Just For a Moment: Truths (Andy Biersack love story)

"Come on in." Lucy grins waving me into her office, the first thing I notice was the smell. Lavender, lavender and rosemarie. Her office is small but not too small, its still the same after two months: the red sofa always reminded me of home, my mom always loved red. The grey vase with one single plastic white rose in it, always remind me of my mother's passing. The stack books on the wall reminding me of my father's study back at home. Five certificates neatly hanged on the baby blue wall, five chairs spreading across the room like a conference room but with no table, guessing that she had a group meeting today.


"I am sorry for not making an appointment Lucy." I mummer shyly placing my briefcase on the floor taking my spot on the red sofa.


"Oh, bite your tongue I had nothing on anyway." She smiles pacing to her desk. Lucy was indeed magnificent in ever sense of the word; her black short hair in a neat bun, her three piece black suit fitting perfectly on her tall skinny body, her blue eyes bringing out her amazing sleek face, just popping. Her eyes reminded me of Andy, blue just like his.


She twirled around and grab her notepad from the small bar stool and took her seat across from me, with a swift move she turns on her pad and looked up to me with a real heartwarming smile.

"So, two months without me, how was it?" So it begins.

I shrug and nodded. "It been okay."


"Been okay huh?" Lucy slowly places her pad on the black coffee table next to her, she lifted up her hands. "Tell me." And slowly lowers them on her lap.

I took a deep sigh and begin. "I met a guy, two actually, but I don't think it will work."

"Work as in?" Her brow arch trying to look inside my head but its no use, no one could do that.


"Work as in, they are famous both pretty darn good on what they doing," I giggle nervously. "Being rock stars and such."


Lucy sighed and shook her head side to side. "Clara honey, you know how this sessions usually go, I am not going to ask you on 'how do you feel about that' crap. You know how I do things so tell me what's on your mind." I can never lie to lucy.


"I think its getting worse, my sickness is getting worse I keep freaking out, the smallest thing makes me want to burst in tears. I am not sure how I am going to cope. I can barley maintain a friendship, led alone a relationship. Lucy I am lucky that I lasted this long at Viral records."

"What are you afraid of?"

"That I will end up here again." I admitted, I didn't want to but I did.


"Oh sweety, you are not going to end up here again I will make sure of that. Like I said a thousand times before you are not crazy you don't belong in a mental hospital. Your disorder was triggered when your mother passed, than it build up to where u are today, Clara its time to face your fears." She says making my heart yet again beat faster and faster.

"I have to many."

"We all have our demons-"


I could not help but cut her off. "I try to drown them but they can swim."

"Who told you that?" A weak smile spreads across her face.

"Just heard it somewhere, but its true Lucy how am I going to face my fears when I can not even face myself, I can barley look in the mirror led alone look at someone else."


Lucy nodded and stood up walking to the bathroom. I don't want to be the freak anymore, I don't want to be the 'weird emo girl' I just want to be normal for once to have a life and to have someone.

A few seconds past and Lucy came back with a small container.


"I am not just your therapist Clara, I am also your friend. This will help you. As I am not your doctor but your therapist I could get into trouble for this," she breathes giving me the small container. "This will help you, its a strong yet affective pill, drink it every night, its level eight on the periodic table so don't overdose."

I twirl the container with my fingers, it has no name on it. "What will it do?" I ask curiously.


"help you with your nightmares." I will be grateful if it helps I barley sleep, the most a week its 5 hours I think. 6 at the most.


"Thank you." I whisper pushing the small container in my side pocket of my brown jacket.


"Sure, just remember this is not High school anymore, this is real life. You have to be tough, strong and always stand your ground, life is also about taking chances. So take a chance on someone."


I nod and stood up hugging a her tight. I let go and picked up my briefcase strolling to the door.


"Remember what I always say to you." She mummers. I twirl around with a huge smile.


"You got to risk it to get to biscuit."


"Good girl, now go and be a young adult."


I don't know what I will do without Lucy, Now I have to face my fears and starting with Kellin. How do you say sorry for freaking out? He is going to ask a lot of questions and now I think I will give him some answers, Kellin deserves to know he is only trying to help me, maybe I should accept his help, no will accept his help no more Maybes.


Even though I am confident now, I am not sure how long 'this facade' is going to hold. I will have a break down again, I will freak out again. I just have to be prepared.

I have to be prepared.

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