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Love And Other Drugs

More Than A Feeling

Andy had been the first one on the bus and he had quickly showered and was now sitting at the kitchen table. The other guys were back in the venue, using as much of the open space as possible. They all had gotten used to being on a bus together but Andy was glad for the time by himself. He was currently looking over some of the pictures that had already come up online of the show and every other one was making him cringe in disgust.

A photo of him and Jinxx, singing together to one song or another and then there would be a picture of Luxe and him with her hand against his cheek. He wanted to forget that that had ever happened, but it seemed like the entire world was loving this little faux romance that he had going on with the singer.

He didn’t dare get on his Twitter or Instagram and while Andy had a tumblr he rarely got on there because he knew that only ridiculous things lived on that site. There was one site he was curious about and as Andy typed it into the search bar and waited he sipped at his Seagram and Sprite. Soon enough the site had popped up and Andy cringed even more as he began to scroll.

BlackVeilBridesfanfiction.com was an entire site dedicated to BVB fanfiction and the guys often would scroll through it when they laid in their bunks at night. One look at the New Stories page and Andy could see that there were already five new fanfictions pairing he and Luxe together.

“Andy!” Someone called his name and the singer turned around, facing the front of the bus, to see that his bandmates were finished in the venue and were now walking up the steps of the bus. CC punched his shoulder lightly on his way back to his bunk and Ashley only laughed as he sat down across from the tired looking kid.

“What’s up man?” Ash asked as he stretched his tattooed arms over his head and looked across the table at his best friend. Andy looked tired and angry and Ashley didn’t even want to know what was on the screen of the laptop because it was most likely the cause of his irritation.

“Luxe and I are an item.” Andy said through gritted teeth and Ashley couldn’t help but laugh loudly. Jake, who was sitting on the couch across from them and unlacing his boots, only looked up and shook his head. They had all agreed that this time around they weren’t jealous of Andy and all the attention he was getting.

“Says who?” Ashley laughed as he got up from the table and moved to get himself a beer. Their entire fridge was filled with beer and booze-as per their rider through the record company.

“Everyone but me.” Andy said as he ran his hand through his hair and gripped at it tightly. He needed to cut it-it was getting too long and was overly damaged from all of the dye. His hair was black, but naturally Andy was a blonde with reddish tint, something that few people realized.

“What’s so wrong with being linked with a cute singer from a band of really hot chicks? I’m confused…” CC stated as he walked towards the front and sat down in one of the recliners. Andy only groaned-here it comes…the lecture.

The guys all liked to give Andy advice, especially when it came to girls and all things involving romance-whether he liked it or not. Andy sighed as he sat back and looked around. Ashley was sitting across from him, CC had moved to sit beside Ash and Jinxx was now seated beside Andy-Jake was still on the couch, but he was facing the small group as they all sat there quietly. Romance was hard for Andy to understand not because he had never loved before, but he no longer saw the point in it. He had been with his previous girlfriend for four years and while those first three years had been amazing, the last one had been completely devastating.

They had both done and said things that completely damaged their lives together-Andy cheated and so had she. He had loved her, with her deep auburn hair and light green eyes and he loved that she had her own acting career that seemed to be keeping her distracted while he was away working on the band. But their time together had been spent with loads of deception and drunken nights of sleeping around and then fighting with one another.

Andy didn’t play innocent-he had cheated on her with a few girls and she had done the same to him with a few guys from various bands. They were poison to one another, but together they had been perfect. She made him smile and as he sat there and looked at a picture of her that had come across the tumblr page he was looking at, Andy couldn’t help but smile once again.

“She’s not Scout.” He said miserably, his deep voice pained and Jinxx only rubbed a hand across the singer’s back.

“No, no she’s not. She’s Luxe and she could be better than Scout.” Jake said from his spot and Andy only groaned. He didn’t want to talk about this right now-he didn’t want to think about much of anything right now.

“No one is going to replace Scout.” Andy said stubbornly and Ashley only rolled his eyes. Most of the songs on their new album-Smoke and Mirrors, God Bless You and Love Isn’t Always Fair-were all written with Scout in mind and they had thought that Andy was over her…he slept around like he was.

“Dude-get the fuck over it.” CC said gruffly and they all stopped breathing for a moment. Andy was a great guy, but he had a temper and sometimes that temper was uncontrollable.

“I thought I was.” Ashley pitied the singer and he gave the kid an encouraging smile. Maybe he and Luxe should get together…even if it was only for a short while.

“Well snap the fuck out of it! Go be nice to Luxe, get your dick wet and move the fuck on!” Ashley said and they all laughed. It was funny to think of Andy being that way, hopeless romantic that he was. He didn’t have many one night stands and after most of them he always felt bad.

Andy slept around and after it was all said and done, Andy could barely look at himself in the mirror for a few days afterwards. He felt dirty and he felt like he had used the girl in the situation for nothing other than to make himself feel slightly more whole. Wow-and he had judged Luxe for kissing him on stage. Now Andy felt like an even bigger asshole and as the guys around him all joked about his budding romance with the young singer, Andy felt sick to his stomach. He reached across the table, grabbed Ashley’s beer and downed it all without taking a breath.

