The Labcoat
Just Pick One And Cut, It Just Doesn't Matter Anymore
Chrissie POV
Hmmm...
Why?
That's the only question I'm gonna ask.
Why was he doing this to me?
I didn't understand anymore, and the drugs weren't helping.
No one was going to care about me no matter how much I wanted them to, no matter how much I begged.
I'm all alone.
I stared into the mirror, my disgusting face cringing.
No one wants me anymore.
I looked down so I wouldn't have to see my reflection.
No one has ever wanted me.
"Chrissie, please." He softly whispered.
I pulled my hair, not wanting to be played by his captivating voice.
"LEAVE ME ALONE!"
I needed my sweet release, my one thing I could turn to, but I didn't have it.
Scaveging through my makeup bag, I found a black bobby pin and bit off the rubber nubs, exposing the sharp metal edges.
"Desperate times, come for desperate measures." I mumbled as I dragged it vertically up my wrist.
This hurt way more than a blade, it was so much wider and took so much pressure to use.
I had broken a promise.
Not only to Andy, but to myself.
Andy wouldn't give a shit though.
My head hung low, taking in the burning sensation and the fluid seeping out of the cuts.
The silence rung so loudly, I was ready to scream, just to end it.
"Please." He gently knocked on the door.
I wanted to laugh.
He thinks I don't know what he's doing.
Stomping over to the door, I unlocked it, and angrily swung it open, revealing a guilty looking Andy.
I wanted to break down and cry, collapsing in his arms, but I was too mad.
"IS THIS WHAT YOU WANTED?!" I held up my wrist, showing him my cuts.
His mouth fell open, his hand automatically clasping over it and tears brimming to his silvery orbs.
Hmmm...
Why?
That's the only question I'm gonna ask.
Why was he doing this to me?
I didn't understand anymore, and the drugs weren't helping.
No one was going to care about me no matter how much I wanted them to, no matter how much I begged.
I'm all alone.
I stared into the mirror, my disgusting face cringing.
No one wants me anymore.
I looked down so I wouldn't have to see my reflection.
No one has ever wanted me.
"Chrissie, please." He softly whispered.
I pulled my hair, not wanting to be played by his captivating voice.
"LEAVE ME ALONE!"
I needed my sweet release, my one thing I could turn to, but I didn't have it.
Scaveging through my makeup bag, I found a black bobby pin and bit off the rubber nubs, exposing the sharp metal edges.
"Desperate times, come for desperate measures." I mumbled as I dragged it vertically up my wrist.
This hurt way more than a blade, it was so much wider and took so much pressure to use.
I had broken a promise.
Not only to Andy, but to myself.
Andy wouldn't give a shit though.
My head hung low, taking in the burning sensation and the fluid seeping out of the cuts.
The silence rung so loudly, I was ready to scream, just to end it.
"Please." He gently knocked on the door.
I wanted to laugh.
He thinks I don't know what he's doing.
Stomping over to the door, I unlocked it, and angrily swung it open, revealing a guilty looking Andy.
I wanted to break down and cry, collapsing in his arms, but I was too mad.
"IS THIS WHAT YOU WANTED?!" I held up my wrist, showing him my cuts.
His mouth fell open, his hand automatically clasping over it and tears brimming to his silvery orbs.
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7/3/14