*Jake’s POV*
Oh man. I could barely open my eyes. It felt like I had shards of glass poking the backs of my eyeballs. Fuck. That’s right… the big ‘F’ word. The 'why-in-the-hell-did-I-drink-so-much-last-night’... adjective. It was the only word I could think of in between my unrelenting misery of a headache. It didn’t help that shit was going down in the studio.

I checked my phone; 8.19am. Oh come on! Seriously!? We haven’t long been home, let alone asleep; and CC is shouting and screaming like it’s a contest. What the hell is his problem anyway?

Ashley came bounding down the stairs, obviously it had woken him too. I would’ve gotten up to see what was going on, and split it up if I had to, but I couldn’t. Physically I couldn’t. My limbs felt heavy and unresponsive - reluctant to move.

The situation seems to have been calmed now. I think I can hear some crying and the murmuring of people talking, but right now, I really didn’t care. I struggled against my body and got up, stepping over Dan and Craig, and then sloped off into the kitchen. I needed to quench my thirst, get rid of this God awful desert that was overtaking my mouth. I poured myself a glass of water and I practically absorbed it before filling my cup up once more. My stomach kept making funny gurgling noises and it hurt so much. I think that it was so upset that it was angry with me. I needed to get to the bathroom! Note to self – don’t drink so much!

Knock knock knock.

“Come in if you must.” I groaned. Myah walked in, her eyes red and puffy, her cheeks blotchy. Oh man, now I feel bad for not having rushed to her aid when I heard the shouting. What happened for her to be this upset? “Hey what’s up doll?”

“Never mind me, you need looking after.” She had a point. I probably looked a right sorry state with my head in the toilet.

"I threw up three times already." I moaned, my throat raw and my nose burning. I clutched my stomach as I felt a fourth onslaught coming on. “You should leave, I need to chuck again.”

She didn’t leave. She just knelt down beside me, rubbing my back in circular motions, while I emptied whatever was left inside me. Surely that’s got to be everything now.

“So…” She said as she plopped her ass down on the tiled floor next to me, crossing her legs. “I talked to Jinxx.”

“And? Is he ok?”

“Not exactly.”

“What do you mean, not exactly?”

“Well… Ok, where do I start?" She paused and took a deep breath. "He and Sammi aren’t together anymore.” I wasn’t too sure how to take this. “They got the divorce finalised about six months ago.” What!? Divorced? But- Why wouldn’t he tell me? “He says that she cheated on him with someone when she was on tour, and that they just couldn’t work it out. Not only was the trust, but the love was gone.” I don’t know exactly what expression I was holding, but I imagine is was that of someone who had just been slapped with a wet fish. A look of pain and anguish, mixed with a dash of disgust.

You know what? Fuck him! Best friend my fucking ass. I thought we were supposed to tell each other everything! I told him when I wanted to propose, I told him when Ella had a miscarriage, and I told him that my Mom was dying. He was the first person I would go to, because that’s what best friends do. I can’t believe he didn’t tell me!

“Jakey?” Myah brought me back to reality.

“What.” I snapped.

“Are you okay?”

“Do I look okay to you?”

“Well… No. That’s why I asked.”

“Dumb ass.” I muttered. I instantly regretted what I said. Myah just looked at me, those already red eyes starting to glaze over, tears threatening to fall. “I’m sorry. Hey, I’m really sorry. I didn’t mean to- I just…”

“Thanks Jake.” She snivelled. “I feel confused enough as it is!” She stood up briskly and I grabbed her by the wrist, not letting her go. “Get off of me, Jake!” She tugged and pulled trying to get free, but I stood up, head pounding and using my other hand, I twisted her round by her shoulder to face me.

“Hey. Myah, hey. Look at me. I didn’t mean to upset you okay? I’m mad a Jinxx. Not you. Jinxx. He’s my best friend. Well I thought he was anyway. We’re supposed to tell each other everything and this is the first I had heard that he and Sammi were even on bad terms, let alone divorced!” She stayed silent. “C’mere you.” I embraced her tight, her hands wrapped around my waist hugging in return. “I’m really sorry okay?” I felt her nod against my chest. “Okay.”