“Whoa man…” Ashley said as he snatched the bottle and sighed-he liked that beer and it was kind of expensive.

“I gotta do something man…I have to put a stop to these fucking rumors.” Andy said as he looked up from the laptop screen and was met with a bunch of smirking faces. Oh no…it was never good when the guys all looked at him like that. Usually those looks led to someone running around naked outside after a drunken game of truth or dare.

“I have an idea.” Ashley said and Andy noticed that Ashley and CC were sharing a look. Andy gulped-not good. So not good.

“I don’t want to know.” Andy said as he closed the laptop and noticed that there was loud laughter coming from outside.

“I’ll just say that I have a friend in the next town. Cute, big tits…really great in bed. I’ll introduce you…” Ashley said but stopped as the laughing got louder. CC moved across from Ashley and Andy laughed and was sorely tempted to try and push the drummer out of the open window.

“What the fuck?!” CC said loudly and soon enough Ashley’s head was also hanging out of the bus. Jinxx was leaning over Andy and Jake was also joining and Andy went ahead and joined them all.

“Just incase you guys run out!” Andy heard laughter and he knew then that their entire bus had been tped.

“This means war Dolls!” Ashley called after the girls and Andy only smirked as he noticed that Luxe had stopped at their bus door and called something out to them.

She looked cute in her t-shirt and sleep shorts-much cuter like that than she did in that elaborate stage get up that Alex forced her into. Andy only smirked as he stuck his head back in to the window and looked back down at the laptop. Their kiss was plastered all over the internet, but Andy knew if he was seen with other girls around town that those rumors of he and Luxe would soon be squashed. CC had gotten up, getting them each a beer and as Andy sipped at his, he smirked just thinking about getting back at the Dolls by the next stop.

“We have to get them back man.” Jake said as he turned on the television and Andy noticed that there was an old episode of Animated Batman on the screen.

“No Andy!” They all shouted together and then laughed as Jake turned the channel and Andy whimpered like an injured puppy.

“I watched Batman enough over the summer man. Go take that shit to the girl’s bus and see how long they put up with it.” CC said and Andy only smirked as he drained his beer and moved to get up. Jinxx got out of his way and Andy noticed that Ashley was sitting there looking up at him.

“Where’re you going?” The bassist asked and Andy only smirked before a yawn lined his features. It had been a long and stressful night and Andy wanted to lay down before his insomnia kicked in.

“Bed. I’m beat.” Andy said as he walked back to the bunk and sighed as Ashley called out after him.

“If you’re going to rub one out to a blonde and teal haired girl please keep your curtains closed!” Andy only shook his head as their laughter followed him all the way back to his bunk.

Andy pulled open the black curtain and smirked as he looked down at his nicely made bed-this wasn’t going to last very long. His Batman sheets looked so inviting and as Andy pulled down his pants, tossed his old Rancid shirt towards the back and slid beneath them, he knew that at least for tonight he would get a good nights sleep. Usually insomnia plagued him, kept him up until the wee hours of the morning, but as Andy laid on his left side and pulled his extra pillow down to lay against his chest, Andy knew he would sleep good tonight. He closed his eyes, but his senses were filled with all things Luxe in that moment.

The pillow in his arms could be her and while he mostly didn’t want it to be, Andy couldn’t help but wonder what it would be like waking up with the small blonde in his arms. Would she sleep peacefully beside him? Or would she move around every once in awhile and try to get comfortable? He could smell her as he drifted to sleep-she smelled like honeysuckle and it filled his nostrils as Andy sighed softly. The feel of her lips against his would haunt his dreams that night and as he slowly fell into a deep sleep, Andy wondered if Luxe was thinking about him at all.

They hated one another, but sometimes hate turned in to something stronger and Andy knew he was feeling strong feelings for Luxe.

What were they and what did they mean? Only time would tell…


These two seem to be more and more confused as time goes on. They hate one another, but neither can deny that the other has something special about them.




I'm so glad you found this little gem. Sadly this was my last full story, but I do have a few other serial stories on this site which are different from this one, but just as well written. You can find all of them in my profile<3

Broken Wing Broken Wing

So I can honestly say I didn't discover this story until recently. When I first started reading it I knew it would be one of my favorites from this site. I saw the sad ending coming but dear god I was still not prepared in any way. You wrote everything so genuinely and in a way that showed an amazing range of real and raw emotions. I may or may not have been crying profusely through the last chapters. This was a beautiful, bittersweet, and amazing story and I look forward to anything else you may ever decide to write. Thank you

Giacobra Giacobra

I've been reading this story for so long and now it has come to an end. It ended so beautifully. Thank you for the hard work you put into this. This was a great story <3

This was probably the first stories I read here. Every chapter was amazing, and you just as an amazing writer. Thank you for making such an amazing story. It felt so real to be part of the life of Luxe and the Dolls!!

RisenDemon RisenDemon

I'm pretty sure I've done nothing but cry while reading these last few chapters. You do a wonderful job getting the reader emotionally involved in this story, and I'm really glad that I was able to read this wonderfully written piece. Thank you for all of the time and hard work that went into this story. It is definitely one of the best that I have read in a really long time.

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