Daddy Andy

Needless to say I didn't ever want to leave my room again. After my episode, the stricken conclusion my father had no idea and I laid the truth at his feet, I didnt know what I was to do with myself. He took every diary from me. The ones I threw including the one I was currently writing in. I was lost in myself. The look on his face. I couldnt bare to look him in the eyes again. I slumped against my bed just staring at the doorway waiting for it to barge open, him realizing my unhealthy secret. Yelling and telling me I need to get help and that would be it. I'd be gone, never to see them until I was cleared. Silent tears cascaded down my cheeks, I didnt dare make a noise. I held my breath as my phone vibrated thinking he'd hear it and come and confiscate that too. Lazily, I threw my arm over my head and absentmindedly searched for my phone. My cloudy eyesight made it hard to read but I read Vyktor on my screen.

Vyktor: "So tomorrow's session you'll need one extra item of clothing." Confused I numbly text him.
Me: "What for?" I didnt care that I seemed snappy.
Vyktor: "I'm adding swimming." I could just see the smile on his face. Normally, I would be excited too but in the light of recent events I was finding it hard to motivate myself to keep breathing. I didnt reply back. Just dropped my phone in front of me and still gazed at my closed door.

My mother tried coming in to talk, probably knowing something was wrong considering she'd come home and daddy and I were always a passed out mess on the couch. I just fake to sleep. No need in bringing her into this.

~The next day~ Friday
I didnt even have my alarm set. I was just awake. I didnt know what to dream anymore. Or if I could. I got a couple of texts from Victoria and Vyktor asking 'whats wrong' and 'OMG theres a new kid at school. Dreamy. ;)' I just stayed mute. I didnt know how today would go or how it would start. I was terrified. Let alone, My mother left today for two weeks. I could only imagine how things would go after she left.

I chose a overly simple outfit for the day. Jeans and a white T-shirt. My hair loose, light makeup and a spritz of purfume. I tried leaving without a sound but my mother was sitting on the couch by the door. Book in hand she looked so peaceful. I barely waved to acknowledge her when she followed me to the kitchen. I wasnt hungry so I had no clue why I ventured that way. Habit I guess. I ran my hand along the edge of the island before I just decided to grab an apple. Picking up my satchel I turned and bumped into her. "Hunny, you ok?" I didnt lift my gaze from my fingers as I just simply said 'not feeling the greatest today.' Shrugging my shoulders I proceeded to walk out the door. I just continued walking, I didnt have the energy for a bike.

Reaching school grounds was a blur. I took notice of just how loud school was. I flinched as it surrounded me. At my locker, sorting through books and assignments Torie stood on the blocked side of my view. I huffed and put on a fake smile just so I didnt have to go through the whole day with the same questions. "So? Did you get my messages?" She bounced on the balls of her feet. I nodded. "Good, because he's walking this way and you have him in a couple of your classes. You need to ..' She stopped taking in my appearance. I was bland. As if reassuring herself she shook her head, placed her hands on my shoulders, smiled, 'get him to notice you.' I laughed.

It was well over halfway through the school day and I had this unsettling feeling of being watched. Legs crossed, leaning my head on my hand, drumming my pen on my desk a tap touched my shoulder. Hesitantly I turned to someone looking directly at me. Fixated on me. My breathing stopped. He smirked. Licking over his lips he mouthed a hushed 'Hi'. I blinked, blushed and pulled some hair behind my ear before turning back to the front. A smile spreading to my face. I would look back occasionally to find him relaxed in his seat, smirking at me. I'd bite my lip and he seemed to go rigid. The bell for dismissal made me jump out of my seat. I didnt know what to do. How to talk to him. I met up with Torie in the hallway a couple of classes down when I heard chuckling coming from her. "What?" I asked. She looked back, smiled and just started giggling again. "I think you've got him." I creased my forehead unaware of said 'new guy' following behind me. Following my every movement. My hips swaying. My lips moving as I talked. So Torie was telling me in my ear. She reached her next class and we broke away. I guess he was waiting for that because he then was behind me arms wrapped around my waist as I stood at my locker to exchange books again. I was flattered but I didnt want people thinking I was easy. Although it was no secret. No one here has ever seem me with a boyfriend or heard a rumor of me being a floozy. I wanted to pull his arms off my waist but the contact was just so intoxicating. I screamed inside.

"So you're the new kid?" Nearly above a whisper, moving in his grasp as I exchanged a book, my head straight but my eyes were trying to focus on our reflection in the shine of the lockers. "I guess you could call me that but I'd much prefer if you called me your boyfriend." Cocky much? His voice was seductive. I couldnt help but think this was a bad joke or prank. I then simply removed myself from him, "I dont play games, but those girls over there might like what you have to offer." Motioning with a nod of my head in the direction of a group of three girls gaping at him hungrily. As he was turned I took that as my time to leave. I was already entering my next class as he stood there with a odd look of determination. It almost turned me on.

Lunch came and went and I was just listening to Torie ramble on in our last class together about some gig that was happening tonight. She wanted to go. She wanted me to go. She kept mentioning that fact that some kid named Leon was going to be there and that I needed this. I just kinda nodded my head not truly paying any attention. As I walked out the doors of school a brisk cold wind flew by me. I dont remember it being cold today. Wrapping my arms tightly around my torso for warmth I headed home. My phone buzzed in my pocket. I looked at the screen and my heart dropped. 'Daddy <3'

Notes

Sorry for the missing update yesterday, I kinda had a few too many. But no worries there will be two updates today. :)