Zaria/Alexandria's P.O.V
Date: December 31
I couldn't get what happened between CC and I out of my head. I've always wanted him to like me, even before he knew I was actually a person on this planet, but it kinda feels like if I like him I'd be turning my back on Andy. Stupid reason, I know, but I just can't shake it.
Right now I'm in the house, or apartment I should say, alone. Andy and Juliet won't be here for a couple more hours and CC went off somewhere. Being in a house alone as a teenager normally is a big score cause you can do whatever you want but for me, right now, I couldn't feel more alone and in need of someones company.
Sighing I opened up my laptop and turned on my Steam and my Skype. Maybe I could play a few games with Derek, he's always put me in a better mood. I could also see if Kyle is online and talk to him. I've really missed him, it almost feels physical but I knows that's just the longing of his carefree persona that always made me feel at home.
When my Skype finally loaded up I was hit with a million messages and miss calls I kinda didn't know what to do with myself. I clicked on the messages and saw that a few were from Kyle, Jack, and Derek.
Hey person who hasn't answered my phone calls or texts, I was wondering if you could actually message me back and talk to me. I've really missed you and would like a have a conversation with my own personal bitch. - <3 Kyle
Did I forget to tell Kyle that my phone shut off? Hopefully he'll forgive me.
I typed out my sorry to Kyle and told him that he could call me up when he got the chance and we could catch up. I opened Jack's messages to see that he had written a paragraph which wasn't normal for him.
I really really need to talk to you about Kay. Wait, sorry. Hi, I really need to talk to you about Kay. Same old Jack! You know how I told you a few months back that I thought I was growing feelings for Kay and you told me to go for it and I was like no, I wouldn't want to ruin our friendship if something bad were to happen and we kinda just dropped the subject? Hopefully you do cause I'm gonna talk about it anyway. Well I figured out from Kevin that she talked about having slight feelings for me and you know me and my shyness won't let me get two words edgewise but I don't know if I should just go and try or just ignore it. I mean I've liked her for about a year now, I know long time, and I haven't had the courage to say anything to her about it or anyone but you and I just don't fucking know. I know I'm not really making any sense and I'm kinda rambling but I have no idea what to do. UGH!!!!! Why can't feelings just be easy? Anyway if you could just like call me or something that'd be great cause I need to hear and see you instead of just messages. Oh, and have fun with all the grammar mistakes but I'm not in the mood to proofread or even use english as it's suppose to be used.
I sat there a little dumbfounded about what to do. Jack has never been the type to confide in someone else about his feelings. What changed, or does Kay really have that affect on him? I told him that I'd keep my Skype up all day and await his call sense he wasn't on right now.
Derek's messages basically said that he wouldn't be online till noon or one and would only be on till around four or five. I looked to the clock on the wall and saw that it was 12:30 and he still wasn't on. I sent him a message saying that when he got on to just set up a call and we'd either talk or play games.
Now I was back to square one. Back to having nothing to do, no one to talk to, and being bored out of my mind with images of what happened with CC and I earlier today. I quickly shook my head trying to dis-spell the thoughts and tried to focus on something, anything.
I decided that writing would be the greatest thing for me. I walked over to my suitcases and rummaged through them till a found my flash drive, then I stuck it into my laptop and popped up my latest creation.
By the time Derek finally called my Skype it was 1:08 and I had finished the chapter I had halfway done and got in a short chapter that was basically something that explained the rules the main character had to follow if she was to remain alive and a creature she had no idea how to control.
"Hey beautiful," Derek said as I slipped on my headset. "How you doing today?"
I stifled a giggle. "How do you know I'm beautiful if you've never seen me?"
I could practically hear his smirk. "I just know by the sound of your silky smooth, angelic, voice."
"Whatever," I scoffed. "I'm doing fine, bored out of my mind but fine. How about you?"
"Good," he sighed. "Well as good as work will allow it."
"What do you do?"
"I play guitar in a band."
This peaked my interest. "Really? What band?"
