Daring kiss

Even... He wanted to be even with me... I knew it. I mean why would he kiss a stranger otherwise. It's not like he cares, only Jamie and Matt care. Somehow I couldn't stop the tears from flowing as they dripped down to the concrete below us. The smile on Andy's face turned to a worried one. Sometimes facial expressions lie... this has got to be a lie. There will never be a guy other than Matt that will show a genuine worried face towards me... Andy's hand came towards my face as he said something but all sound was blocked out. I backed up with a quick motion and began to run... i ran pass Jamie and looked back to see the whole bvb group standing there in awe and Matt running out of the Mall with a look of concern. More tears ran down my face as I continued running towards my apartment complex. The lady at the desk looked at me with concern as I ran up the stairs, not wanting to see anyone unexpected in the elevator. Not wanting to have to explain... not wanting this feeling of dread and mistake. I barged in my apartment and slammed the door behind me, racing to my room like there was no tomorrow. Flopping on the bed I continued to sob knowing no one would be able to know where i was. Not even Jamie or Matt... I never told them that I lived alone ever since we graduated two years ago. They never had a reason to come over, i would always go to their house if there was something we needed to do together. I had lived by myself ever since I was abandoned by my adopted parents, they were saying things like "You won't even talk to us, how will we take care of you?!" and "If you're so confident you don't need to speak to us to survive. Then go survive on your own!" After that i was kicked out and sent to 'survive on my own'. I continued to sob for hours, having that done by one of my idols ruined me. I was getting continuous messages from Matt and Jamie and other unknown numbers that i assumed were the bvb members. Stop texting me if you don't care! I continued to think this as i got messages from them. I started to get called by them and i listened to their voicemails and matched the members with their contacts. It was kinda cool to have their numbers but the constant buzzing was getting annoying so i turned off my phone. I giggled to myself before the feeling of sadness overwhelmed me again and i dragged myself into the kitchen. I grabbed a bagel and some fluffy Philadelphia cream cheese out of the refrigerator. I put the bagel in the toaster and leaned against the counter sighing. "Way to ruin a good day." I said to myself. I walked over to the coffee machine and made myself some vanilla coffee and grabbed some creamer and sugar. The pop of the toaster scared me while i was pouring the creamer and it spilled. I groaned and grabbed the part of my shirt over where my heart would be. "Anymore events gonna happen that will make my heart hurt?" I asked aloud like i was going to get an answer. I then put the cream cheese on my bagel and grabbed a paper towel to clean up the spilled creamer. After cleaning the mess I finished making my coffee and walked over to the lounging area. I set my coffee and bagel on the coffee table and walked over to my movie collection. I searched through my movies and found two that i wanted to watch. 'The Dark Knight Rises' and 'The Amazing Spiderman.'. I didn't know which one to choose so i decided to watch both, watching 'The Dark Knight Rises' first. By the second movie i was done with all my food and my coffee was long gone and I was starting to feel drowsy. Halfway through 'The Amazing Spiderman' I was asleep. In a deep sleep without a dream in sight... my feelings added together to make a black and gloomy surrounding in which i was engulfed.

Notes

OH MY GOODNESS. Tell me whatya think mer fellow bvb lovers