Beautiful Remains

“So Nicole,” Kaitie smiled, “what did you do for a living?”
“Uhm,” she shuddered, “I’d rather not discuss it.”

I looked to her arms and saw teeth and claw marks which made my mind make assumptions, however I layed those thoughts to rest since I hate people who judge others by how they look.

“Well that’s okay,” Kaitie smiled again, brightening up the room as usual, “what would you like to talk about?”
“Nothing, really…” she trailed off. “Excuse me.”

Nicole rose from the seat of the front lounge and headed to the back lounge, shutting the door behind her. CC distracted the group with some jokes and funny stories while I left them to talk...I wanted to check on Nicole. I then heard shower water running and, even though I could hear her gentle sobs, I left her alone. I barely know her and I don’t want to push her into telling me anything she doesn’t want to.

The next morning Jon informed me that Nicole had to share a room with me. When he told Nicole, she really didn’t seem to mind but the way she agreed made me feel sorry for her. She said “That’s fine. I’m used to sharing a room with a strange man anyway.” I simply shrugged it off though, hoping she’d tell me if anything was wrong. However, what I learned that night made me want to hurt a thousand men for this poor innocent girl.

I walked by Nicole’s part of the room and heard her crying again. This time, I didn’t shrug it off. Instead, I walked in her room and saw her hugging her knees to her chest and rubbing her legs. I asked her if she wanted me to leave and she begged for me to stay.

“What’s wrong, Nicole?” I asked softly.
“No matter how many times I bathe,” she sniffled, rubbing her arms, “I can’t wash the disgust away. You know what I did for a living...I could tell by the look in your eyes when you saw my arms.”
“I was hoping I was wrong.”
“You were completely right. Why can’t I get clean Ashley? Why can’t I just forget it all? Why?!”
“Shh,” I hushed her, rubbing her back.
“Make it go away,” she cried, hugging me and cradling herself to my chest.
“It’s okay, Nicole,” I spoke softly, wrapping my arms around her. “That’s all in the past now, remember? It’s okay, I’m right here.”

That entire night I stayed with her, not once did I dare to close my eyes. When she fell asleep, I tucked her in and sat in a chair by the window as she slept. Every time she had a nightmare, I would wake her up then talk with her to get the thoughts out of her head. She would fall back asleep and have another nightmare two hours later but I really didn’t mind. I wanted to stay up and make sure she was okay, I wanted to make sure she slept soundly.-----TIME LAPSE (A MONTH)-----

“Okay Andy tilt your head up slightly and Ash turn yours to the right a bit,” Kaitie ‘bossed’ us into poses.
“Like this?” I asked.
“Perfect. Now CC can you tilt your head down and Jake I want you to give us a ‘growling’ pose. Okay everyone hold that position. Aaaaaand...got it! Okay guys, back to the hotel.”
“When they guna be developed?” I asked.
“When we get back to Hollywood,” she giggled.

I noticed Nicole was walking way ahead of us with her arms folded across her stomach and her head hung. I decided to brighten up her day a little bit. I quickly ran to where she was walking and stopped her dead in her tracks by standing in front of her and crouching down.

“What are you doing?” she asked confused.
“Hop on,” I chuckled. “No more walking today, instead I’m giving you a piggy-back ride to the hotel. So, hop on.”
“Okay,” she giggled as she climbed on my back.
“And we’re off!”

As I carried her on my back, I kept getting smirks from Andy and Jinxx. I didn’t really understand why but I just figured they were teasing me or something. When we arrived at the hotel, Kaitie offered to take her up to our room and told me to go see Andy and Jinxx about something. Since she was like a little sister to me, I couldn’t say no. So, I told Nicole I’d be up soon and I went to find Andy smoking and talking with Jinxx as they both leaned against the building.

“Hey guys,” I smiled.
“Hey, man,” Andy smiled back.
“Kaitie said you wanted to talk to me?”
“Yep.”
“What about?”
“You and Nicole,” Jinxx chuckled.
“What about me and Nicole?”
“You like her.”
“What? No man, she’s just a good friend.”
“When’s the last time she slept in a hotel room by herself? Who’s the last person you think of before you go to sleep? When’s the last time you looked at a chick other than Kaitie?”
“Uhm…” I was honestly shocked.
“You like her, man,” Andy giggled.
“So what if I do?”
“You should tell her,” Jinxx explained. “If not...she’s going to end up with somebody else and you’re going to be heart broken...again.”
“What did I say about talking about my ex girlfriends?”
“Sorry, bro but it’s the truth.”
“Enough, alright?”

I ended the conversation and walked to the elevator. On my way up to the room, I started thinking about what the guys said. I then realized they were right...I do like Nicole...a lot. I don’t know how that’s possible though, I’ve only known her for a month. Now I’m very confused and there’s an attractive girl sitting in my hotel room waiting for me.

I entered my hotel room and found her waiting for me, watching TV. I rubbed the back of my neck with my hand and sighed as I sat beside her. I’ve only known her for a month and already I’m feeling very nervous. I’ve got to do something to stop myself from hurting her. I walked to the kitchen area of my hotel room and pulled out my phone to call one of my old Purdy girls to get my mind off of her.

Notes

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What the hell is Ashley doing?!!!!