Found Again

Riots p.o.v Fuck that shit! If Andy wants to act like an ass, then so be it because he should know by now that I don't take shit from anyone and the one thing I absolutely hate is a liar, maybe I hate them because I am brutally truthful but I fucking hate being lied to and especially when you know its a lie, makes it worse. But anyway fuck it! Because we are on Warped tour and playing main stage baby! And it is time to party hard and have some fun and show these Americans how to party the best way which is the motherfucking Irish way! I'm so excited to see all the fans again too though. That definitely has to be the best part of touring and being able to meet all the different people and new fans too who have come to the concerts with outfits and costumes like yours. But for me the ultimate best thing about playing gigs or touring is when standing on a stage, looking out to the audience, seeing them all so lost in the music and they're singing along to lyrics that you wrote. That has always been a dream for me just to be able to write songs, perform them for people that like them and to hear them singing along, it is just the most amazing feeling! "So guys, its anther 4 and a half hours until we get to the first venue, what are we gonna do before I get bored and throw myself out of a window?" Taylor said "hold on, I'll open the window for you Taylor" Feria joked while Taylor just flipped her off and then grinned. Two and a half hours later, the bus came to a halt and Ronan, our manager, came out from the backroom "okay girls we have a rest stop for an hour, there's a shopping center around the corner, a cafe down the street and more shops on the other side. Now girls, I am begging you, especially you Feria, please do not buy a shit load of clothes because for one, we don't have enough already because of your clothes and this bus is fucking huge which says a lot and second, you have enough already" he said "but Ronan I only have six suitcases!" Feria exclaimed "exactly my point! Too much! You're only gone for three months!" Ronan said, Feria just huffed and sat back down. Ronan retreated back to the back lounge I assume while the girls and myself just got dressed again to go out. We got outside and we ended up splitting up, Taylor and lily went towards the café while Feria, Roxie and I headed towards the shopping center which was surprisingly big for such a small town. Anyway, we entered the shopping center, and decided to look around I wasn't paying attention to where I was going as my head was stuck in my phone, reading emails, when I bumped into a hard chest. I looked up to see Andy staring down at me "can we talk?" He asked, I sighed "yeah sure, hey girls we'll be back in a minute" I said they said okay and walked into the next shop "the bench?" Andy asked quietly "uhm yeah" I replied quietly also. We walked over and sat on it Andy turned to me with sadness in his eyes "Riot I'm so sorry you know I didn't mean that shit" he said and hugged me tightly "I'm sorry too but Andy you have to understand my irritation, you know I hate being lied to and having secrets kept from me. Its the one thing I absolutely loathe because its so frustrating" I said and he looked down "Riot its not that I'm lying to you or keeping secrets from you, I'm just scared to tell you because I really don't know how you'll react" I pulled his head back up to face me "Andy you know you can tell me anything! Are you gay? Is that it? Because you know I fully support that, I march for it every year!" I asked and he burst out laughing "what?" I said "oh my god Riot of course I'm not gay! Like I fully support it too but I'm not gay!" He laughed burying his face in his hands "well then what is it Andy?" He looked at me serious again and licked his bottom lip and furrowed his eyebrows as if in deep thought on what to say next "well uh, um...uh..." he stuttered "Jesus Christ Andy spit it out!" I said laughing "right, uhm, okay... I uhm....ihaverbhjfeelmhingsfohyou" he mumbled "what?" I asked as he was talking jibberish "ihavefeelingsforyou" he said really fast and looked down, once again I pulled his head back up to look at me "okay Andy, try saying slower so that I can actually understand it" I said he took a deep breath and looked straight into my eyes "I have really fucking strong feelings for you Riot" Andy's p.o.v "I have really fucking strong feelings for you riot" I said to her and looked into those deep gorgeous forest green eyes that amazingly change colour depending on her moods. "And I have no idea what to do with them Riot because I know you probably don't feel the same and that's okay but I just wanted to let you know and lay my cards on the table ya know, rather than like you said, keeping secrets but Riot, it broke my heart when you left a few years ago but I never would have told you that because I could barely admit it to myself but when you walked into that room again, my world that seemed so boring and dull suddenly lit up again and there were butterflies in my stomach again, I just felt like I was a love sick 19 year old all over again and every time I look at you I feel like I'm melting into those gorgeous green eyes of yours that shockingly change colour every time your mood changes. I love those eyes, I love how you stutter when you get nervous, I love how you have so much confidence, I love how you light up a room, I love your laugh and smile, I love how funny you are. I love how talented you are, I love how you dress, I love how you don't give a fuck what anyone says and you just do your own things, I love how you can whip ANYONE'S ass" I laughed and looked down "I love how you make me feel, and its a feeling that is completely new to me because I've never felt this way about anyone before and I'm sorry for springing this on you but you need to know" I said still looking down. I felt a small hand pull my chin back up to look at her. I couldn't read her expression, but she stared into my eyes for what seemed like forever but was actually about seven minutes, she draped her hand and head, got up and walked away. I put my head in my hands, got up and walked back to my bus and headed to my bunk. I just lay there feeling kind of numb and rejected. I should've expected that. I fucked up because now not only can I not have her as a girlfriend I've probably