Broken Bones and Rebel Love

CC's P.O.V':
Growling I tried again to move, I wasn't dead, oh no not dead but I was frozen. I've been trying to move ever since I heard voices in the room. It was silent now, had been for a while and the silence was deafening. Letting out a frustrated scream I tried again, nothing, I just wanted to wake up, to see everyone, to see Jamie and to see Jake and tell him I love him. It was agony being so still, trapped in an endless night, darkness as far as the eye can see. Please just let me wake up please!
"D-dadd-dy i-i-I ne-e-ed you t-t-o WAKE UP! PLEASE DON’T LEAVE ME!" I knew that voice, it was Jamie! I've never heard so much pain and sadness in his voice. I NEED TO WAKE UP!
Jamie's P.O.V':
"D-dadd-dy i-i-I ne-e-ed you t-t-o WAKE UP! PLEASE DON’T LEAVE ME!" I yelled in his face, losing Dad was slowly killing me and I could see Daddy letting go too. But I needed him more than anything to wake up and tell me it'll be alright, everything will be fine. He didn't move, not one muscle, gritting my teeth I grabbed his hand tight.
"YOU SAID YOU'LL NEVER LEAVE ME! YOU SAID WE WOULD BE HAPPY! SO WHY ARE YOU LEAVING! WAKE UP! DADDY WAKE UP DON'T LEAVE!" I was screaming, crying, pulling on his arm as my tears fell on Daddy's face.
"WHY! WHY ARE YOU NOT TRYING! PLEASE! WAKE UP! I LOVE YOU DADDY! y-y-our all i-i-I've g-ot-t-t lef-t-t" Curling into a ball at Daddy's side my whole body shook from my sobs and uneasy breaths. I just want him back that's all, just to see him awake and know he's alive. I feel so alone, like I'm stuck in an endless pit of black and no one's here to save me.

I had his hand in an iron grip as Ashley tried to pull me away. I was screaming again, screaming at the top of my lungs, clawing at the sheets. I didn’t want to let go, if I let go I'll lose him.
"Jamie stop screaming, let go!" Ashley grunted trying to pull me away again. I wouldn’t let go even if my life depended on it, I NEED to say by Daddy's side. Andy came over and helped get me away from the bed, both of them holding me tight so I didn't kick or hit them. My hand was slipping letting go! Letting go! Now I only hand his fingers, losing my grip.

Andy went to grab my hand but it was gone, hidden under a much larger hand. Looking up I felt everything go, new tears racing down my red face and I smiled.
"Daddy!" I cheered as he smiled at me, his brown eyes looking tiered but happy. Ashley and Andy dropped me and I scrambled up the bed and into Daddy's arms. Everyone in the room crowded around us, smiling, crying even cheering.
"What didn't think I would leave you guys did ya?" Daddy laughed, wincing a bit in pain.
"Where's Jake?" The room fell silent again and my eyes began to sting.
"CC, he-he didn't make it, died in the emergency room" Ashley sounded on the verge of tears.
"CC? did you hear me?" Ashley asked now crying, I looked up to see Daddy not moving, just looking straight ahead.
CC's P.O.V':
I couldn't move it was like I had shut down again, I felt numb, cold and dead inside. Jake was dead? My love gone? NO! IT CAN'T BE TRUE!
"CC? did you hear me?" Ash asked, tears flooding his eyes. It took me a moment to respond as feeling slowly came back. Looking at everyone on in the room, it was true, he's gone. I felt like screaming but nothing came out, my chest was tight with an unbelievable pain, my eyes stung from frozen tears.
"out" I choked out and everyone seemed confused.
"LEAVE" I growled as everyone stumbled with shocked faces rushing from the room. Jamie looked up at me with scared and worried eyes.
"I just need a moment to myself, okay little dude you can come back in soon" I whispered in a soothing voice, Jamie nodded sliding off the bed and leaving the room.

