ANDY'S POV


As Acid and the band marveled over Des’ tattoo, I went to grab some Jack from the fridge. I got a shot glass from the cabinet and poured a healthy serving. Downing the drink, I set the glass on the counter and poured another. I felt like my world was spinning, something just wasn’t right. I fluffed my hair, even though I was just on the bus, trying to shake the uncertainty. I didn’t know what I was feeling, or where it came from, but I didn’t like it. Just 20 minutes ago, I felt like I was on top of the world, and now…this.

It started out as a small stomach ache on the way home from the tattoo parlor. I ignored it, thinking I was just hungry. But this was not hunger. I felt like I needed to throw up, or throw something. I wanted to break something. I wanted to fight someone.

I downed another shot of whiskey, trying to get buzzed to somewhat numb the feeling. I sauntered back into the lounge and plopped down on the couch, staring blankly into space. Everything seemed to happen in slow motion, and nobody paid any attention to me. I watched as Des and Ashley were playing Call of Duty, and Des was getting killed left and right. She playfully punched Ashley on the shoulder and tried to shoot him, but missed, and he killed her again.

Something about the way they were getting along was pissing me off so badly, my vision started to blur.

“Destiny.”

The word came out like poison, and I watched the other guys and Acid walk back to the bunks to talk about something irrelevant to what was happening at the moment. Des turned and she smiled at me.

“Yeah?”

“Come here.” I quickly pointed to the empty spot next to me on the couch and sat up straight.

“What’s up?” She sat on her feet and was dangerously close to me.

“What sort of…feelings do you have for Ashley?”

At the mention of his name, Ashley whipped his head around and stared at us, trying to listen in.

“Wait, what? What’s going on? I don’t like Ashley that way. I mean, for God’s sake, he has Acid, and I have you, why would I want to take that away from Acid?”

“Oh no…” Ashley said under his breath. He quickly got up and turned the gaming console off. “Jake, Jinxx, CC, I need you in here!” he screamed.

“You stay out of this Purdy boy. This is between Destiny and myself.” I stood up and glared at Destiny. My stomach burned and my head throbbed. I could feel my quickening pulse in my temples.

Jinxx entered first. He took a good look at me and knew exactly what was wrong. “C!” he yelled.

CC ran into the lounge and also examined my composure. “Oh God…”

“What’s wrong?” Destiny asked, and she stood up as well.

“Sit. Down.” I turned to her and towered over her. She quickly fell back onto the couch with a confused expression on her face.

“Andy. Andy, you have to calm down,” Jinxx said, as he started towards me. My head began to pound and it felt like my stomach could explode. I moved to defend myself by putting my fists up as a warning sign not to come any closer.

“He’s having another episode,” Ashley whispered, as Jake walked into the room.

“It’s not an episode, it’s the truth. Destiny is cheating on me. With you, Purdy boy.” My eyes narrowed and became mere slits.

CC lunged for my legs while Jake and Jinxx both took one arm and pinned me to the ground. While I was strong, I couldn’t help but fall to the floor. I saw Ashley help Destiny up and he walked her back to the bunks.

“You need to stay back here for now, it’s nothing personal.”

“What’s wrong?” Amanda and Acid emerged from the back area of the bus and CC screamed “Go back, he’s having an episode!”

I saw Destiny looking at me and I became extremely pissed. I finally took the pain in my body and inflicted it on Destiny.

“You whore! You’re nothing but a harlot! I fucking hate you! I hope you’re fucking happy!” My throat burned from screaming and tears welled up in her eyes. She slowly made her way back to the bunk area as Acid and Amanda gazed in horror. Acid raced after her, followed by Amanda.

I was still struggling to get up but I couldn’t. I screamed and kicked and thrashed around but I couldn’t get free.

“Andy! Nothing is going on between Blade and I! You need to calm down, everything is okay,” Ashley said, trying to be calm.

“NO! She’s cheating on me! I’m not good enough for her! She’s not happy with me, she never will be!” Tears streamed from my eyes and I kicked and screamed harder. I could barely see anything from the salt water escaping my eyes but I could make out the figure of Acid’s red hair and body.

Ashley went to talk to her and I stopped fighting to listen.

“What’s happening? Why would he treat her like this?”

“It’s a long story. Ever since Scout broke up with him, he’s had occasional emotional episodes where he would cry and scream that he isn’t good enough for anyone. He can’t keep a relationship because of these episodes. He’s had about six one night stands and two three-week long relationships. All of them ended the same way. Andy got paranoid that they were cheating on him like Scout did, and he’s been emotionally unstable ever since. He usually blacks out and doesn’t remember anything from the night before. We don't talk about it, so he doesn't really know he does this.” His voice was low, but I could still hear him over the dull roar of the bus.

While he was talking, I had laid still enough for Jake, Jinxx, and CC to let go of my arms and legs. I stayed on the ground, breathing heavily, tears flowing down the sides of my face. My stomach burned so bad I thought I was going to throw up. My breathing became jagged unstable. I began sobbing, and I covered my face with my hands.

Why would Destiny ever want me? I know Ashley would be a better choice, he always gets the girls anyways. I was nothing but a ticking time bomb waiting to explode on anyone. And I guess that person just so happened to be Destiny.

The last thing I remember was being lifted up and being put in my bunk. I remember lying there for a few minutes, thinking of how terrible of a person I was. After that…it just goes dark.

Notes

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