lost her as a friend too. Nice going Andy. You know what fuck this, I'm not going to sit here and wallow in self pity. I was rejected I need to get over it! "Ashley! What clubs are we hitting tonight?" Riots p.o.v Holy shit. I can't believe he just said that. Why the fuck did I walk away though?! Should I go talk to him? Will he even talk to me again? The only way I can think is to write. Maybe if I put my feelings into a song it will make me feel better or help me think of what to do. I run around looking for a my notebook and grab my blue and black guitar and start working... Andy's p.o.v Ashley and i both went out to a club. Of course Ashley was away off doing his thing with all the girls who looked like hookers and probably has multiple STD's but I stood at bar along with my drink that I was barely sipping. I had girls come up to me and as much as much as I wanted to try and get over it all by having sex with these women, I couldn't do it because.....they just weren't Riot and she's the only one I've ever wanted so why settle for less? I decided to just call it a night and head back to the bus and go to sleep. Riots p.o.v 4 o'clock in the morning and I'm finally done the song, guitar chords and all. I think I'll perform it tomorrow at our first show. I finally settled into sleep for what felt like five minutes since my alarm clock was already going at nine o'clock to get up and get ready. We have an early show today which is at 2 o'clock then black veil brides is on after us. After we were ready and in our usual stage attire, it was time to perform so we went and got all our equipment sorted. As we were five minutes away from going on stage, black veil brides decided to come up too and stand side stage. Everyone was wishing us good luck, except Andy who stood in the back staring at his feet. He looked up and his eyes met mies and I gave a smile but he looked back down at his feet again. I bit my lip and one by one we all went on stage, first Lily who started hammering the shit out of those drums, then Taylor walked out playing her bass, then both Roxie and Feria ran put and started hamming on their guitars and then when it was time I ran out on stage and ran to the front of the stage and began the song ideal idiot which had the huge long scream at the start of it. I was giving it my all that I though a vein was going to burst at one point, but the atmosphere was fucking awesome. "How are you awesome motherfuckers doing today?!" I screamed into the mic and the audience cheered really fucking loudly. "That's great, well this next one is called 'who needs hell'! Any of you guys know it?" I said into the mic. Once again the audience screamed really fucking loudly "fantastic! Well then scream along if you can motherfuckers!" I shouted once again and began screaming the song into the mic. About half way through the set I decided to sing the song I wrote last night. I told the girls and they took a moment off stage and had a drink of water while I set up my guitar. "Okay guys this next song is new and I wrote it last night so you're going to be the first to hear this. It means a lot to me ams hopefully the person it was written for understands and knows it was written for them" I said and the crowd screamed once again "okay then here we go... those eyes you look through make my knees weak, I seem to stutter every time we speak, these butterflies I can't deny those lips are my apocalypse, I swear your hands will be the death of me because when you leave it gets hard to breath you were gone for so long so its all become clear to me now that my heart has feelings that my head won't allow because I can't think straight when you're around you don't know how long I've waited for this so please don't rip my heart to bits..." I continued into the rest of the song and eventually finished, I looked up to see the audience erupt into cheers "thank you guys, okay she we're gonna bring the girls back out now so we can finish this motherfucking fantastic show for you!" I looked over to the side to motion to the girls come back on stage, when I looked over Andy wasn't there. Ashley must have noticed because he smiled and pointed to the front row in the crowd. I looked down and seen Andy standing there with a hat on, he had pulled his sun glasses down enough so I could see his eyes and he grinned, I smiled back at him and started back into the performance again. "Thank you guys! You have been amazing! It was a pleasure! We'll be at our tent later drop bye and say hello!" I said before walking off stage. Andy was standing there with his arms crossed and smiling at me while I was walking off "what are you so happy about?" I asked laughing "so...it gets hard to breath when I leave does it?" He said smirking "shut up jackass" I said laughing and pushed him lightly. "Did you mean everything you said yesterday?" I asked "Riot of course I meant it. I've felt that way for years but obviously I wasn't going to admit it like I said I was terrified of what your reaction would be but I have a question too" he said "okay shoot" I replied "how long have you felt this way too?" He asked "Andy I've had these feeling for years now" he smiled and looked into my eyes again "so you melt into my gorgeous green eyes then huh?" He threw his head back and laughed then he grabbed my face gently and got closer to me "damn fucking right I do" he said and leaned in and kissed me. I was so shocked and didn't expect it that it took me a minute to respond when I did my hands found his face too and we continued passionately kissing. I swear I never felt anything like it before. The butterflies that I usually got felt like they had just multiplied by hundreds. It was the most phenomenal feeling. We pulled away for air and he looked into my eyes again "wow, those eyes..." he whispered. I laughed "isn't that code for tits?" I said and we both started laughing "you're crazy" he laughed "Nah I'm fucking nuts" I said and we both laughed at the old joke and turned serious again "so riot will you give me a chance?" He asked "yes Andy I will give you a chance but I don't jump into the whole girlfriend thing straight away ya know because you're supposed to go on dates and stuff first" I laughed "wouldn't have it any other way" he said and laughed too.

Notes

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