I lost it at that, the flood gates broken realising a hell of a river down my cheeks. Everything hurt, everything broken, everything gone. I've lost half of me and it kills more than the car crash! Seizing my eyes shut trying to stop the tears, I felt a sob excape me, attiing my whole body as more and more followed it. This was a nightmare, a living hell and I was stuck in it forever without my love.

I lost track of how long everyone's been gone, how long I've been crying into the silent room. So lost in my pain and greaf I hadn't even heard the door open and shut. But the quiet footsteps made me look up, but what I saw confused me, sending a chill down my spine.
"CC?" His voice so quiet and low, his skin so pale and deathly.
"I'm sorry" He fell to his knees as his body shook from the quiet sobs leaving his body. Why was he here? Why say sorry?
"Come here" I sighed opening my arms as he crawled over to me, his dirty blond hair covering his face as I wrapped my arms around him.
"h-he's gone really g-g-one" I felt more tears fall down my face at his words. I don’t care if I had only met this boy once, having him in my arms made me feel like a part of me was back.
"Tyler?" I whispered pulling him up enough to see his face "why are you here?" It sounded so mean and accusing as I said it, Tyler looked a bit uncertain before he opened his mouth to speak.

"when I ran away i-I went to my sisters grave, I miss her, but when I got there- a woman- m-my mother was standing there" Tyler stuttered playing and pulling at his fingers as he spoke.
"She had a piece of paper, when she saw me she shoved in in my hand and ran off, the paper it-it changed everything, my dad had been with a woman before my mum, then when I was born he left her for that woman again"
"That woman was- um- she was Jake's Mother, Jake he-he's my brother and now he's dead!" Tyler yelled the last part with such hatred and pain that I felt myself break again. Jake had a brother? And he never knew?

Hours seemed to pass as I talked to Tyler, everyone came and went. Jamie lay curled in a ball at my side, he had been happy to know he had an uncle and I made me smile so see the bit of happiness it brought to his face. The doctor had side I'll be here for 3 weeks so my stitches and wounds could heal. I had a bruised face, broken nose, stitches on my eyebrow, arms and chest, a huge stich sat on my chest where a piece of glass had shredded my skin and pierced the muscles just above my lungs.
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(2 weeks later)
Every second my heart ached for Jake and my mind wondered to all the times we had spent together. There was one unpleasant thought that always came back to me no matter how hard I pushed it away. In 6 days Jake and I were meant to get married. The thought tour me apart with the more time that passed, every day leading up to it made me dead the fact that I was still breathing while Jake lay six feet under. Everyone came and went, went and came, day in day out each holding the same faces, same questions, same words.
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(Two days till the wedding)
Groaning I opened my eyes to see who was shaking me. Jamie sat on my stomach smiling like the little devil he is. I smiled back wrapping my arms around him as best I could with my sour shoulder. Jamie nuzzled into my neck giggling and hugging me tighter.

"Daddy guess what! Guess, guess What!" Jamie exclaimed smiling as wide as he could. I smirked sitting up a bit and placed him in a better position as not to irritate my stitches.
"What, What, What" I smiled in an over excited voice clapping my hands making him laugh.
"I got a puppy!" Jamie cheered throwing his arms up and smiling ever wider. I laughed pulling him into my arms and looking down at him with a smile even bigger than his.
"Girl or boy?" I asked as Tyler walked in looking every different.
"Boy, look at Tyler's hair!" Jamie squealed pointing at Tyler again and again.

"You dyed it black, looks awesome man" I laughed high-fiving Tyler who came and sat to my right.
"Thanks man, by the way the puppies a French Bullmastiff cross Irish Wolfhound" Tyler smiled and Jamie started bouncing around the room as if his hypo meter broken on crazy.
"Oh and his name is Shnips!" Jamie stated proudly throwing his arms out like wings as he ran around the room.
"Shnips?" I asked truing to Tyler who shrugged just smiling.
"Boys creative with names" Tyler joked ruffling Jamie's growing hair. Tyler isn't shy any more, it's like he's a different person from the one I met 2 weeks ago. With his black hair, blue skinnies and BVB tank top he actually looked 18 and not 15.

