For the love of my father

' "I didn't do it!" I yelled at Michele "It was Micky! " I try telling him.

"You're lying to me Kait!" he says as his hand bites into my butt a third time this week for something I didn't do .

"I'm not lying I swear!" I yell at him holding in my cries.

With every stinging slap he got closer to my private parts.To hold back my cries I slowly counted each slap telling myself I couldn't feel anything.Crying would do me no good because everyone was at either school and work and Im pretty sure he liked when I cried.

"Just admit you broke the plate and I'll stop if you do" he tells me hitting me harder and on my most private part.

I stay silent biting my lip, praying that it would be over soon. A few minutes later when my lip started to bleed the front door starts to unlock and Kate calls from downstairs that she's home. Michele pulls up my painties and shoves me out of the door.

"Don't tell anyone about your punishment or you'll get more spankings" Michele threatens .

I run down stairs to Kate and she sees my bloody lip.

" Had another accident dear? Come on lets clean that lip of yours." Kate says leading me into the kitchen picking me up and setting me on the counter next to the sink.

"Never I had a 10 year old as clumsy as you are Kait"

Kait treated me like her own daughter and I loved her like a mother.

"Kate... Michele hit me ... On my....Private parts" I tell Kate as she wipes the blood from my lip.

She freezes and looks me in the eyes. Suddenly a slap send me flying off the counter.

"Don't ever tell another lie like that again!" She yells in my face.

I cower in the corner of the kitchen and rock back and forth. Why didn't Kate believe me ? She always believes me . I slowly get off the floor and walk to my bed room feeling numb . I look in the mirror at my bloody lip and the bruise forming on my cheek. I throw my mirror on the floor and glass shards scatter all over my floor as I slowly sink down to it.Glass cuts into my feet and legs making me feel something other then numbness. I grab the closest glass shard to me and run it across my wrist over and over again letting a beautiful river of red run down my arm. '

I wake up with a start tears running down my face . Wiping them away I look at my reflection in the mirror to see me wide eyed with messy hair and blood shot eyes. Now I know what scared me so much when I thought Andy was going to hit me .I haven't thought about the times I started cutting or when Michele sexually and physically abused me.My body must have suppressed those awful memories . Getting up from my bed I walk into the front room to find Andy sitting on the couch watching tv with Crow and Femme.

Looking up and seeing my tear streaked face he gets up and holds me telling me how sorry he was and asking if there was anything he could do for me.

"Just hold me." I tell him and his arms tighten around me .

Notes

So heres the new chapter for you all! I try my hardest to write as fast as I can for you guys. On another note Im Co-writing a new story with my bestest friend in the world who is a Terrific author! You should all check her out her name on here is Our_rebbel_lovesong17 and I'll post the user name of our joined account tomorrow :)