We Don't Belong
Plans
When I woke up I felt like I had been hit by a semi-truck and my brain felt fuzzy. I could hear a beeping and feel an annoying pain in my arm. I opened my eyes. Where was I?
“Good morning beautiful.” I heard Andy’s voice to the right of me. “How are you feeling?”
I turned my head and saw that Andy was sitting in a chair beside me. “Like I got hit by a semi.” I answered. “Where am I?”
Andy looked like he hadn’t gotten any sleep. I would say he looked like crap but he never did. I probably did; I felt like crap.
“The hospital.” Andy answered. “Katelyn is on her way by plane and should be here soon. She sounded pissed so we better brace ourselves. I don’t know who she’s more pissed at me or you.”
“Awesome.” I said sarcastically. “Do you think I can pull the sick card?”
“I don’t think that will work this time; though you can try.” Andy replied.
“What happened? I just remember being on the AA bus and then everything just gets fuzzy.” I asked trying to remember the details. I know that been was there because I remember him yelling before I blacked out.
“Ben said that you were complaining of a headache and one of the fuckin groupies gave you something. Well that something was hydrocodone which you’re not supposed to take with alcohol because it magnifies the affects.”
“I know.” I responded.
“He said that you were acting weird so he asked you if you were okay, you said that you felt funny and then dropped. Ben got me and I called 911. When the ambulance got there you were barely breathing. You fuckin scared me; I thought I was going to lose you.”
“Well now you know how I felt when you broke your ribs.” I replied.
Andy looked at me unamused, “What were you thinking taking something from a complete stranger?”
“I wasn’t really thinking.” I answered, giving him a similar answer to what he gave me when he broke his ribs. The truth really was that I wasn’t thinking. I knew that it was dumb to take drinks and pills from strangers; it just hadn’t registered at the time.
“We tend to do that a lot.” Andy commented.
I nodded in response as a young nurse came in. “You’re finally up.” She said cheerfully.
“Yep.” I answered.
“Good because you have some friends in the waiting room that are causing quite the disturbance.” She said chuckling, telling me that she wasn’t really the one complaining. “I’ll send them in after I record your vitals.”
She looked at a monitor beside me recording my pulse on my charts. “Open your mouth.” She said holding out a thermometer. I did as she said and it beeped a couple of times and she recorded that. “Arm up so I can get the blood pressure cuff on you.” I lifted my arm up a little, it felt like lead. She pressed another button and I started to feel the pressure of the cuff. “Everything seems to be pretty normal. Your pulse is a little slow still but not bad. Should be back to normal soon.” She said with a smile.
I nodded, “Okay, when can I be discharged?”
“Later today. The doctor just has to give you a look over and then sign the charts and you’ll be free to go. Any other questions?” She asked with a smile. I shook my head. “I’ll send your friends in then.”
“I’m sorry.” I said when the nurse left.
“What are you saying sorry for?” He asked looking confused.
I sighed, “For this whole thing. For scaring you so much.”
“Oh I was freaking out, crying even.” He answered laying it on thick. “And I am not a crier.”
“And I missed that? Damn.” Before he could reply everyone started coming into the room. All the guys from Asking Alexandria, Jake, Ashley and CC, and Juliet.
“So good news, you have inspired a music video for us.” Danny said as soon as he came into the room, not allowing anyone else to say anything.
“Great just what I always wanted. My accidental drug overdose being made into a music video.” I said unenthusiastically.
“Danny’s going to be drugged by a whore.” Ben commented.
“You are in so much trouble Riley Marie Rose.” I looked to the door to see Katelyn standing there looking absolutely pissed. “And so are you Andy and who the hell is Ben?” Everyone pointed to Ben but Ben pointed to Ashley.
“That’s a fail.” Ashley mumbled.
“You’re lucky I don’t kick your ass right here.” She said glaring at Ben. “Why the hell did you two let her take a fuckin pill from a stranger? And you!” She said turning to me. “Why the hell would you take it? It’s all over the news! ‘Girlfriend of Rock Singer OD’d’. What the hell are you going to do now Riley? What about future employment? They’re going to do a background check and see oh this girl tried to off herself. Do we really want her working for us?”
“I did not try to off myself.” I defended myself.
“Well the press isn’t painting a pretty picture.” She answered. “And not to mention your parents. They are going to flip when they find out.”
“I don’t really give a fuck about my parents right now.” I answered.
“Katelyn just stop.” Andy interfered. “It was an accident and she’s fine now. We’ll worry about all the other stuff when it comes to that.”
“You could have died Riley.” She said pointing out what I already knew.
“I know.” I answered.
She sighed, “Thank you Andy and Ben for helping her.”
Ben looked at her surprised, “I thought you were going to kick my ass?”
She glared at him, “Don’t tempt me.”
***
After I was discharged we caught a flight back to LA, we weren’t that far away so it was only a couple hour flight. Since Katelyn’s car was at the airport she drove Andy, CC and I. CC sat in the front and Andy and I were in the back. On the way to Andy’s we were all quiet. I was too lost in thought and Katelyn was still pissed.
