Its a Love/Hate thing

Hey my names charlie i guess short for charlotte and long for cha (Ice age watchers im expecting ;) you to get that), anyway im a normal girl i guess i like to stay in my room usally all day maybe once in a while ill go out to the park/town to hang out with some mates or somthing, My parents arent the best we dont really like each other as to why i dont really sit around anywhere else in the house because i dont like being shouted at just for being there, my mother is a cow but i guess i have to love her? nah i hate her guts she hates mine to and blame EVERY single thing on me even though i do nothing wrong, my dad just ignores mom shouting at me and sits in his room watching t.v with her all day if he isnt out with his friends, my brother luke is a year younger than me and is an appsalute pig but i love him because he is nice to me when he isnt in a mood and then there is 'daddys girl' Tasha she is spoiled rotten by both mom and dad and if she doesnt get her way then hell breaks loose so i try and ignore her even though we get along on our own saying we have to if we share a room. *In the midnight hour she cried more more more, with a rebe....* the music stopped as i turned my alarm off for the 3rd time, i check the time to see its 5:26am i groan as i throw my covers from above me leaving my skin on my arms and legs bare regretting wearing short and a t-shirt for bed i quickly grabb my dressing gown and slip it on. Stumbling in the bathroom i glance into the mirror staring back at my hideous self before turning the shower on and stripping myself of my clothes before entering the lushious warmth surrounding myself waking me up and at the same time making me feel tired as my aching muscles relax under the heavenly flowing water,i wash myself with lynx body wash as you do while using my favorate strawberry hair shampoo and conditioner creating an odd combanation of lynx and fruit. Turing the shower off i hop out the shower and ran to my black towels seeking warmth thinking 'for fucks sake im freezing my ass off' i dry myself as much as i can including my towel dried hair which i pop in a bun,walking back into my room with towels still around me not bothering to care as no one will be awake yet, closeing my door i rumage around my draws pulling out my underware which i slip on and uniform, yep uni-fucking-form i dont care cause i wear black jeans instead of actual school trousers seeing it as a mini victory along with my white polo shirt with our logo of and a black v-neck jumper also with our logo, i dont really like schools were you have to wear ties and blazers it makes me wanna be sick more than wearing this uniform ew, i get all my clothes on and wonder around my room towards my bag. I pack my school bag for my monday lession which i make sure i am correct on what i have by checking my planner, 'Form today urg i hope sir wont be a dick like usual, umm english then maths theeeen..., child development omj why did i even choose this i guess its easy though hmm geography and double biolgy .. perfect ( note the sarcasm ) i hate biolgy because sir is such a motherfucking prat'. Checking the time i see its only 5:57am i walk to my dresser and taking my bun down i plug my hair dryer in and dry my hair as much as i can before straightening it and styling it to like a scence kind of fringe i guess is the closest thing to describe it to and tease it slightly so it doesnt look messy.I do my normal smokey eye look with eyeshadow, eyeliner and mascara after i put my FAVORATE lip balm my cherry cola one because it tastes amazing on my lips even though i dont eat it obviosly i can still taste it hehe. Grabbing my phone, bag and leather jacket i charge downstairs and set it down on the sofa putting socks i grab from the dryer and putting my stupid school shoes on, i turn on the t.v to the music chanel and put kerrang on i listen to music for about 10 mins till i spot its 6:20am noting its almost time to gets luke and emily up i climb the stairs creeping into lukes room i walk in and wake him up after a few minutes of refusing i pull his cover off his bed and carry it back to my room with me were emily is allready waking up on her own so i just remind her to get up just in case she tries to go to sleep again. Charging downs stairs i make toast,bacon and eggs while the dogs get rice,dog biscuts and fish whilst'Accidentally' dropping some bacon on the floor which the dogs eagerly munch down, i eat an apple then plate everything up and carefully carry it up into everyones rooms, then feed the dogs theirs too in differant bowls . Content with what ive made and hopeing its enough i carefully open the back door so not to make too much noise i walk to our big 10x8 shed leaving the door open for my babies Lucifer and Fever who are bunnies to go on the grass if they want, fever is a female black mini lop while Lucifer is my male lionhead who is white and brown both are spayed and neutered which did cost abit but its the best for the bunnys so yeah, i sat down in the middle of the toy covered floor and immediatly lucifer hopped on my lap and flopped out onto his side letting me stroke his soft white and brown fur, as fever did a little binky (A out of control jump/hop thing which is so cute they do it when they are happy) and then nudged my elbow begging for affection. I spent 15 mins petting and playing with them then cleaned the black litter tray out and refilled it with straw, then refilling their water and topping up their many hay racks as well as giving them there pellets. I rushed inside and locked the back door slumping down onto the sofa noticing no one is down yet, sluggishly climbing the stairs i walk into lukes room to find him dressed but alseep i wake him up quickly and run to mine and emilys room spotting she is asleep i wake her up causing the 12 year old girl to have a paddy and wake our parents up which ends in a argument and a slap for 'winding' your little sister up, hiding my emotions comes easy to me as i see it as to if people know how im feeling they can only use it against me so being pissed as i am but not as if you would notice because on the outside i look calm and collected i hop down the stairs out of everyones way checking the time once again 7:17am, i have to get into form by 8:40am but it takes like 20-30mins to walk there and i have to wait for look as i said the year below me, im in year 10 so i only have year 11 to finish after this then i go to college. Finally he comes down collar undone and messing as well as his hair urg my pet peeve senses are tingleing i jump from my seat and follow him to the kitchen and make him a cup of coffie because he cant do shit for himself, while the hot water is boiling i sort out with collor and hair leaving him slighy anoyed as he doesnt like me touching his hair. Setting of 20 mins later finally escaping the creature of doom and cuteness aka emily we set of towards school which awaits us, arriving on time i slip into form leaving luke to do whatever, sitting in the back i grab my new kerrang mag which i havnt had chance to read yet, im reading contently until im disturbed by sir yelling in my ear for being late when ive been hear the whole time and him being him i get a detension haha not as if ill do it, sasha pulls up a seat to see what im doing and says hi then goes. The rest of the day was a blur abit of name calling abit of shuving me around i mostly hung on my own but my friend amy stayed with me most of dinner untill she had to leave for a doctors apointment. Leaving me alone, i only have 2 people i consider a true friends and who understands me one is amy and another is a girl ive known for 5 years over the internet we have skyped and stuff and we are close, well as close as you can be over the internet. I walked home not needing to be with luke as he went of with some of his friends. I barged into the gate to my garden and ran to the shed to escepe for a little i was upset and my ribs hurt from being shoved into a nettle bush on the way home and having stones chucked at me for the fun of it. My babies allways made me smile and happy no matter what its hard to keep them ive sacraficed alot so i could afford medical bills, food, hay and toys never treating myself only to a single band shirt being a 'black veil brides one' they are my insperation to continue living most days along with the thought of leaving my babies alone is unbearable, i was able to save in a seperate bank account which i have saved alot but willed myself from doing so i think there is roughly over £1000 perhaps. I fall asleep in the shed as my thoughts consumed me. Waking up to being dragged out by my hair by my mom who is furious at me for not coming home on time and making dinner i take it all not paying attention untill she says one thing that stunnes me frozen in that moment which is ........

Notes

Probably suckish ive only wrote out a few pages of notes and stuff which i will add to and hopefully keep the story going, my laptop shuts its self down every so often so that will also be a nusance but other than that a chappie every week or more.