"I'd rather not say." I stifled my sigh. "Anyway how's the living with your real family treating you? Oh, and what about them broken limbs?"
This time I didn't stifle my sigh I let it out in full force. "It's going great, right now I'm at my brother's apartment in L.A. waiting to move into the house that him and his girlfriend bought which is about two hours away. As far as the broken limbs go, I have no comment cause if I were to tell you about them we'd be here for days."
He gave a slight chuckle. "L.A. is a really fun place if you know where to go, but then again most places are like that." He gave a short pause. "Anyway are you ready to get your butt kicked?"
I scoffed. "As if." The questions I had for him would just have to wait. "Who won the last time? And the time before that? Oh, and the time before that?"
"I was just taking it easy on you seeing as your a girl." I raised my eyebrows, even though he couldn't see it, at the remark. "So what you wanna play? Prop Hunt? TTT? Murder? Hide and Seek? Your pick?"
I started to tap my chin in a thinking gesture. "Well we played Prop Hunt last time, and the time before that it was Murder, and the time before that it was TTT, so I think I'll choose" I paused just to make him wait. "Prop Hunt." A smile started to grow on my face.
Derek gave a sigh but his smile was in his voice. "Of course you would."
We switched games every so often and when 3:30 rolled around the apartment door opened and slammed shut.
"Hey, I'll be right back someone just came home," I told Derek and thankfully we were playing Murder instead of TTT.
I sat the laptop on the coffee table in front of me and headed to the door. Looking through the opening I saw CC had returned but he seemed off. His head was on the wall with his hands making it look like he was about to do a push-up off the wall. Plus, he absolutely reeked. I couldn't pin-point what he smell like but it was awful and made a lump form in my throat.
He looked over at me finally realizing he wasn't the only one in the tiny room. His his were kinda glazed over which seemed really familiar but I couldn't place it. His cheeks were kinda flushed and he seemed like he couldn't be happier.
"Zaria," he hick-upped and that's when realization crashed into me and a icy-cold hand of fear gripped my heart, he was drunk.
He slowly staggered over to me and every cell in my body told me to run but my legs wouldn't work. I was frozen to my spot. His hand rose from it's spot by his side and I automatically flinched and closed my eyes, fearing he was going to hit me. When the sting never came I slowly opened my eyes to see that an expression of hurt was plastered on CC's face, but my mind wouldn't process it completely because my instincts saw a chance to run and I took it.
I ran to the living room and picked my phone. Then I ran to Andy and Juliet's bedroom and locked the door. My breath came in shallow heaves as I sank down the length of the door. Tears stung my eyes but I refused to let them break through.
Slowly I got up and plopped down on Andy and Juliet's bed. I unlocked my phone and tried to think of a way to contact either one of them to see when they were going to get back but nothing short of sending them a PI on twitter came to mind and lord knows how many of those they get a day. I guess I'd just have to try my luck. I sent both of them a quick message asking if they could hurry up.
I lay down on the bed and the softness and the fact the my adrenaline started to work it's way out of my body made my eyes start to feel heavy. Just as I was about to fall asleep I remembered Derek was still waiting for me. Dammit! How could I go back when I drunken idiot was out just waiting to hurt me? Just suck it up, you can face it long enough to let Derek know that you needed to get off, couldn't you?
Taking a huge gulp I got off the bed and creep toward the door. Carefully I undid the lock and opened the door. A sigh escaped my lips, so far so good. Slipping out the door I walked down the hallway to see CC sitting on the couch, head in hands. My body faultered a little bit not wanting to go in but my mind overpowered my body and I slowly made my way to my laptop.
When I got three feet away CC's face slowly lifted up off his hands and I had to repress a gasp. His eyes were blood shot, his nose was all puffy, and a his lips were twice as big as they normally are. But when he saw me happiness flashed across his face but was soon replaced with despair and sadness.
