Rebel Love Song
"im such a burden..."
Ambers POV;
"im sorry ive been such a burden,a waste of space.i promise i will be out of your hair and won't bother you anymore.the events ive been through,the words people have spoken and all the shit ive been through is a sigh that i dont belong on the world,or anywhere.i love all of you so much and i will miss you but its for the best that i go.it will make your lives better and more enjoyable knowing im gone and you can live your life without worrying about me.i know i have no religious beleifs or knowings,but know that i will be up in the sky looking down on you all,guiding you through life.i will be the dullest star.i will miss you all.i love you guys.forever"i spoke with tears speeding down my face and blood seeping from my forearms.with that i stepped of the bridge.i fell for a few seconds when my hand was gripped and i was yanked up to the ledge.i looked up to see andy,eyes red,puffy and pouring with tears."what the fuck are you doing!" he screamed "making you all happier,you dont deserve my burdeness ways."i screamed back,pushing myself of the ledge.this time a hand grabbed my forearms,causing me to scream and blood curdling scream.i was pulled into andys bare chest.i started to punch his chest in attemps to get him to release me.i failed,being to weak to through a strong enough swing."get the fuck off of me!! what are you doing!! im going to make you hapy! your life will be better!!!" i screamed "no your noy,if anything you'll make everyones life worse.i need you amber,if you ended your lifei would soon follow.i cant live without you!!" andy cried.my blood was all over his chest,hand,arms and legs and a few spots on his face.i cried into his chest.andy picked me up bridal style and carried me to the bus,both of us still in tears.as soon as we entered the bus andy placed me down on the couch,he then went to fetch the first aid kit.he came back after a few seconds and sat beside me.andy gently bandaged my arms and cleaned the blood from me and hiself.
"why did you do this and try to do that" andy asked,his voice cracking."i was going to make everyone happy,as well as myslef.im a worthless bitch who doesn't deserve any of the friends i have" i cried.and pulled me tightly to his chest and began stroking my hair."shh,shh.no you're not,you are not any of thosethings.you are a beautiful,smart,amazing,talented,beautiful young woman who is awesome in every way possible and is beautiful insde and out.we all love you and care for you"andy said looking me dead in the eyes. "really?" "really,now lets calm down and we will continue this in the morning okay?come on,youre staying in my bunk so i can keep an eye on you" andy said carrying me to his bunk.where i fell asleep and had the best sleep ive had in a long time.
"im sorry ive been such a burden,a waste of space.i promise i will be out of your hair and won't bother you anymore.the events ive been through,the words people have spoken and all the shit ive been through is a sigh that i dont belong on the world,or anywhere.i love all of you so much and i will miss you but its for the best that i go.it will make your lives better and more enjoyable knowing im gone and you can live your life without worrying about me.i know i have no religious beleifs or knowings,but know that i will be up in the sky looking down on you all,guiding you through life.i will be the dullest star.i will miss you all.i love you guys.forever"i spoke with tears speeding down my face and blood seeping from my forearms.with that i stepped of the bridge.i fell for a few seconds when my hand was gripped and i was yanked up to the ledge.i looked up to see andy,eyes red,puffy and pouring with tears."what the fuck are you doing!" he screamed "making you all happier,you dont deserve my burdeness ways."i screamed back,pushing myself of the ledge.this time a hand grabbed my forearms,causing me to scream and blood curdling scream.i was pulled into andys bare chest.i started to punch his chest in attemps to get him to release me.i failed,being to weak to through a strong enough swing."get the fuck off of me!! what are you doing!! im going to make you hapy! your life will be better!!!" i screamed "no your noy,if anything you'll make everyones life worse.i need you amber,if you ended your lifei would soon follow.i cant live without you!!" andy cried.my blood was all over his chest,hand,arms and legs and a few spots on his face.i cried into his chest.andy picked me up bridal style and carried me to the bus,both of us still in tears.as soon as we entered the bus andy placed me down on the couch,he then went to fetch the first aid kit.he came back after a few seconds and sat beside me.andy gently bandaged my arms and cleaned the blood from me and hiself.
"why did you do this and try to do that" andy asked,his voice cracking."i was going to make everyone happy,as well as myslef.im a worthless bitch who doesn't deserve any of the friends i have" i cried.and pulled me tightly to his chest and began stroking my hair."shh,shh.no you're not,you are not any of thosethings.you are a beautiful,smart,amazing,talented,beautiful young woman who is awesome in every way possible and is beautiful insde and out.we all love you and care for you"andy said looking me dead in the eyes. "really?" "really,now lets calm down and we will continue this in the morning okay?come on,youre staying in my bunk so i can keep an eye on you" andy said carrying me to his bunk.where i fell asleep and had the best sleep ive had in a long time.
6/3/13