Our big family (book three of Unbroken series)

It was odd being pregnant. I had been craving chili and chocolate a lot lately, and I noticed that I had been putting on weight. I hated knowing I was gaining weight. I wasn't really skinny as a teenager, not until I turned seventeen and I had given into eating disorders. I knew that being pregnant meant putting on weight, but some part of me in the back of my head told me that Andy would leave me if I wasn't stick thin.
"Earth to Kit," Andy said, waving a hand in front of my face.
"Huh? What?" I asked.
"The buses are here," he told me.
"Buses?"
"Yeah. One for Black Veil Brides and the other for Flashbang and Contagion. I think Ashley and Quinn are taking the bedroom on the BVB bus, so I was thinking we could use the bedroom on your bus. Is that cool with you?"
"Uh, yeah," I mumbled, still distracted by my thoughts.
Andy gave me a small smile before taking our suitcases out to the buses.
I headed to our bedroom and picked Isabella out of the crib. She suprisingly wasn't up crying all night, which I was greatful for.
I carried her out to the buses and saw Quinn and Ashley.
"Isabella!" Quinn squealed as she saw me holding her baby.
She swept her out of my arms and started talking to her in a high-pitched voice. I wondered if that was how I would be when I was a mother.
I smiled politely at Ashley as I headed onto my bus. I shuffled over to the bedroom and collapsed onto the bed. I was way to tired to deal with people this early in the morning.
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"Wake up!" Tommy and Alexander yelled in unison.
"Fuck off!" I groaned, burying my head futher into the pillow.
"Ohhh. Kit's feeling testy today," Alex teased.
"If I wasn't pregnant, I would go kung-fu on your ass," I said, getting up from the bed, "Now, why the hell did you wake me up?"
"Well, we thought that you would like to know that we've arrived at the venue. Was there something else we were supposed to tell her?" Tommy said in a mocking tone, turning to Alex.
"Oh, yeah. The guys from Sleeping With Sirens and Pierce The Veil invited you and Quinn to hang out with them."
My breath caught in my throat. Although I never admitted it to Quinn, SWS and PTV were the only bands that I would fangirl over. I was pretty sure that Quinn had figured it out though, because she would always do the talking when they would call us.
"Thanks f-for letting me kn-know," I stuttered.
I made my way to the bathroom so I could clean off all of my smeared makeup.
As I looked in the mirror, I frowned. I could clearly notice my baby bump and I also noticed the weight gain. I felt disgusted with myself. Why couldn't I be like Quinn, who looked perfect throughout her whole pregnancy.
I felt hot tears sliding down my cheeks. I started shaking slightly and could tell that my self-control was slipping. The next thing I knew, I was on the tile floor. I was rocking backing forth, trying to calm myself down. I felt like I was caged in my skin. I wanted desperately to escape or just to hide in a corner.
What the hell was wrong with me? I hadn't had a panic attack in months, not since Andy and I got back together. Why were they starting again? I thought I was over this. Apparently not.
I heard the door creak open, and I flinched away from it.
"Are you okay?" someone asked.
I harnessed as much strength as possible, and I slowly looked up. My eyes met the beautiful green eyes of Kellin Quinn.
Well, this was not what I wanted my first impression to be.
"Are you okay?" Kellin asked again.
I shook my head and looked back down at the ground.
Kellin bent down on his knees and took me into his arms. I silently cried as he whispered 'It's okay's and 'You'll be fine's.
I was thankful that he was there to comfort me, because if it had been Andy, it would've only made things worse. I just wished that I wasn't such and emotional wreck.
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked.
I nodded my head and took a deep breath before spilling my guts to him. Even though I had only just met him, I knew that I could trust him to be a shoulder to cry on, and at the moment that was what I needed.

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