I love you more than I could ever scream

Jakes pov*
After Oli left I layed on the couch, and just thought about him. His tattoos. His eyes. His smile.
Then i thought about Jinx, and i felt horrible...
"Eh, this is just a phase" I thoight to myself.
The guys ended up coming back to the bus about and hour and a half later.
I also got a text from Oli.
My face light up. (According to Andy)

Our Conversation:
Oli: Hey c:
Me: Hai haha
Oli: What are you up to?
Me: sitting her about to go to our first show, wby?
Oli: just got done with practice c:
Me: Hey want to come to our show???
Oli: sure mate, Ill be waiting back stage for my hug /.\
Me: okay :) see you there!

"Ugh" I thought to myself. What if im falling for Oli???
eh. Ill get over it, maybe. Hes not even gay...

we got to the show, about to go on. And like Oli said, he was waiting there backstage. He gave me the biggest hug ever. It was the best hug Ive had. It was amazing.
Jinx looked at me like he was hurt.
i felt kimda bad agaim but i shrugged it off.
After she show was over, I didnt have a shirt. Or one of my shoes.... I decided to crowd surf and well, it didnt turn out too well.
Oli laughed at me and said "I wish I was in the crowd" and blushed.
I smiled and looked at my shoeless feet.
Jinx obviously got jelous amd came up to me pushimg Oli out of the way.
"Really Jinx?!" I yelled at him and stormed away.

"Jinxs pov*"
Tears stung the corners of my eyes.
Hes going to leave me..." i told myself.
After i got back to the Tour Bus I locked nyself in the bathroom and got my razor.
I cut up my legs. There was so much blood.
Andy started banging on the door yelling at me to hurry up.
I got so scared. They couldn't see me cutting again.
Ive already caused to much drama with it.
They dont need anymore problems from me... especially because how worthless iI am...
"Okay hold up!" I yelled bacl and wrapped my thighs in gauze and walked out.
Andy walked in there and saw the blood om the floor.
"Uhm.... Jinx, come here. "
I obeyed and walked towards Andy with my head down.
He flicked my right thigh.
"Ow!" I yelped in pain.
He looked at me with so much pain amd wrapped his arms aroumd me.
I hugged him back.
After a few minuets he pulled away and whispered "Everything will be okay Jinx, I promise... you just have to trust me."
"But Andy it-"
Andy cut me off and hugged me again.
"Jinx... no butts. Everythimg will be fine. It may not seem like it right now. But life gives you enough scars, dont manufacture your own."
I didnt know what to say.
I just hugged him again.
"Thank you so much"
"Ill always be here. And im sorry about before, but that doesnt change the fact that I still love you. No matter what. "
All I could do was stare at Andy.
I turned aroumd and walked away.
I went to my room and layed om my bed.
Cc always seems so know whats wrong woth people because he came and knocked on my door.
"Are you okay love?" Cc asked
"Yeah, just thinking."
"Hey look, Dont over think what Andy said. Or the thing between Jake and Oli"
He put finger quotes aroumd "thing."
I didnt reply, I just stared at my roof.
"Ill let you get some rest...Night." and he left my room.

Notes

I feel horrible guys...
i keep telling ylu i promise to update and all that and i havent :c
im really sorry.
But this time i will. For real xD
thank you all for still keepimg up with my story! C: