Jake propped himself up on his elbow and watched Ella's shoulder go up and down as she breathed in deeply and exhaled silently while she slept beside him. He shouldn't feel guilt; he was a single man now. But in the back of his mind was Lena's pained face. Her expression on the night he kicked her out had been burned into his brain and he suffered every day as it surfaced. As he stared at Ella, he began to think that maybe he had moved on too quickly. Maybe Lena was his true love, and he had just fucked up his entire life.

Andy sat on the bed next to Jake and Ella's with his back towards them and his cell phone pressed against his ear. "We all miss you too." He said with a slight laugh and a wide smile on his face.

Jake knew exactly who he was talking to. "Andy?" He half whispered, hoping not to wake Ella. "Is that... Is that Lena on the phone?"

Andy turned his head and nodded quickly before turning back around. Jake carefully stood up and walked over in front of Andy, holding out his hand. "Can I talk to her?"

Andy looked up at him, phone still pressed against his ear. "Uh, hey, Lena? I have someone here that wants to talk to you."

Aw, who is it? Is it CC? He's such a cutie and--

"No," Jake interrupted her. "It's me."

The line fell silent and Jake took the call out into the hallway. He didn't want Ella to wake up and start asking questions. He knew Lena well enough to know that even though she could have Andy now, she wasn't going to be happy that he had found someone else as well.

"Lena? Are you still there? Please... Just... Talk to me. I need to hear your voice." He pleaded.

What do you want, Jake? I thought you were done with me. Venom dripped from her voice.

Jake could feel his heart racing faster with every word she spoke to him. He missed her, and was starting to realize that maybe Ella had been a mistake. Maybe kicking Lena out had been a mistake. Maybe ending it all wasn't what was supposed to happen after all.

"Lena, every day I see your face in my mind and I can't help but feel guilty for hurting you the way I did. That wasn't right of me and--"

Jake, She cut him off. I would rather not have this conversation over the phone. If you really want to apologize to me in such depth, it can wait until you come home. And if it can't, then I guess that means you were never really sorry to begin with.

"But I--"

Put Andy back on. I'm done with this.

Jake could feel tears stinging behind his eyes as he let the phone drop down to his side. He sulked back into the hotel room and gave the phone back to Andy. He answered it with a cheery voice and Lena's upbeat voice responded. He could already tell she was happier with Andy than she ever had been with him. Jake crawled back under the covers and turned his back to Ella and Andy. At this point, all he wished to do was fall back asleep and pretend nothing had ever happened. He wanted to escape into the darkness where he could dream of a better world where none of this had ever occurred.

Notes

i know it's been like 28937819321023 years since I updated this and i'm pretty sure one of you lil shits has been pestering me on ask.fm about it (maybe not) but yeah here it is and yeah it's kinda short but like fillery bc I needed a connecting chapter and yeah woo

Shout outs:

-Kvengeance
-This Is Our Sweet Blasphemy
-xXCarolynSikkXx