Alexandria/Zaria's P.O.V
Date: January 27th
Laying on CC's lap "sleeping" while he hummed to himself silently was honestly one of the best places ever right now. It's currently twelve thirty at night and everyone is in the hospital because Juliet went into labor. When CC got the call from Jake around nine, ten I got extremely excited and basically pushed CC out of Ashley's apartment.
I love kids.
To me kids are the only truthful people out there. Hate is not something you can teach so kids are pure and innocent and can never truly hurt you on purpose. Kids are kind and sweet till someone fucks them up and kills their view on the world and how it's run. If adults thought with the capacity and imagination of children then the world would not be in the place it is right now but adults screw it all up because them there selves get their views warped and twisted by other adults. It's a horrible cycle that never ends.
About an hour ago I got tired and told CC I was going to sleep, to which he let me lay on his lap because we were sitting on the widow sile. I didn't lie to him, I did fall asleep but only for like twenty minutes. That's when Ashley came up to CC and started to talk to him, I, not wanting to actually get up yet, stay "sleeping" on CC's lap.
At first Ashley and CC just talked about Andy and Juliet and how excited Ashley was that they were going to be born on his birth-date, which I'm sure nobody besides Ashley had thought of yet. Then there conversion drifted to the interview Andy, Juliet, and myself did with Bryan. Then again to talking about the new album that Andy wanted to make which neither one of them had a problem with cause I think they both wanted to be home for awhile. There current conversation though, was started when Ashley asked CC how he and I actually started "dating".
CC gave a giant sigh and I felt my head move slightly. "Well, uh, I guess I started to have actual feelings for her when we were both sleeping on the same bed at Andy's old apartment." CC paused a moment and after a few seconds I felt his hand move and start playing with my hair. "Well, maybe a little before that."
"You've been acting different," Ashley said blankly. "You were sad when Luran broke up with you so you acted different but when you came back you were happy, at least looked happy. You still acted different though, you wouldn't act all goofy and child-like but then one day it changed. It was like a lever was switched and you were fully content. You still act more mature than you use to be but the way you joke around is like you know your trying to make someone happy, if you know what I mean."
CC's chest rumbled with a chuckle and I fought down a smile that tried making it's way to my lips. "I guess you could say that I've been trying to see someone smile and make that person's eyes light up with happiness. She has had such a crappy life before we came along and I want to make the time we have with her the happiest and most joy-filled."
"What do you mean the time we have left with her?"
I was wondering the same thing. Did he not want to be with me for a long-term relationship? Did he think that I didn't want to be with him? Maybe he thought that one day I would just leave and not come back? Why would he think that?
"Would you really blame her if she wanted to leave to go back to Florida when she's able to," CC interrupted my thoughts. "We ripped her away from her friends and family, granted some of her family don't deserve to even breath the same air as her, still. We took her away from the only life she knew, I would never blame her for wanting to go back."
There was a long silence and I felt the need to open my eyes and quell any doubts he had but before I could Ashley spoke up. "Is that why you still have that wink of sadness or is there some other reason?"
CC gave a sigh that sounded like someone ready to throw up the white flag in defeat. "That's part of the reason." He took his hand from my head and rubbed his eyes. "I just feel that she going to think that she's some kind of rebound."
Okay, what? "Why would you think that?" Yeah CC, why would you?
Another sigh. "Well" pause "It's just that when I broke up with Luran I felt a void that I just wanted to fill with the closest thing possible and when I saw her I instantly thought that maybe I could maybe have her fill the void a little."
My heart constricted in my chest and I felt like a bucket of ice water had been purred all over me. Is he actually just using me? I can't believe I had been so stupid, he would never want a fucked up girl like myself. I cause to many problems for someone like him to ever like someone like me. My sadness quickly turned to an empty hollow thing that filled me making it hard to breath.