"I'm so sorry," he croaked. "I-I didn't think when I came back. I just wanted to come back and hang out with you but-but" I sop escaped his lips "when I saw your reaction to me being drunk I thought I could somehow comfort you and show you that I wasn't wanting to hurt you. Then I went to reached stroke your cheek and you flinched and ran away I-I didn't know what to do. I was filled with such dread that I scared you and then anger at the fact that I had been so stupid but what I felt, feel, overall is sadness. Sad that I had scared you away from me and that your past is what caused this. I'm sad because all I want to do is take the pain from your past away and just let you feel safe but I can't."
I always read about people be stunned to silence but I always thought that to be stupid and never to happen, until now. I just stood there like an idiot not knowing what to say.
CC got up slowly, trying to show me he was up to no good, then walked over to me. This time when he lifted his hand I didn't flinch and run away, so he started to rub underneath my eyes.
"Please. Let no tears escape those beautiful smokey gray eyes of your's."
My eyes widen. I didn't put my contacts in today. Way to go Zar, a boy is trying to show his love for you and all you can think of is how you didn't put in your contacts.
I let my face lower and bit my lip. Then I felt a barrier break open and I was clutching CC's shirt bawling my eyes out. CC just held me there petting my hair trying to sooth me.
That's when my brain reminded me again of Derek. I pulled away from CC and walked over to my laptop. I told Derek that I needed to get off and that I would talk to him later then logged off.
CC was still standing where I left him and he still looked extremely sad. I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around him.
"Please, don't be sad over me, it's not wor...opp"
My back pocket started to vibrate and caused me to jump a little bit. When I pulled it out I saw that Juliet answered me back asking if everything was okay and that they're about and hour away. I didn't want to tell her that CC got drunk so I messaged her saying, "Everything's find. CC went out for awhile and something just spooked me. He's back now."
"Now what were you saying?" I turned to see CC right there in front of me.
"Just that you shouldn't be sad," I lied knowing that he'd probably argue with me about it. "Now, I'm really hungry. You should..."
*Knock Knock*
"Can I get a damn sentence out without something interrupting me," I said a little frustrated. I stormed over to the door and opened it to see Ashley standing on the other side.
He looked down at me and smiled. "You must be Andy's little sis. You're a lot hotter than I guessed you'd be." His comment made my eyes widened and my face flushed which cause him to chuckle. "Now you gonna let me in or are you just gonna stand there gawking like an idiot."
My eyes narrowed at him as I opened the door further to let him in. I walked into the kitchen to rummage for some food but I saw CC starting to make food just like I asked him to, well, tried to ask him to do.
"Hey Ashley what you doing here," CC said when he saw who was at the door.
"Nothing much really just coming to see what Andy was doing for New Year's." Ashley plopped down on the couch and started to flip through channels. "What are you gonna do for New Year's?"
"I'll probably just stay here and watch the ball drop and Andy probably won't go anywhere without Juliet." I saw CC pull out some chicken and I automatically loved whatever dish he was going to make.
When I turned back to Ashely he was sniffing the air like a dog. "CC," he said half terrfied. "Are you cooking?"
"Yea," CC chuckled softly. "Zaria was hungry and wanted me to cook her something."
Ashely gave me a look of pity then confustion. "I thought your name was Alexandria."
I gave a looked of frustration then sighed. "Andy's parents named me Alexandria but my parents named me Zaria." I walked over to the bar and hopped up on it. "I let Andy, Juliet, Chris, and Amy call me Alexandria but with anyone else I'd prefur Zaria." I leaned across the counter to try and see what CC was doing with the chicken but before I could see anything he propped the oven door open and put the chicken in.
"Nice to know I guess," Ashely mumbled.
CC turned around and saw me on counter. He tisked and told me to get down then I told him what happened last time I jumped off of something so he ended up having to pick me off the counter but he didn't stop there. He ended up carrying me to the living room and throwing me on the small love seat.
"You really didn't think the whole jumping up on the counter thing did you?" CC asked as he sat next to Ashely.
I smiled brightly. "Nope."

Notes

New chapter like I promised. I might be able to post more often because I'll be going over to my grandma's a lot more because she had a stroke and is having a lot of trouble and she has internet at her house.