“Thanks for the ride.” Andy thanked Katelyn when we got to Andy’s.
“Yep.” She answered. “See you guys later.”
“Bye.” I said and then got out of the car.
As soon as we got into the house I went straight for the bedroom and got my book bag and duffle bag out of the closet and threw them open on the bed.
"What's wrong?" Andy asked as I threw my clothes into the bags. When I didn't answer he grabbed my bag. "What the fuck are you doing?"
"I need to get away." I said stubbornly trying to keep back tears. "I need to get out of here."
"Why? What did I do?" He asked looking annoyed.
"I don't want to talk about it I just want to leave." I answered stubbornly grabbing my other bag.
Andy took the bag away from me. "Talk to me Riley! You can't just leave me." He said sounding desperate. "I love you and I want to know what the hell is going on. One minute we're fine and the next you're freaking out."
I clenched my jaw. "Give me my damn bags Andy." I said getting pissed. Why couldn't he just let me go?
"No!" He yelled and threw the bags out of the bedroom. "Tell me what is wrong God damn it!"
"I'm turning into exactly the person I don't want to be!" I yelled as tears started falling down my cheeks. "I don't know who I am anymore!" I pulled my BVB necklace off and threw it to the ground. "This is not me! I'm drinking and partying! I just don't care anymore! I want to care again...I want to love you like I did! It's not the same anymore, Andy. Can't you tell? I used to not be able to be away from you for a short amount of time. Like it was physically painful. And I hated fighting with you! Now it's like I don’t care if we’re away from each other and we’re constantly fighting. I don't want it to be like that Andy."
"Don't leave, please." He begged.
"I don't know what to do Andy!" I cried. "I don't know what to do any more."
He took a step closer to me, "We can go somewhere. Just the two of us. Please let's just work through this together." His voice cracked. "I need you to stay."
"What am I supposed to do?" I was confused and my head was racing. I sank to my knees covering my face.
"Stay." Andy answered kneeling down beside be. "I love you so much Riley. I don't know what I would do if you left."
I started shaking my head. How could I let myself go so far off course?
Andy pulled me onto his lap and started running his fingers through my hair and then down my back. "Calm down. Just breathe." He said and kissed my head. “Will you please stay?”
I didn’t want to hurt him anymore. “I don’t want to hurt you anymore.” I answered.
“Then stay.”
I thought about it for a few more seconds and then nodded. “Okay.”
Andy smiled and kissed my lips. “Good because I have been planning something.”
“Good morning beautiful.” I heard Andy’s voice to the right of me. “How are you feeling?”
I turned my head and saw that Andy was sitting in a chair beside me. “Like I got hit by a semi.” I answered. “Where am I?”
Andy looked like he hadn’t gotten any sleep. I would say he looked like crap but he never did. I probably did; I felt like crap.
“The hospital.” Andy answered. “Katelyn is on her way by plane and should be here soon. She sounded pissed so we better brace ourselves. I don’t know who she’s more pissed at me or you.”
“Awesome.” I said sarcastically. “Do you think I can pull the sick card?”
“I don’t think that will work this time; though you can try.” Andy replied.
“What happened? I just remember being on the AA bus and then everything just gets fuzzy.” I asked trying to remember the details. I know that been was there because I remember him yelling before I blacked out.
“Ben said that you were complaining of a headache and one of the fuckin groupies gave you something. Well that something was hydrocodone which you’re not supposed to take with alcohol because it magnifies the affects.”
“I know.” I responded.
“He said that you were acting weird so he asked you if you were okay, you said that you felt funny and then dropped. Ben got me and I called 911. When the ambulance got there you were barely breathing. You fuckin scared me; I thought I was going to lose you.”
“Well now you know how I felt when you broke your ribs.” I replied.
Andy looked at me unamused, “What were you thinking taking something from a complete stranger?”
“I wasn’t really thinking.” I answered, giving him a similar answer to what he gave me when he broke his ribs. The truth really was that I wasn’t thinking. I knew that it was dumb to take drinks and pills from strangers; it just hadn’t registered at the time.
“We tend to do that a lot.” Andy commented.
I nodded in response as a young nurse came in. “You’re finally up.” She said cheerfully.
“Yep.” I answered.
“Good because you have some friends in the waiting room that are causing quite the disturbance.” She said chuckling, telling me that she wasn’t really the one complaining. “I’ll send them in after I record your vitals.”
She looked at a monitor beside me recording my pulse on my charts. “Open your mouth.” She said holding out a thermometer. I did as she said and it beeped a couple of times and she recorded that. “Arm up so I can get the blood pressure cuff on you.” I lifted my arm up a little, it felt like lead. She pressed another button and I started to feel the pressure of the cuff. “Everything seems to be pretty normal. Your pulse is a little slow still but not bad. Should be back to normal soon.” She said with a smile.
I nodded, “Okay, when can I be discharged?”
“Later today. The doctor just has to give you a look over and then sign the charts and you’ll be free to go. Any other questions?” She asked with a smile. I shook my head. “I’ll send your friends in then.”
“I’m sorry.” I said when the nurse left.
