Higher Than Heaven

“Why do you keep going back to Andy?” CC asks me the next day when we walk into one of L.A many Mexican restaurants. “More importantly why was in cuddled up in your bed with one of your pillow pets this morning?”

“He came over last night drunk after he broke up with Amber.” I reply to his second question. “And truthfully, I have no fucking idea why I keep going back to him. He’s like a drug; a drug I’m hopelessly addicted to.”

“He’s broken your heart into tiny pieces not one but twice, Anna.” Christian sighs. “I hate seeing you so hurt.”

“I know.” I sigh as the hostess seats us. “I guess I’m just a masochist.” I mutter before both of us place our drink orders then look at our menus in silence.

“Anna, you know I love you like a sister; but you’ve got to break away from Andy.” CC states a couple minutes later; breaking that agonizingly awkward silence.

“CC, I know this and trust me I’m trying so fucking hard but I can’t break this habit of loving him. It’s like a force higher than my myself is forcing me back to him.”

“You saying that Andy’s your soul mate?” CC questions me.

“I-I don’t know,” I sigh, “I’m starting to think he is. We always find a way back together; no matter what.”

“You know Ashley isn’t going to be happy if you and Andy get back together.” CC informs me. “He told me that if you and Andy got back together he’d kick both of your asses.”

I can’t help but to laugh. “I can picture him saying that.” I admit between laughs. “But I don’t think he has to worry about anything, at this rate I’m not even sure if I can handle a relationship of any kind with Andy. He’s hurt me so much that I don’t want to even try.”

“But that force?’ CC questions me.

“I’ve got to distance myself from him.” I sigh. “I think when Hunter, Lizzy and myself start to record our side product’s CD; we’re getting out of L.A for it. I’m thinking Missouri.”

“Why there?” CC asks, “Besides it being your home state.”

“My dad has a studio set up in the lakehouse he owns. It’s perfect place. Peace, quiet and no Andy.” I smile.

“I hope you know what you’re doing.” CC sighs. “I want to see you happy again.”

“I’ll eventually get there, CC.” I smile to him. “Don’t worry..”

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