For the love of my father

I wake up to beeping . Someone must of turned my alarm volume down. I try hitting my alarm and come up empty handed . I open my eyes only to be assaulted by white blinding light.


I open my eyes slowly and take in the sterile white surroundings. The beeping is a heart monitor. I look around the room the only color comes from balloons and flowers and Andy. Andy sits in a chair next to my bed asleep. I reach my hand out to him but am stopped by ivs stuck I'm my arm.


I try talking but my voice is thick with sleep . I find a button on the bed and press it . A nurse immediately comes in and smiles at me .


"Well good morning ! " good to see you are finally up she says as she poors a cup of water helping me drink .


She softly nudges Andy awake and takes my vitals . Andy's face lights up as he sees me and he grabs my hand .


"hi sleeping beauty ... How are you feeling?"


"Sore and confused."


"The doctor will be in shortly " the nurse tells us and leaves .


"How long have I been here? What day is it? " I ask Andy as he kisses my hand


"you've been in a small coma for a 2 weeks . its january 8th "Andy says his eyes shine with unshed tears.


"Two weeks... The baby...? " I ask already knowing the answer . Andy shakes his head .


"Good to see you finally up miss biersack . I'm Dr.conner . I'm assuming mr.biersack has told you how long you've been asleep for? " the doctor says walking in an checking his chart.


I nod .

"well miss , you had some damage to your head from the fall and some major cuts and bruises . Though in common in the first trimester due to the traumatic blows to your stomach your baby did not live ...."


That's when I loose it . I start crying and Andy holds me trying not to cry himself .


"I'm sorry for your loss " the doctor says " a dnc will be nessisary in about a week or two due to your bruised ribs and fractured ankle we will schedule accordingly .after a few test you will be able to go home . " he says and walks out excusing himself .




3 hours later and Andy is helping me to the car . These crutches are already killing my arms but I don't wan to use a wheel chair like and invalid.


"I took you out of school " Andy says driving home .


"You will be homeschooled now ... I just ... I couldn't handle if anything else happened to you .." He says not looking at me .


I saw my reflection in the hospital and I can blame him I look horrible with bruises and cuts all along my face .


"Maxon? " I ask knowing hell know what I mean.


"he was arrested at the school .."

I nod and stare out the window as Andy comes around to help me out of the car.


" I missed Christmas ... " I say as I walk into the front room that was decorated with a black Christmas tree and fake snow.


" yeah .. Juliet came home and decorated she onl stayed a few nights and I was at the hospital most the time .. I didn't tell her though ... I wasn't sure when you'd wake up"


i smile at Andy through tears and kiss his cheek" I understand don't worry "


I walk to my room using the crutches . Sixx lays on my bed awaken by me and meows at me when I come in.
I get into bed wincing at the pain in my ribs and hold him .


"Looks like you're my only baby " I tell him and begin crying more .


"it's all my fault " I cry and Andy comes in the room and holds me .


"what are you talking about? " Andy asks wiping years away.


"if only I didn't make him mad and kept tal and Tate with me if only I did more wed still have our baby !" I cry


andy shh's me and holds me as I cry .


"none of that is true "


"it is ! It's my fault"

Notes

Aww :/ I'm so sad writing this please don't hate me .




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