Knives & Pens

Andy swallowed hard and looked at Pandora. “We should head back inside.” He said, standing up. Pandora nodded and stood up too, Andy knew he should have told her he liked her, but he did not want to risk their friendship and make it awkward. When they went back inside, Ashley was already drunk and was dancing on the coffee table like a stripper, even though he wasn’t stripping.
“Ash, get off of my coffee table!” Andy ordered, everyone laughed and Ashley kept dancing.
“No!” Ashley told him, Andy gave him a ‘What did you just say?’ look, which made everyone laugh. Andy grabbed Ashley by the arm and helped him off of the coffee table, Ashley stumbled to keep his balance but found it before he fell down on his face.
“I think we should get him home.” Jinxx said, entering the room with a glass of water. Jake nodded, and CC stood up.
“Sounds good, come on Ash.” CC said, approaching him. Ashley looked confuse, he looked around at everybody confusedly.
“Where are we going?” Ashley asked, Jinxx chuckled.
“We’re going home.”
“I’m not going home without Pandora!” Ashley hissed, looking for Pandora and finally found her standing beside Andy. She blushed when he winked at her, Jinxx shook his head side to side and pulled on his jacket.
“No, she’s staying here.” Jinxx told him, grabbing his arm and leading him to the door. Andy followed, watching them lead Ashley out of the house carefully.
“Aw.” Ashley said, pouting. Jinxx rolled his eyes and led Ashley down the porch steps, Pandora giggled watching Ashley stumble down the pathway.
“Alright, well we’re going. Bye Andy, bye Pandora.” CC said, walking off the porch and following Jinxx to Ashley’s car. Jake followed too, and waved bye before getting in the car along with the other three.
Andy and Pandora watched Jinxx drove away and go down the street, Andy had fun honestly, and now he was left alone with Pandora he had no idea what to do now. She sat down on the couch and looked at him with a smile, he decided to join her, trying not to seem so awkward even though now it was awkward for him to be sitting next to the girl whose he’s desperately trying not to like.
“So, what now?” Pandora asked, snapping Andy out of his thoughts.
“Uh, I don’t know. What do you want to do?”
Pandora thought for a few minutes, then she shrugged her shoulders.
“We could just watch a few movies before we go to bed?” Pandora told him, Andy nodded and stood up. He walked over to the movie shelf that was beside the flat screen and started to look through their options, he had so many movies he doesn’t even watch, or hasn’t even seen yet.
“What do you want to watch?” Andy asked, Pandora was setting out blankets and pillows on the couch.
“Horror!” Pandora said excitedly, Andy groaned and looked at her.
“Horror? Really? You and your horror girl.” Andy said, grabbing one of the Michael Myers movies and putting the DVD in the DVD player.
“Hey I like horror as much as you like batman, don’t judge me.” Pandora told him, crashing down on the couch and wrapping herself in a blanket. Andy turned out all the lights and joined her, he kicked his feet up on the coffee table and relax.
“Yeah but don’t you get sick of just horror?” Andy asked, Pandora looked at him with shock.
“Do you get sick of batman?” She asked so seriously.
“No.”
“Alrighty then.” Pandora said, Andy chuckled and shook his head side to side.
It wasn’t long until they both fell asleep on the couch while watching Michael Myers, Andy wasn’t asleep long until he jerked from a dream and woke. He felt something on top of him, or someone, he looked down and saw Pandora laying on his chest asleep. Andy thought about moving her to the other couch, but decided not to. He found the remote under him and flicked off the TV, he put his hands behind his head and fell back to sleep quickly…



November 28, Thanksgiving!
“Pandora are you ready yet?” Andy yelled while walking upstairs, Pandora has been getting ready since she woke up this morning and would not let Andy come in her bedroom. It was now one in the afternoon and Andy told his parents he’ll be there before two, and he didn’t even know if Pandora was ready yet. He approached her door and turned the door knob, seeing that it was locked. He sighed and knocked on the door.
“What?” Pandora called, Andy ran his fingers through his hair and leaned up against the door.
“Will you hurry up? It’s one and I told them I’ll be there before two.” Andy said, he waited for a response and finally got one.
“Okay hold on.”
Andy sighed and walked away, he was walking down the stairs when there was a knock on the door. Andy rushed to open it, and when he did, there stood all the black veil brides members with their girlfriends.
“You ready?” Ashley asked, entering the house and looking at Andy.
“I am, but Pandora isn’t.”
The boys chuckled and Sammi smiled, heading upstairs to go check on Pandora to see if she needs help with anything.
“Why is she taking so long?” Jake asked, Andy shrugged his shoulders.
“Hell if I know, I told her she didn’t need to put so much effort into looking good. It’s just my family.” Andy said, Jinxx chuckled and patted his shoulder.
“Ah, Biersack, she’s making a good first impression.”
“How are you so sure?” Andy asked, looking at Jinxx.
“Because, Pandora was texting Sammi almost all night last night about how nervous she was to be spending Thanksgiving with your family.” Jinxx replied, Andy didn’t say anything and before he did, Sammi whistled to get their attention.
“Ladies and gentleman,” Sammi begin, then suddenly they heard a loud sigh.
“Sammi why do you always do this?” Pandora asked.
“Because! Now as I was saying, ladies and gentleman. Here is the woman you’ve been waiting for.” Sammi said with a smile, she headed downstairs and stood beside Jinxx and that’s when Pandora appeared. Andy watched her walk down the stairs, now agreeing that all the time she took to get ready was worth it.
“Damn girl, you look good.” Ashley said, making everybody laugh. Andy swallowed hard and grabbed his mustang keys.
“Alright let’s go.” He told them, one by one they all left Andy’s house and started to head to Amy and Chris’s house..