“What are you saying sorry for?” He asked looking confused.
I sighed, “For this whole thing. For scaring you so much.”
“Oh I was freaking out, crying even.” He answered laying it on thick. “And I am not a crier.”
“And I missed that? Damn.” Before he could reply everyone started coming into the room. All the guys from Asking Alexandria, Jake, Ashley and CC, and Juliet.
“So good news, you have inspired a music video for us.” Danny said as soon as he came into the room, not allowing anyone else to say anything.
“Great just what I always wanted. My accidental drug overdose being made into a music video.” I said unenthusiastically.
“Danny’s going to be drugged by a whore.” Ben commented.
“You are in so much trouble Riley Marie Rose.” I looked to the door to see Katelyn standing there looking absolutely pissed. “And so are you Andy and who the hell is Ben?” Everyone pointed to Ben but Ben pointed to Ashley.
“That’s a fail.” Ashley mumbled.
“You’re lucky I don’t kick your ass right here.” She said glaring at Ben. “Why the hell did you two let her take a fuckin pill from a stranger? And you!” She said turning to me. “Why the hell would you take it? It’s all over the news! ‘Girlfriend of Rock Singer OD’d’. What the hell are you going to do now Riley? What about future employment? They’re going to do a background check and see oh this girl tried to off herself. Do we really want her working for us?”
“I did not try to off myself.” I defended myself.
“Well the press isn’t painting a pretty picture.” She answered. “And not to mention your parents. They are going to flip when they find out.”
“I don’t really give a fuck about my parents right now.” I answered.
“Katelyn just stop.” Andy interfered. “It was an accident and she’s fine now. We’ll worry about all the other stuff when it comes to that.”
“You could have died Riley.” She said pointing out what I already knew.
“I know.” I answered.
She sighed, “Thank you Andy and Ben for helping her.”
Ben looked at her surprised, “I thought you were going to kick my ass?”
She glared at him, “Don’t tempt me.”
***
After I was discharged we caught a flight back to LA, we weren’t that far away so it was only a couple hour flight. Since Katelyn’s car was at the airport she drove Andy, CC and I. CC sat in the front and Andy and I were in the back. On the way to Andy’s we were all quiet. I was too lost in thought and Katelyn was still pissed.
“Thanks for the ride.” Andy thanked Katelyn when we got to Andy’s.
“Yep.” She answered. “See you guys later.”
“Bye.” I said and then got out of the car.
As soon as we got into the house I went straight for the bedroom and got my book bag and duffle bag out of the closet and threw them open on the bed.
"What's wrong?" Andy asked as I threw my clothes into the bags. When I didn't answer he grabbed my bag. "What the fuck are you doing?"
"I need to get away." I said stubbornly trying to keep back tears. "I need to get out of here."
"Why? What did I do?" He asked looking annoyed.
"I don't want to talk about it I just want to leave." I answered stubbornly grabbing my other bag.
Andy took the bag away from me. "Talk to me Riley! You can't just leave me." He said sounding desperate. "I love you and I want to know what the hell is going on. One minute we're fine and the next you're freaking out."
I clenched my jaw. "Give me my damn bags Andy." I said getting pissed. Why couldn't he just let me go?
"No!" He yelled and threw the bags out of the bedroom. "Tell me what is wrong God damn it!"
"I'm turning into exactly the person I don't want to be!" I yelled as tears started falling down my cheeks. "I don't know who I am anymore!" I pulled my BVB necklace off and threw it to the ground. "This is not me! I'm drinking and partying! I just don't care anymore! I want to care again...I want to love you like I did! It's not the same anymore, Andy. Can't you tell? I used to not be able to be away from you for a short amount of time. Like it was physically painful. And I hated fighting with you! Now it's like I don’t care if we’re away from each other and we’re constantly fighting. I don't want it to be like that Andy."
"Don't leave, please." He begged.
"I don't know what to do Andy!" I cried. "I don't know what to do any more."
He took a step closer to me, "We can go somewhere. Just the two of us. Please let's just work through this together." His voice cracked. "I need you to stay."
"What am I supposed to do?" I was confused and my head was racing. I sank to my knees covering my face.
"Stay." Andy answered kneeling down beside be. "I love you so much Riley. I don't know what I would do if you left."
I started shaking my head. How could I let myself go so far off course?
Andy pulled me onto his lap and started running his fingers through my hair and then down my back. "Calm down. Just breathe." He said and kissed my head. “Will you please stay?”
I didn’t want to hurt him anymore. “I don’t want to hurt you anymore.” I answered.
“Then stay.”
I thought about it for a few more seconds and then nodded. “Okay.”
Andy smiled and kissed my lips. “Good because I have been planning something.”
Notes
The End ^_^What is Andy planning??? Hoped you liked it!!!! And there is a sequel and it's name is New Horizons ^_^ It might be a few days before I post the first chapter up...or maybe I'll post it tomorrow...trying to decide because I might put a chapter up to another BVB fanfic I have started on the black veil brides fanfic site. Any ways keep an eye out for New Horizons!!!
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3/30/14