Our big family (book three of Unbroken series)

I woke up in the morning with Ronnie's arms around me. It had been five days since Andy and I had talked on his bus. I've been hanging out with Andy a lot more and Ronnie has noticed. We've actually gotten into quite a few arguements because of it. Ronnie thought that I was going to leave him for Andy. I understood why he was worried, but I wasn't a cheater.
Ronnie looked so peaceful and cute when he sleeps that you couldn't possibly believe that he could hurt a soul. It was a lot different waking up with Ronnie than it was with Andy. With Ronnie I always felt like I was miles away from him even though he would hold me up against his chest. With Andy I felt like we were inseperable.
I mentally slapped myself. I needed to stop comparing Ronnie and Andy. I had spent the past few days listing what I liked about Ronnie and what I liked about Andy and it was driving me nuts.
"Hey, Kit. You look frustrated. What's up?" Ronnie asked drowsily.
"I..uh...was just thinking about what songs to perform tonight."
"Hmmm. Well, I'm sure you'll figure it out," he said as he kissed my neck.
Shivvers ran up my spine. I loved the way Ronnie knew exactly what to do to get me turned on. Whenever he kissed me I felt all of the need and lust that he held inside, and it made me equally lustful.
"Ronnie," I moaned as he began to nip the skin on my neck.
"Hey! People are trying to sleep here!" I heard Ryan yell from his bunk.
I raised my eyebrows and smirked at Ronnie. He got the message.
We began to let out loud, fake moans as Ronnie pretended to thrust into me, causing the bed to creak.
"Oh, Ronnie! Faster!" I yelled so orgasmically, that I wouldn't have been able to tell if it were fake if I was Ryan.
"God! Kit, you're so tight!" Ronnie grunted with a grin on his face.
I tried really hard to supress my giggles, but I didn't have to because Ryan opened up the curtain.
"I fucking hate you two," he laughed as he noticed we were both fully clothed.
"Aww, we love you too!" I smiled.
Ryan shook his head in disbelief and left to go back to his bunk.
"Well, I'm awake now," I sighed, "I think I'm going to go talk to Quinn."
"Alright, I'll meet back up with you at the venue," he said, giving me a passionate kiss.
I pulled away and rolled out of the bed. I threw on a pair of Converse and grabbed my phone before I walked off the bus. I walked over to the BVB bus and saw Andy smoking a ciggarette. He looked really aggitated.
"Andy, what's up?" I asked.
"Oh...hey, Kit," Andy said emotionless.
"Is something wrong?"
"No," he responded, looking at the ground.
"Tell me what's up," I said, sternly.
"Nothing's wrong, Kit. I just want to be alone."
"Of course something's fucking wrong! I've never known you to give me one word responses and you won't even look at me!"
"I was on your bus about ten minutes ago," he said.
My eyes widened. That explains it.
"Andy, I didn't have sex with Ronnie. I'm still a virgin. We were just trying to irritate Ryan," I told him.
"Oh..."
"Why were you on the bus to begin with?" I asked.
"I was going to ask you a question."
"Okay, what's the question?"
"I wanted you and Quinn to sing 'Lost It All' with me," he said, dropping his ciggarette and stomping it out.
"Oh, sure. What part will I be singing?" I asked.
"The part Juliet sang. Quinn's doing the high part," he answered.
"Ok. Um, is Quinn on the bus?"
"Yeah, she's playing Mortal Combat with CC."
I nodded and turned to get onto the bus.
"Kit!" Andy said.
"Yeah?" I asked turning back around.
"I'm sorry for assuming things. I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions," Andy apologized.
"It's okay. I completely understand."
Andy smiled at me apreciatively and I got on the bus.
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"So, this is the first time that we're going to perform this song live. Since we have to amazing female vocalists on tour, I thought 'why not utilize that?' Kit, Quinn, come on out!" Andy called to us.
Quinn and I held hands as we got onto the stage and the crowd roared. We grabbed two microphones and turned to Andy.
"Alright, BVB army! This is 'Lost It All!'"
The excited screams from the crowd were almost deafening that you almost couldn't hear the begining of the song. Andy looked at me as he began to sing.
"I ruled the world.
With these hands I shook the heavens to the ground.
I laid the gods to rest.
I held the key to the kingdom.
Lions guarding castle walls.
Hail the king of death.
Then I lost it all
Dead and broken.
My back's against the wall.
Cut me open.
I'm just trying to breathe,
Just trying to figure it out
Because I built these walls to watch them crumbling down.
I said, "Then I lost it all."
And who can save me now?
I stood above
Another war,
Another jewel upon the crown.
I was the fear of man.
But I was blind.
I couldn't see the world there right in front of me.
But now...I can... (Yeah)
'Cause I lost it all
Dead and broken.
My back's against the wall.
Cut me open.
I'm just trying to breathe,
Just trying to figure it out
Because I built these walls to watch them crumbling down.
I said, "Then I lost it all."
And who can save me now?"
Quinn and I joined began to sing our parts and I don't know how everyone else thought it sounded, but I thought it was awesome. I stared into Andy's eyes as I sang Juliet's part. I knew why he chose this song. It was an apology message to me. I could see it in the pain that his eyes showed as he looked at me. Andy seemed to focus his attention back on the song as he joined us for the ending.
"I believe that we all fall down sometimes
Can't you see that we all fall down sometimes?
I believe that we all fall down sometimes
Can't you see that we all fall down sometimes?
Yeah
I believe that we all fall down sometimes
Yeah"
The crowd roared and Quinn and I walked off stage.
I went to get a water bottle when I felt someone gently grab my wrist. I turned around to see Ronnie.
"Hey, babe," I said.
"Kit, we need to talk."
"Um, okay," I responded as he lead me to a back room.
"Kit, I think we should break up."
"What?"
I felt my heart begin to contract.
"I don't think our relationship is going to work..."
"But, Ronnie, I love you," I sobbed.
That was the first time that I had said it out loud. I saw Ronnie look incredibly torn up about it.
"Kit, I love you too, but I don't think I'm right for you," he sighed.
"How could you say that?" I croaked.
"I see the way you and Andy look at each other. I know you still love him and he definately still loves you. He's good for you. You're still self-harming, and I've noticed you going to the bathroom after every time you eat. I don't know how to help you. I'm sorry, but I think we should just be friends."
He turned around and left the room. I collapsed onto the floor, feeling myself going numb. I cried and cried until Quinn found me, but I didn't want her near me. I just wanted to fall asleep and not wake up.

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