They all pulled up in front of the white two storey house, it was quiet and Pandora found the house and yard absolutely beautiful. Andy cut off the engine and looked at her, still seeing the apprehensive expression on her face. He smiled at her, and grabbed his cell phone, pushing it into his pocket.
“Don’t be nervous, you met mom and dad before.” Andy told Pandora, Pandora unbuckled her seatbelt and looked at him.
“Yeah barely, I was in the hospital when I met them. And who else is going to be here that I haven’t met?”
Andy shrugged his shoulders. “I honestly don’t know whose all going to be here, and I’m one hundred percent positive they’ll all like you, your impossible not to like.”
There was a tap on Pandora’s window, and she turned her head to see Ashley standing there with a questioningly expression. Andy opened his door and hopped out of the mustang, seeing everybody out of their cars waiting for them. Ashley opened Pandora’s door and held out his hand for her to take it, she smiled and didn’t hesitate and took his hand. He pulled her out of the mustang and closed her door, and smiled at her.
“Thank you Ash.”
“No problem Pandora.” He said, Jinxx looked at Andy seeing him staring at Pandora and Ashley, a chuckle escaped Jinxx’s mouth and Sammi noticed what he was chuckling about, which made her smile.
Andy started to lead Jake, Ella, Brittan, CC, Jinxx, Sammi and Pandora to the front door. Andy didn’t bother to knock nor ring the doorbell, he just turned the door knob and walked on inside. Pandora heard lots of voices talking, it sounded as if the voices were coming from the kitchen, but she wasn’t one hundred percent sure.
“Mom! Dad! We’re here!” Andy called, walking down the hallway beside the staircase, to the kitchen Pandora guessed. The others followed him, and entered the kitchen where almost everybody stood talking and having huge smiles on their faces.
“Andrew!” Amy said excitedly, Andy groaned when she called him that, but he couldn’t seem to get her to just call him “Andy”, she only did call him Andy once in a while. She hugged him and he hugged her back, Pandora spotted Chris leaning up against the counter with a smile, she doubt he even saw her yet, since she was standing behind Andy and standing beside Ashley so he hid her.
“Where’s Pandora?” Amy asked, Andy made a questioning face and looked on each sides of him, not seeing Pandora anywhere. He turned around and face her, he stepped aside so Amy can see her and smiled.
“She’s apparently shy.” He said, Amy smiled and stepped forward and hugged Pandora. Pandora hugged back with a smile and saw Andy walking over to go see his Dad, Amy pulled away and looked Pandora up and down.
“Your so beautiful.” She told her, Pandora blushed and smiled.
“Thank you.”
“Mom!!” Ashley almost yelled, hugging Amy immediately, making everyone chuckled.
“We all call her mom.” Jinxx told Pandora behind her, she nodded and watched each band member hug Amy.
Pandora met Andy’s uncles and aunts and even cousins, everything was going good, and Pandora was actually having a great time, until one of Andy’s cousins watched Pandora stretch and saw her scars on her wrist.
“What’s that?” She asked, pointing to Pandora’s wrist. Pandora felt embarrassed and pulled down her sleeve immediately, she looked at Lexis. Pandora was speechless and honestly didn’t know what to say, Lexis just stared at Pandora questioningly, waiting for an answer. But Pandora felt her throat tighten, and saw most of Andy’s cousins staring at her. She got up from the couch, and headed upstairs to the bathroom. Feeling her eyes burning with tears, she closed the bathroom door and pushed her back up against the wall, she slid down to the floor and sat there. Wishing Lexis never saw her scars.

