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Love And Other Drugs

Mixed Up, Fucked Up

Luxe was shaking in her black leather boots, her knees knocking in to one another as the lights began to go down and the crowd began to come to attention. It was a packed house and a good showing for their first night on this tour, but Luxe was terrified. They had never played in front of this many people before and especially not with a very popular band coming right on behind them.

Luxe looked around-they were stage left and she could see over her shoulder that Char, Pixie and Lulu were all getting their instruments strapped on and Mads was twirling her drum sticks in between her fingers. Luxe had already done her vocal warm up alone in their dressing room and so while she was ready to get on stage physically-mentally she wanted to roll in to a ball and cry.

Black Veil Brides were also on the side of the stage and while most of the guys-except Andy and Ashley-were supportive, Luxe could still see their hesitance. CC was talking to Mads, giving her advice on how to move so that she got the force she needed but wouldn’t tire herself out. Jake and Jinxx were both talking to Char, Pixie and Lulu about stage presence. Luxe made eye contact with Andy and while it looked like he wanted to come over and say hello, she could see that he was fighting himself tooth and nail. He hated her, which was fine because she thought him pompous and snooty, but it still would be nice if they could help one another out every once and a while.


“Dolls! Dolls! Dolls!” The crowd was cheering over and over again and Luxe felt her heart speed up as her bandmates walked towards her and she could see that she wasn’t the only one who was nervous. Pixie was biting down on her lip so hard that it was bleeding.

“You ready?!” Char called out to her over the crowd and Luxe could only nod her head silently.

“You’re going to be fine!” Mads called out, tossing a tattooed arm over her shoulders and Luxe couldn’t help but feel shocked. Mads had gotten over her being in the band, but the drummer was less than agreeable about things when it came to Luxe. She felt like Luxe got a lot more attention placed on her and that wasn’t fair as Char was really the leader of the group.

“Look we go out there and we play to melt faces! If they don’t like it then they never have to hear from us again!” Pixie said as she and Lulu high fived and smirked at one another. Luxe only smiled and nodded her head.

“Okay! I’m just nervous about that duet with Andy-Alex said we have to play it up and he…he wants us to kiss.” Luxe said the last part a bit quieter so that the guys in BVB wouldn’t hear, especially Andy.


Alex had come to her after the M&G while everyone else was taking another shot and told her what his plan was. Luxe had refused-she would sing the song with him, but there would be no touching, no hugging and absolutely no kissing. Alex had grabbed her then, moving her out of ear shot and Luxe had never seen him so furious. He snarled at her, telling her to shut her mouth and do the job she was being paid to do. She would sing the duet, every night and at the end she would kiss Andy and then he would leave the stage. There was no negotiating this and Luxe felt trapped and she also felt like maybe she didn’t want to do this anymore. All of the girls gasped at her words and Mads went from being happy to pissed the fuck off in a matter of seconds.


“No!”

“Don’t do it!”

“Disgusting!” The girls all shouted at once and their protestations over something that didn’t affect them made Luxe feel slightly better.

" I have to, but it’s just a kiss…right?” Luxe asked but there was no answer as the one minute warning was given and she noticed a small group was walking towards them.

“We wanted to wish you guys good luck!” CC called to them as he reached out and hugged Luxe before moving on to hug every other girl.

“Yeah-we really hope you guys get the crowd pumped!” Jinxx smiled at them and Luxe felt her body relax-these guys weren’t as bad as they seemed.

“I guess I’ll see you out there…” Andy said in her ear and Luxe almost jumped out of her skin as she turned around and faced him. He was much taller than her, even in her slightly heeled boots and Luxe had to look up to meet his light blue eyes.

“Yeah…don’t sound so excited about it.” He scowled at this, completely missing her sarcasm and Luxe sighed. This was their problem-they both had a very dry humor but it kept getting misinterpreted.

“I’m not. I’m only doing this because our new record is being held over our heads.” Andy said with anger in his voice before turning on his heel to walk over and speak to their manager. He seemed so angry and Luxe noticed that Jake and Jinxx both looked apologetic on account for their friend.


Andy stopped talking to Jon as he heard the Dolls chanting in their warm up circle and he caught Luxe’s eye just before she was about to run out on stage. Mads, the drummer, had already made it out there followed by Char, Pixie and Lulu. Luxe glared at him just before she turned the corner and all Andy could do was stare at her corset clad back and wonder why they couldn’t get along. They should like one another, but she was just so spoiled-having everything handed to her and she didn’t even seem to care how easy she had it. Andy moved to stand at the side of the stage with the guys and watched as the girls ran around.

Luxe looked like a pro out there, she knew just when to animate to the crowd, when to let the girls in front sing and when to back up and bang her head with Mads as the drummer went at it. The crowd was going wild and Andy couldn’t help but tap his toes as the girls went in to their song Make Me Wanna Die. He had barely listened to the album that Alex had left for them to listen to, but Andy had heard enough of this one song to know that he actually liked it. Luxe played it well-she stood completely still at the very beginning of it and once the guitars really got going she would tap her toes, nod her head until her entire body was shaking.