"I just didn't expect her to be like this though." CC's words paused my next actions which would have been running to the closest bathroom just to get away from him. "At first I saw a cute little girl that would be a good way to...to just, I don't even know a word to use, but when I started to get to know her I saw something that I have never seen in someone. I saw a girl that was actually making the most of her life, a girl that only let the ones that didn't know her very well be fooled by the emotions she shielded herself with. She was honest, kind, and full, that's not the right word to describe it but it's the only word I can think of. I just feel so protective of her now and I don't want her to be hurt even though my first intentions with her were to."
I had no idea whether I wanted to be mad or awestruck. First he wanted to use me then found out how sweet I was and just couldn't bring himself to do it. What the fuck!
I slowly opened my eyes to look up into brown terrified ones, which they had every right to be. Lifting myself off his lap, I sat up and just starred at the ground. I could tell CC was having a hard time trying to figure out what to say but I didn't care anymore he deserved to be freaking out and finding a way to fix his stupid mistake.
"Z-Zaria," he croaked out reaching for me.
"Don't even start," I deadpanned moving out of his reach. I got up and started to walk away when Jinxx ran up to us and said that the first baby had been delivered and that the second one is coming.
We all followed and waited at the closest point we could for Juliet to finally be done so we could all see my niece and nephew, it felt so good to call them that.
**** "They're so adorable," Ella whisper so not to wake Juliet up who was currently passed out from all the pain killers they gave her. "What names did you guys finally decided on?"
Andy had his face in his hands rubbing his face trying to fight back the sleep that was weighting all of us down. "Iris Linn for my princess and Christopher Jacob for the little man Alex is holding."
I looked down at the cute bundle of joy that was in my arms. He was so tiny that he was almost eaten by the blanket that was wrapped around him. "I'm going to call him Jace," I announced into the room. I walked Jace to his little bed that they placed into Juliet's rooms and layed him down gently, cooing as I did. The eyes that were on my back burned but I ingnored them, CC can find a way to fix everything once I have my fill of not talking to him.
"Why you going to call him that," Ella asked as she bounced Iris up and down in her arms. From the corner of my eye I saw Jake looking at her lovingly.
"Cause I had an uncle named Jacob and we called him Jace all the time. I loved him I wish I could see him one more time." I sighed. "I remember one time my uncle stole me away from my mom and took me fishing, I hated fishing unless he was the one I was fishing with. Anyway he took me out to this pond that one of his friends owned and we were out there till night fell just talking and joking around, we never ended up catching anything but just being with him was an adventure." Smiling I felt everyone's eyes on me but didn't care.
I heard some russling then a pair of arms turned me around and hugged me. "I'm so sorry Alex." Andy petted my hair. "Maybe you could call him and ask him to come visit."
"I love that your not forbidding me from seeing my other family and that you'd let him visit but he can't." My face fell. "He died two years ago after he had a stroke behind the wheel of a car." Everyone went silent. I guess they weren't expecting that. As the silence grow though so did my discomfort. I pushed away from Andy and gave him a smile. "Anyway we should probably get going so you can get some sleep, so we can all get some sleep. Bye Andy."
I quickly walked away while grapping CC and dragging him with me so he could drive me back to Ashely's. CC willingly let me drag him and willingly drove us both to Ashely's but it was so awkward between us. I knew CC wanted to talk about what I overhead but he knew that I was so not in the mood right now.
We finally arrived at Ashely's and I grapped some night clothes and went to change. I opened up the bathroom door and was attacked by Mace and Fuffy.
"Hey guys," I mumbled I let them loose and began to change.
When I got out CC was still standing by the couch just looking down at it. "There's a spare bedroom down the hall, I'll take the couch." He moved to get everything that he would need to sleep on the couch but for some reason gulit floored me at the tone of his voice.
"Ok," I whispered and moved to the only door that didn't lead to Ashley's room or the bathroom. Secure behind the door I let my legs crumple underneath me as the tears feel from my eyes. "Why do you have to be such a idiot Zaria," I mumbled to myself in the darkness of the room.

Notes

Sorry for all the mistakes I kinda did this off my phones data and I did a quick edit job so i didn't use all of my data.