Love Like War (Andy Biersack Love Story)

Dearest little sister.

If you are reading this, and I am assuming you are, that means I am dead.

I will make this short and sweet.


I could not take it anymore Matty. It felt my life had no meaning, no script to follow; it was just me alone. But I know I was never in fact alone. You were with me, so was dad mum and Mayem.


I left you with a empty heart, and a broken soul. A soul i know that will never mend. My dear sister I am so sorry to leave you alone in the cruel misfortune world, but trust me when I say; I could not take it.


The bullying was to much, the hatred towards us has leads to its peak. My opinion is that I have been holding you back for so long. you turn out like me, loving heavy metal, wearing black falling in love with a rock star. Now I wish that you were my sister who was a cheerleader who was the girlfriend of the star quarterback. Hated me for being a fag. But no. You are not and that makes it even harder for me to leave you.

It was always us against the world, you and me against them all, now its just you. As I will be now, as you read this letter I will be burning in hell for my sins, for taking my own life and not wait till God come get me.

I was a coward dear Matty, a hypocrite; I decided you live by the blade you are going to die by the blade so I did what every coward did, and that's cut my wrists and my throat and waited till I see that dark hole, that dark hole pushing me in.

I don't like it here Matty, hell is not for the weak. I want to come back so bad but I can't. I am locked in my own worst nightmare, the nightmare of me leaving you.

You once said that I was your idol. You once said that we will never leave one another. Never. I broke that promise and for that I am really sorry little sister. But carry on my legacy as a punk ass kid who did not want to be tamed.


I will be watching over you. I will be in your broken heart, and I will be there to catch you when you fall. Like now when I know you are sitting on the rooftop and crying your eyes out. I know your hands are shaking and you are thinking of death, because you want to join me. Don't kill your self to join me in hell. You won't like it. You deserve to be in heaven with the angels, to fly around and watch over the fallen ones like us.

Matty I need you to be ready to fight this war without me. I need you to be strong. The little black book is taped behind my closet, use it wisely. Or don't use it all. It is your choice.


Before I end my letter I wrote something for you.



Small hands, bright hazel eyes. Never know that we were the ties that bind. Sudden love makes us whole for I have loved you since the day you were born.


My best friend my little sister I leave you with a letter. A piece of me you can hold on too. The true side of me that only u did see.


All grown up and a woman to be. I will walk down this road with you even if I am not here but trust me when I say I will be by your side every step of every way.


Now wipe that stains of your face, dry your tears I am here, feel the wind as its your face that's me slapping you telling you don't be a crying little bitch.

I love you little sister we are forever. We maybe be in different hells but we will stay together.

PS: if I see you here in hell I will kill you.

I love you so much.

Jamie.

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