“They’re really doing great out there!” CC called out to him from over his shoulder and Andy only smirked and nodded his head slowly. The girls were playing another song and Andy knew that soon enough he would have to get out there for their duet that he knew even Luxe was dreading.

“Stop being a hater Biersack!” Jake called to him and Andy only glared at the guitarist as he fluffed the back of his teased hair and then pulled his vest tightly around his chest.

“I’m not! I’ll admit that they are better than I thought they would be.” Andy said and he could tell that the guys were all laughing at him as their shoulders were shaking slightly.

“Face it Biersack-you’re jealous.” Ashley said and Andy, in that moment, wanted to punch his best friend in the nose. Andy was about to speak, but Jon had come up to him and whispered in his ear that he needed to get ready to get on stage.

“Alright Dolls! Now we‘re going to slow things down for a minute and I’m going to bring out someone really special. Do you guys wants to meet our special guest?!” Luxe had called out to the crowd and Andy knew that he was the special guest she was referring to.

“I can’t hear you!” She shouted into the mic and the crowd grew louder. Andy couldn’t move and he felt someone pushing him towards the stage and he knew it was either Jon or Alex.

“Andy Biersack from Black Veil Brides everyone!” Luxe called out to the crowd as she held out her hand for him to take. Alex had told him to play the role of a couple, but Andy was really hoping that Luxe wasn’t going to go for it.

He was wrong.

“I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh. I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away. I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well. I wanna hold you high and steal your pain. ” Andy sang lowly at first, not able to find his voice, but as he looked down into Luxe’s eyes he seemed to be able to connect with the guitar. He sang his part and then towards the chorus he and Luxe were able to harmonize, even though they had only sung this song once and that was earlier today.

“The worst is over now and we can breathe again. I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away. There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight.I wanna hold you high and steal your pain.” As she sang to him, both of them standing in the middle of the stage, Luxe let her hand fall and rest against his cheek and Andy felt himself shiver.


The guitars and the drums seemed to catch fire as the two of them continued to sing together and Andy felt something run down through his body. Luxe still had her hand against his cheek and he could see the tears in her eyes as she looked at him with a sultry and yet sad look on her face. As they got closer to the finish of the song, Andy moved, feeling in the moment, to stand behind Luxe and draped his arms across her shoulders and let one of his hands trail down to grab her hand from behind and Luxe gently rested her head against his bare chest. They looked like the perfect couple and as they got to the very end, Andy was shocked to see Luxe move away from him but she was still holding his hand.


'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away



As they finished the song, Luxe placed her hand against his cheek once again and their foreheads met softly and then her lips were on his. Andy didn’t know what to think or what he should do and so he just went with it. He wasn’t going to embarrass himself or Luxe in front of all these people, but he didn’t want to be kissing her either.Her lips felt soft against his-she completely molded herself against him in that moment and Andy smirked into the kiss as he slowly moved her face away from his, waved to the crowd and then walked off the stage. He ran past all of his bandmates, past Jon and Alex who were both calling his name and ended up outside in the back alley behind the venue.


“Fucking bitch!” He yelled out into the night and he noticed that a few people walking past had stopped. Andy screamed again, kicking a nearby crate and watching as it flew across the alley and smashed against a far wall.

“Why would she fucking do that?!” He asked no one in particular and Andy pressed himself against the wall and dug around for his cigarettes.


This didn’t make sense-her kissing him made no sense at all and yet as Andy stood there and smoked not one but three cigarettes he couldn’t help but feel something. He hadn’t wanted to kiss Luxe, but he couldn’t deny that the feeling of her lips against his felt natural.

It felt right.

Notes

Uh oh...it seems like Luxe and Andy are being forced even more together. Is that going to be a good thing? Or is it going to cause one of them to explode on the other?

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The songs used in this chapter:

Make Me Wanna Die -The Pretty Reckless
Broken -Seether ft. Amy Lee

Comments

@Giacobra

I'm so glad you found this little gem. Sadly this was my last full story, but I do have a few other serial stories on this site which are different from this one, but just as well written. You can find all of them in my profile<3

Broken Wing Broken Wing
4/16/16

So I can honestly say I didn't discover this story until recently. When I first started reading it I knew it would be one of my favorites from this site. I saw the sad ending coming but dear god I was still not prepared in any way. You wrote everything so genuinely and in a way that showed an amazing range of real and raw emotions. I may or may not have been crying profusely through the last chapters. This was a beautiful, bittersweet, and amazing story and I look forward to anything else you may ever decide to write. Thank you

Giacobra Giacobra
4/15/16

I've been reading this story for so long and now it has come to an end. It ended so beautifully. Thank you for the hard work you put into this. This was a great story <3

This was probably the first stories I read here. Every chapter was amazing, and you just as an amazing writer. Thank you for making such an amazing story. It felt so real to be part of the life of Luxe and the Dolls!!

RisenDemon RisenDemon
3/31/16

I'm pretty sure I've done nothing but cry while reading these last few chapters. You do a wonderful job getting the reader emotionally involved in this story, and I'm really glad that I was able to read this wonderfully written piece. Thank you for all of the time and hard work that went into this story. It is definitely one of the best that I have read in a really long time.

LostInTheMusic LostInTheMusic
3/31/16