clothes were sent flying all over the room as he impatiently tore them from his body.

He didn't waste any time whatsoever climbing over my body, grabbing for my legs to wrap around his waist. He entered quickly and swiftly with his mouth fastened upon my neck. He ran his teeth downward and latched upon the nipple of my left breast, sending me into a tailspin.

I clawed at his hair and back, drawing a growl from within his chest.

He didn't miss one second. He kept thrusting furiously, like he wasn't going to ever get enough.

Oddly enough, it was such an amazing feeling. One that was only going to get better.

He slipped one hand between us. I stiffened at the contact and he told me to relax.

"Ashley..no!"

"How long has it been?"

I silenced myself, not wanting him to know that the time we conceived Hunter was the last time I had any real release.

He didn't seem to pick up on the silence and kept up with creating the friction needed for me to come.

I kept myself at bay for awhile until he finally exclaimed that he was close.

"Aut, I want to feel you come around me."

And that was all it took, the dam inside broke and shockwaves cascaded over my body.

Ash's left hand leapt into my hair, grasping it to tip my head back while his teeth latched upon the right side of my neck. I felt his back become rigid under my hands and his body go completely still. I knew he had finally reached the peak of relief for himself.

Not deciding to withdraw himself just yet, he rolled us both over and began his assault once again. Guessing once just wasn't enough for him. He made me come once again.

When the effects of my second orgasm had finally subsided, he pulled out and laid me down beside his overheated body.

"I Love You!"

I instantly stiffened at his words.

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