Saviour

--Scarlett's POV--
__The next day__
I was in the bed beside Andy. He looked so peace full when he slept. I loved Andy I loved him a lot, but I liked Ashley a lot I mean like a lot a lot. Andy was sweet and caring, but he hurt me like every body else in my life. I feel bad that I was the reason that he tried to kill himself but.... but what I am a cold heart less bitch. How could I be thinking about Ashley when Andy just tried to kill himself because of me? God I can't believe I even though of that. I mean I love Andy with all of my heart, but I was abused all of my life and when he gets mad he can't control his anger and it scares me that he might do the same thing that my mom did and Keith did. I don't want to be beat to death any more, and what if Andy does that? I mean I know he doesn't mean to, but my mom didn't mean to ether. She was drunk, but she still hurt me. I had to go some where to think so I left a note for Andy saying that I am going for a walk. I got my iPod and popped in my ear buds to listen to some music. I put it on shuffle and Cellar Door by Escape The Fate came on. I sang along and walked up to Ashley's house. I had to talk to somebody and knew I couldn't talk to Andy. I walked in and went to Ashley's room to see him asleep. I walked over to his bed and sat down beside him. He woke up and smiled. "Hey Scarlett I didn't expect to see you here" Ashley said in a sleepy but sexy voice. "yeah I just needed to think and I can't talk to Andy about it so I thought I would tell you." "oh well what do you need to talk about?" Ashley said sounding a little bit confused. "umm well last night I walked back to Andy's house and when I walked into his room his bed sheets where covered in blood because he cut his wrist." "Oh my god that is terrible. Is he okay?" Ashley asked "yeah he is fine but it was all my fault" I started to cry Ashley pulled me in for a hug and said "it's not your fault it's nobody's fault." I looked up at him and then said between sobs "but he wouldn't have done that if I wouldn't have broken up with him." Ashley looked down at me and wiped away my tears and then said "why did you break up with him?" "because I was trying to get him to stop beating up my moms boyfriend and when I tried to pull him off he pushed me really hard and I hit my head against the wall and fell to the floor. I am just scared he will abuse me like my mom and her boyfriend did." "well I doubt he meant to push you" "Ashley he hurt you to if he would hurt his best friend like that then why wouldn't he hurt me?" "it was just out of anger Scarlett" "I KNOW IT WAS OUT OF ANGER WHAT IF HE GETS ANGRY AT ME AND HITS ME?" I scream at him. "Scarlett I don't know I am so sorry that you feel this way. I don't think Andy would ever really mean to hurt you." "What if he does my mom never meant to hurt me she was drunk and high but she did!! I don't want to be hurt anymore." Ashley looks down at me. He wipes the tears from my face and then leans in to kiss me. At first I pull back but then I lean in and we kiss. I don't know how to explain this kiss but it felt like fireworks where going off. The same way it felt the first time I kissed Andy. Then after a few seconds I pull away thinking about what I just done. Ashley looks at me confused and then I just say "this is why Andy tried to kill his self last night and I am doing it again god I am a fucking heartless bitch!!" ''No you are not you are the kindest person I have ever met you are not heart less" Ashley said in a reassuring tone, but I didn't believe him and I got up and ran to his bathroom crying. Ashley chased after me but I was to fast and locked myself in before he could reach the door. I found the razor blades I used the last time and cut my other wrist. I heard Ashley banging on the door but I couldn't understand what he was saying over my crying. 'One cut two cut three cut four then the blood starts dripping on the floor five cut six cut 7 cut 8 nobody will care if she is gone or not, will they?'. I remember the poem I wrote a couple years ago when I was extra depressed. Then I see Ashley break down the door and see my wrist. He drops to his knees and grabs my freshly cut wrist and says "We need to bandage this up" He gets the first aid kit and tells me to grab his hand because this might hurt. He pulls out the rubbing alcohol I scream "no!!",but then he says "we have to they can't get infected Scarlett." He pours it on my arm and I squeeze his hand as tight as I can until he finishes. He wraps a bandage around my arm and pulls me into a hug. "Don't ever do that again. Promise?" Ashley says "promise." I say crossing my fingers. I know I will not be able to keep that promise. Ashley brings me back to his room and lays me down on his bed and says "you need sleep I will wake you up in a couple hours" then he walks out. I slowly drift into sleep.

Notes

i'm kinda stuck on what to write.
what should happen next?