"So Jamie has school tomorrow we better get going" Tyler sighed standing and stretching. Jamie whined running over to me and clinging to my arm with puppy dog eyes.
"Nup school for you little dude" I smirked as he glared at my walking to the door.
"Hay give your Daddy a kiss and hug goodbye kiddo" Tyler stated turning Jamie around, who walked back to me kissing my cheek and hugging me before running out the door. Tyler smiled at me as the little boy ran off down the hall.
"Oh I almost forgot" Tyler laughed turning back to me.
"Here catch, they found it at the crash site" He smiled before leaving the room. Turning the object over I saw it was my phone, un-scratched and fine. Smiling I turned the screen on only to feel my face fall.

There sat a picture of Jake and I kissing, it was from our last date when Jake had-had asked me to marry him.
( memory)
"Christian Coma we have been together for a year and a half, though it all we have had bad times and awesome one's, You've been able to love me as much as I love you, I never want to think that something could come between us and never want anything to, so, I'm asking you, the love of my life, to marry me" Jake asked with hope and love shinning in his eyes.
I smiled like a lunatic nodding my head enough for it to fall off.
"Of course Jakey!" I yelled jumping into his arms and kissing him, pulling apart Jake slipped a silver ring on my finger kissing me again.
"Come on Chuppy lets go home"
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I felt the tears burn my eyes as his words filled my mind. Why was he gone?
Reluctantly i unlocked my phone to find 76 missed calls, 102 messages and 345 notifications. Sighing I opened my messages to see most were from the guys, mum & dad, friends and a heap from Sky. Gritting my teeth I opened the ones from her-85 to be exact- and I felt my anger grow.
Sky- CC?
S- I'm sorry
S- I didn’t want to beak you 2 up!
S- oh CC r u okay?
S- were r u?
S- OMG SAMMI KILLED JAKE! I DIDN'T KNOW SHE WOULD KILL HIM!
S- I didn’t mean to hurt anyone C I didn't think it would go this far
S- i have to get away, goodbye Big brother I love you and I'm sorry for everything

Growling I read through the rest, Sammi killed Jake? Sky helped? WHY!
Getting out of messages I forced my eyes shut as tears threatened to fall. Why? Why? Opening my eyes again I looked at the screen to see my gallery open and pictures of Jake and I filling the screen. Scrolling through I smiled at a few of the memories that came back. Going further in I found ones of Jake, Jamie and I at random places, all of us smiling.
Soon I came to a video of Jake and Jamie, clicking play I felt the tears just come out like there's no tomorrow. It was from when we had come back from tour and Jamie and Jake were brought back together. I watched that video over and over again hoping Jake would come back. But he never will and I need to except that and take care of Jamie and Tyler, I need to be strong for them and live the life Jake would have wanted us to.
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(day of wedding)
No one was coming today, they all knew what the date was and left me alone. Hours have passed since I woke up, every minute spent imagining what this day could have been like. I had my headphones in while Sixx AM 'life is beautiful' blasted through my ears. It was soothing and unsettling at the same time but the more I listened the more I understood the lyrics. Sighing I closed my eyes and relaxed into the music, listening to the beat of the drums. I missed playing drums, beating the kit to all our songs in front of fans. It was boring in here, nothing to do but think and listen to music all day long. Next 'Stars' came on and I smiled, Jake was up in the stars probably looking down on everyone, I could imagine himas an angel, with huge wings and leather outfit, his raven black hair flying in the wind. It was better to think of him like this then of him dead, to think he was happy where he'd gone and could watch us. As the songs played in and out, intro after intro I felt sleep crawling over me, hands like claws reaching for me to drag me into the dream world. Goodnight by Egypt Central invaded my mind and I finally let sleep take over.

Notes

SORRY !!!!!!!!!!!! its been sooooo long but I've been helping my friend a lot and have had shit loads of homework ........oh so part 2!...next is part 3.. yeah hope you like this little chapter on CC & Jamie's views so far....its CC and Jakes wedding day :( poor CC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
comment what you think and if you want this dam sequel!