Sad But True (sequel to Nothing Else Matters)

As I look in the mirror; black dress to my knee, black stalking's, a girl- woman I don't recognize.

"Lemme guess he is getting married!"

"Sweetie let's start a band."

"The way Andy looked at you is the way your father looked at me."

Tears drip down my cheeks as I all the fun times with my mom flashes in front of me. Like my life flashed before my eyes when I almost died.

I grab my black hat and walked out. My heart broken, my soul gone and my brain switched off.

I place my hand on my stomach feeling as the room spin and everything was black.

Andy, Jake, CC, Jinxx, Ashley, all time low and pierce the veil all in black.

"You ready angel?" Alex asks with a warm smile.

I locked my emotions in a cage, and threw away the keys in the dark pitts of hell where it belongs, where I belonged.

"Shall we go?" I ask walking out the door.

•an hour later•

My family and I sitting in front while the rest behind us.

"The floor is open to any one who wants to say something."

I stood up and walked to the microphone.

Closing my eyes tight I build all the happiness and love.


"My mother was a woman, a woman who always gets what she wants. That's how she got my father and I am sure that's why she got me. She learned me to stand my ground she learned me to get what I what." I look to Andy who has a small smirk on his face.



"I and my mother were always close. When I was weak she picked me up. When I was happy she would laugh with me and make it even better. I remember I was at my lowest point I could not take it any more. I lost my friends and I have lost the one I love. She made it her mission her lives goal to make me happy and to love again. She will be missed but not as a rock stars wife but as a woman who could not be beaten not be tamed and who could not be pushed down."


Tears were everywhere, except in my eyes.


"Last night I wrote a song, and I always say something better like that."


my band came up and took their place. "My mom loved heavy metal it was her passion and what matter why to send her off it with a song."


The drums begins too echo, the guitars begin to sing. And so did I.

"I have nothing left to give,I have found the perfect end,You were made to make it hurt. Disappear into the dirt,Carry me to heaven's arms, light the way and let me go,Take the time to take my breath. I will end where I began. And I will find the enemy within. Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin"

I look up and see my husband in tears and everyone else.


"Dear Agony,Just let go of me Suffer slowly,Is this the way it's gotta be? Dear Agony,Suddenly The lights go out Let forever Drag me down I will fight for one last breath I will fight until the end And I will find the enemy within,Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin,Dear Agony,Just let go of me Suffer slowly Is this the way it's gotta be?"

I look to my father who's crumbled in James arms.

"Don't bury me Faceless enemy I'm so sorry Is this the way it's gotta be? Dear Agony Leave me alone God let me go I'm blue and cold Black sky will burn Love pull me down Hate lift me up Just turn around There's nothing left Somewhere far beyond this world I feel nothing anymore Dear Agony Just let go of me Suffer slowly Is this the way it's gotta be? Don't bury me Faceless enemy I'm so sorry Is this the way it's gotta be? Dear Agony I feel nothing anymore"


When I hit the last chord of the song. I closed my eyes and open them again seeing my mother with a huge smile on her face. She is wearing her white dress, the dress she was wearing on her wedding day.


There was no stopping it a tear fell from my eye. My mother's shoulder was surrounded by a arm. Noticing its the man who saved me from death the last time. The legend.

A small smile came across my face as I bend down crashing finally.

My father ran to me rapping his arms around me like a save haven. "She is at peace." I whisper.


"She is my little rebel." He replied helping me up.


This is the last time I will ever be this sad. This miserable. I need to live and to be a burden. I need to make life count. Make every second count.

I don't want to lose my dad.

I don't want to lose my friends.

I don't want to lose my baby.

I don't want to lose Andrew.

And most importantly I don't want to lose myself.

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