“Hey Jake. Can I tell you something?” she asked me, reluctant to let go of the hug.

“Of course you can, sweetie. Always.” I played with her hair a little while she mumbled into me. “Myah, honey, I can’t hear you.” She tilted her head slightly so that her face was facing outwards, not muffled into my chest.

“Are all guys this confusing?”

“Depends, what do you mean?”

“Well last night when you asked me to see if Jinxx was okay, I managed to get him outside and we talked. He got mad at me because none of us had noticed anything was out of the ordinary. I tried to tell him that we had noticed, that’s why we were trying to talk to him so often, and then he just got really pissed at me and he accidentally lost his temper and hurt me. I was scared of him. For a split second I was actually scared, but then things got strange…”

“How did he hurt you, Myah?”

“It was my own fault. He tried walking away so I ran and stood in front of him so he pushed me out the way. I fell off of the curb, I only grazed myself, it’s nothing bad and he did say sorry for it.”

“Hmm. Okay. And what do you mean things got strange?”

“Well this is what had me so confused, we got a cab back here and well…”

“Well…?”

“I kissed him.”

“Oh.”

“I kissed him. And he kissed me. And then I got scared and I ran.”

“Ran where?”

“To my room… I cried a lot. I don’t know why I kissed him. I have liked him for as long as I can remember, but I would never have thought I would actually act on it. I mean he’s my big brother’s band mate. You’re all like my big brothers, so it felt weird. I never wanted to let myself think of him that way, because he had Sammi and I’m well… I’m me.” I didn’t quite know what to say or do, so I just kept holding her close. “I felt so stupid. I thought he couldn’t possibly like me. Not in a million years. So I freaked out and shut myself upstairs. I thought I was right about everything because he stayed away. But about 15 minutes later he knocked at my door and he had made cocoa. He asked if I wanted my hot chocolate left outside the door, but I told him he could come in. We sat and talked for ages. We drank cocoa together and he told me all about Sammi and he really opened up to me. Then one thing lead to another and…” Oh jeez, did they…?

“Did you?” I held her out at arm’s length.

“Do it? No. But we did stuff.”

“Stuff?”

“Yeah y’know… Stuff.” She had really started to blush now. She sat back on the floor and I joined her.

“Nope, I don’t think I know what you mean by stuff.” I was teasing her so bad.

“Jaaake.” She whinged.

“Whaaaaat?” I mimicked.

“You know… Stuuuuuuff.”

“Ok, well was it you doing stuff to him, him doing stuff to you?”

“The second one…”

“Ok, so he did stuff to you?”

“That makes it sound bad. He didn’t force me. It was nice though, Jake. It gave me butterflies. I felt amazing. He felt amazing. He made sure no matter what he did that I was comfortable and he was really careful not to hurt me. He did it so lovingly, I think he actually likes me.”

“Well he has always had a soft spot for you, so yeah, my guess is, he’s actually letting himself act on it for once, I guess now that he’s single…”

“He… He likes me?”

“Yeah, has done since before Sammi. He just couldn’t act on it because of all the things you’ve already said, especially Ash.”

“How do we tell him?”

“Who Ash?” She nodded. “You don’t.” We laughed together.

“He’s going to kill us isn’t he?”

“Well, he will kill Jinxx for sure, touching his baby sister? He’s screwed!” I joked.

“He should be okay. I mean, we both clearly like each other right? We’re happy…”

“He’ll come round eventually. He has to. For your sake and the sake of the band.”

“Yeah I guess… Thanks Jakey. I feel much better now.” She scooted over and sat on my lap giving me a massive hug.

“That’s okay, doll. You know I’m always here for my little sis.”

“I’m going to go shower now. I’ll see you later on.” She gave me a kiss on the cheek and left the bathroom.

I sat for a while, just thinking. Taking in everything Myah had said. Don’t get me wrong I was happy that they both like each other, but that doesn’t change the fact he didn’t tell me about his divorce. I was still mad at him. I might test him. Yeah… I decided I was going to ask him w-

“MOVE! GET OUT OF THE WAY” Dan yelled as he came bursting in to the bathroom and I shot out of the door as I heard him expelling the entire contents of last night.

Nice.

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