Cruel Cruel

"YEAHH!!" Jack yelled as he played beer pong with Alex and I. We shook our heads, and laughed at him. I took a swig of my beer. Andy was at his signing which was scheduled much earlier than mine today.
"Your turn Lee." Alex said, and picked up the white plastic ball, and tossed it straight into the red solo cup at the other end of the table.
"Damn!" Jack said, "How come your so much better than me?"
"It comes natural!" I said shrugging.
"BEER PONG!" I heard the drummer for All Time Low, Rian Dawson scream, the bassist Zack was behind him shaking his head. Rian picked up a ball, and tossed it, missing the cup he was aiming for completely. "Shit!" He yelled.
"HAH! Lee is better than you!" Jack yelled.
"So? She's better than you too!" Rian folded his arms over his chest.
"Lee how are you and Andy?" Alex asked me, changing the subject.
"Really good." I said smiling, and it was true. We were still in that new couple phase even though it was almost a month and a half since we started dating.
"Have you told him about....you know." Alex sat down in a chair, and gestured for me to sit next to him.
"Not yet." I sighed looking at my lap.
"You need too."
"It's not easy to tell someone you were raped, Alex." I shook my head.
"You told us." He said resting his hand on my shoulder, "He's your boyfriend, it's something he needs to know."
"You guys are like my best friends, and we were on tour when it happened! How am I supposed to bring it up?" I said, exasperated.
"I don't know, Lee, but if you don't tell him now, he is going to find out somehow." He said.
"Alex, it's not easy for me to..talk about. I feel like I'm about to throw up thinking about it." I said putting me head in my hands, "He had his hands all over me, and he ripped my clothes off and..." I sobbed, and Alex pulled me into a hug.
"I know, but Andy and you need to be completely honest with each other." He said, as I cried softly. "I didn't mean to make you cry, Lee."
"It's okay." I said sniffling, I pulled away from his chest, and tried a small smile.
"Everything will be alright." He smiled at me.
"I hope."

Notes

....so sad...