Andy entered the living room and didn’t see Pandora in her spot where he saw her a few minutes ago, he looked at Lexis suspiciously.
“Where’s Pandora?”
Lexis looked up at Andy. “She went to the bathroom I think.”
Andy nodded and started to walk away, but Lexis called him back.
“What?” He asked, she stood up and approached him.
“I saw scars…On her wrist.” Lexis said, a little bit of sadness in her voice. Andy looked at her then towards the staircase, he sat his drink down on the coffee table and headed upstairs to check on Pandora. He walked down the hallway and turned towards the bathroom, he knocked first and heard her soft voice telling him that she was in there and she’ll be out in a minute.
“Pandora it’s Andy, can I come in?”
He waited for an answer, and had his hand gripping the door knob.
“Yeah..”
He opened the door quickly and saw her sitting in the floor, he felt his heart break a little bit and closed the door. He sat down beside her, and looked at her.
“It’s okay, you don’t need to be embarrass. You know none of us will judge you.” Andy told her, she looked at him with watery green eyes.
“I still didn’t want her to see them..” Pandora said, her voice trailing off.
“She cares about you just as much as the rest of us,” Andy told her, wiping a tear away with his thumb. “You don’t need to be embarrass, and you don’t have to wear long sleeve shirts around us. You know we won’t judge, nor stare at you.”
Pandora gave a weak smile. “Thanks Andy.”
Andy smiled back softly. “Just doing what I do best.” He said softly, she sniffed and wiped her tears.
“Is my makeup running?”
Andy laughed. “No it still looks great.”
Pandora looked down and swallowed hard, staring at her wrist. Andy noticed and picked up her wrist, and pulled back her sleeve, revealing her scars. He leaned down and kissed each scar, making tears build in her eyes. After he was done, he looked up at her, and said the sweetest thing Pandora has ever heard in her entire life.
“You’re perfect and beautiful with or without scars.” Andy whispered, Pandora felt the wetness running down her cheeks and she smiled, then unexpectedly wrapped her arms around his neck and hugged him tightly.
He smiled and hugged her back, and they hugged for what seemed like hours until Pandora pulled away.
“Thank you..”
Andy smiled and wiped her tears. “I’m just being honest,” They went quiet for a few minutes just looking at each other. “Let’s go back downstairs.” He stood up and helped her up, they headed back downstairs and was told the food was ready. Pandora watched Ashley fill his plate up with so much food, she thought most of it was going to fall out. They ate and talked a little bit more, while Pandora was sitting at the dinner table eating, she started to think about everything that has happened. Meeting Andy Biersack, becoming his friend, running away, standing up for herself, touring with her favorite band, moving in with Andy, and now she’s sitting with all of his family. When she thought her life was never going to get better, when she thought it was just going to get worse, her life surprised her and everything got better. She almost lost hope, but suddenly she regained hope. She wished she could tell every person in the world, who almost lost hope, that it will get better. It did for her. And she knew, eventually, their lives will too. Andy looked at her with a smile, and she smiled back.

After dinner, everyone was sitting in the living room smiling and talking. The dinner was great, and filled everyone up. Music was playing, and the song that was playing now was; This Is What It Feels Like by Armin Van Buuren. The song was coming to a end, when Pandora looked over at Andy.
“Hey Andy,” She said getting his attention, she was in a Black Veil Brides mood, and the radio channel they were listening to probably wouldn’t play Black Veil Brides, and she didn’t have her Ipod with her, and why listen to the Ipod when you have Black Veil Brides in front of you?. “Will you sing Beautiful Remains?” She asked, Andy smiled and looked around at everyone, seeing them nodding as a “yes”.
“I think I can do that.” He replied, he sat down on the couch and began.
“We gather here to sing for you, the words you’ve written, each bloodshot beauty still rings true, from violent crashes, gently rest your weary head, what you live for now is dead, goodnight! Goodbye! A soul surrender! This love will set you free, from thoughts of yesterday, now death has come to claim, your Beautiful Remains,” Surprisingly Pandora started to sing along with him, but softly, Andy smiled and kept singing as everyone listened with a smile on their faces. “I’ll strike the match to set you off, and watch you glisten, our loves in time a single loss, you never listen, gently rest your weary head, what you live for now is dead, Goodnight! Goodbye! A soul surrender! This love will set you free from thoughts of yesterday, now death has come to claim your Beautiful Remains, here in this room is what we must do, what we must do, what we must, this love will set you free from thoughts of yesterday, now death has come to claim your Beautiful Remains, this love will set you free from thoughts of yesterday, now death has come to claim your Beautiful Remains!” Andy singed, once he stopped everyone started to clap for him which made him smile. The rest of the evening was great, and when the women left to go Black Friday shopping, Andy and the guys decided to head on home. Andy was standing on the porch with his Dad, watching as the guys and Pandora head for the cars.
“I know you like her, I saw how you looked at her today.” Chris told Andy, Andy sighed and pushed his hands into his jeans pockets.
“It doesn’t matter if I do or not, it’s never going to happen.” Andy said, sounding sad.
“You don’t know that for sure.” Chris told him, Andy shrugged his shoulders.
“Probably not, but if she doesn’t feel the same way and she knows I like her, that would be awkward for our friendship.”
“Andrew, it’s already awkward! You like her, that’s awkward.” Chris told him.
“Yeah but she doesn’t know that I like her, so it’s not awkward for her and I’m going to keep it that way. I’d rather have her as my best friend, then have her as nothing.” Andy told Chris, Chris sighed.
“Now how do you know she doesn’t like you?”
Andy was quiet, Chris made a good point there and Andy never really thought about that before.
“I don’t know.. I guess I’ll wait and see.” Andy said, he told his Dad bye and walked off the porch heading towards the mustang. He told the guys bye, and got into the mustang. Pandora was already sitting in the passenger seat with a smile, he put the keys in the ignition, and started the mustang and before Andy backed out of the concrete driveway, his cell phone started to ring. He pulled it out of his back pocket and saw it was a text from Juliet, he sighed and unlocked his phone with the code and read the text.


Juliet: Andy, we need to talk it’s serious..

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