Tears and Insecurities

Crystal tears coat the deep pools of silver, that looks as if they're ready to melt into droplets of mercury down my cheeks. I sniffle quietly, trying not to make a lot of sound. As always, we were fighting again. This time, I'm fucking done with him, and I'm kicking his ass next time I see him.

"V, hurry your slow ass up!! We have to be on stage in about 5 minutes!!!"
I could hear Cristo yell. I stared in the mirror, my eyes now red and puffy, and red streaks on my face from all the tears. I needed to get my act together. I have a show to do, and fans to see. After quickly fixing my smeared makeup, I went over to the rest of my band, putting in my earpiece. Cristo stopped smirking when he saw my face. His eyes softened as he walked over to me, whispering.
"What happened? What did he say?"
He already knew what was going on between my boyfriend and I.

Well, ex-boyfriend.

"I don't really want to talk about it right now, I'll only end up crying again."
I sighed. I really needed to suck it up. I felt like a fucking baby. The tears that were threatening to spill over where quickly brushed off as I watched as Bane and Angel run on stage. Cielo gave me a hug before following Angel and Bane. Cristo smirked as he ran up onto the stage, shirtless of course, revealing his perfectly toned abs and tattoos. The crowd roared even more, it was mostly the girls.

Eventually, they started to play the beginning of our opening song and the crowd began to chant my name, over and over. I grabbed my mic and smirked. This us the last show of our tour, why not give everything I've got? I screamed into the mic before walking out onstage. I smirked as I saw the amount of fans we had. I sang the verses and held the microphone out to the fans for them to join in the chorus. Millions of voices, all of different types, came together and put their all into the chorus of the song. I smiled. The show seemed to go by in a blur. Before I knew it, we were finishing up our last song. I put every feeling that has been bottled up for too long into my last scream.

I had so much of a good fucking time, that as tired as I was, I was sad that this tour was over. There will be many more though, of course.

"Thank you so fucking much! We fucking love you guys! I promise we will be back. Sooner than you fucking know it. "

I waved to the screaming crowd before walking down the steps off of the stage, and the rest followed. We all engulfed ourselves in a long group hug. Proud of ourselves and how far we came to be where we are. After our hug, I quickly grabbed a water bottle and chugged the hell out of it.

"Are you going to the party tonight?" Cielo came up behind me, and I turned to him, pondering whether I should go or not. I shrugged.

"Why not?" I smiled.
"I'll go. It is the last party of this tour after all."

Angel smiles, and pulls me over with her back to our bus.

"Help me pick out something to wear. Please? I mean, I have a few dresses in mind, but I don't really know which one to pick."

We went to the small room we shared, and looked through the small set of dresses she had laid out. One stood out to me, and I picked it up, putting it up to her, seeing what she would look like in the dress. I smiled. It wasn't too flashy, but neither was it too formal. It fit her personality perfectly. I nodded at the dress and she smiled in thanks.

"I'm gonna go take a quick shower. Do you mind doing my makeup tonight? Pwease?"
I laughed a bit at her pleading honey brown eyes that were tinted with green. She was so adorable.
"Sure. Hurry up and take a shower though. I'll get the makeup out and sorted, along with my own outfit."
She grabbed her necessities and ran to the bathroom, quickly turned on the shower. I got out her makeup kit, picking out the ones I would use.

I turned to my suitcase, and went through the outfits I would wear tonight. I started thinking about him again...Jason was such a fucking asshole. We had been fighting all tour. It started from little things, that slowly led to even bigger problems. He had started to become verbally abusive when we would talk, calling me the typical fucked up names, like bitch, whore, slut, etc. And I would retort right back. I'm not really one to sit there and take anything and do nothing about it. I guess it was because I watched mi `ama deal with that shit from her fucked up deadbeat boyfriend. I wasn't taking shit, but I wasn't like one of my sisters, Gehenna, to be exact. I knew that the next time I saw Jason, I was going to kick his balls in until the come out of his mouth and shoot to the fucking moon.

My thoughts were disrupted when I heard a loud banging on the bathroom door and the water stopped.
"Ay Dios mio! I really gotta fucking piss!!! Open the fucking door, Godammit!"
Cristo banged on the door with one hand. Angel quickly wrapped a towel around herself and opened the door.
Cristo didn't even bother to make any sexual comments or even notice Angel only in a towel. He ran into the bathroom, slamming the door behind him. Bane walked in our room and sat on our bed silently. He almost never makes a sound and neither does he ever take off his mask. When Bane did talk, it was usually only to me, or something was seriously wrong. Usually. Sometimes he can be the one to quietly or bluntly comment on random things.
"Hey Bane." I smiled over to him.
"You goin to the party tonight? Please tell me you're going. You need a night to have fun. You're always by yourself.....please go...for me?" I pleaded with him. He seemed to think about it before running a hand through his hair. He eventually nodded, and also waved to Angel, who had just come in the room, a towel around her small body. Not really caring a lot because Bane wasn't the type to be perverted in any way that we knew, she dropped the towel and was wearing bra and underwear.

"I made sure to be in bra and underwear at least when it comes to Cristo.."
She blushed and got dressed. I got my things and went to the now empty bathroom. Angel needed to do her hair in the bathroom, so she came with me and shut the door behind her. Quickly getting undressed and jumping in the shower, she plugged in her curling iron.
Her voice was soft as she spoke.

"I saw the look on your face before the show....What did he say?"

I sighed before responding.

"We were fighting about something else before and I called him before to try and make up with him, to let him know that I didn't want to fight anymore. He was drunk, and somehow came up with fucking conclusion that I was supposedly cheating on him or some shit. Things got heated, glasses and bottles were smashed and everything escalated. I'm punching him in the eye with brass knuckles coated in shattered glass next time I see him. "

Angel sighed. She was never the one to agree with violence, but she nodded in understanding.

"I'm sorry....I really don't know what to say...I'm not never really in a serious relationship to understand or help out, so I don't have any advice other than to stay strong...I wish I was as strong as you sometimes. "

I rinsed off completely and turned the shower off, grabbing my towel and wrapping it around me before opening the curtain and looking at her, my drenched silver and lavender hair covering half of my face.

"Don't say that. You are strong, Angel. Seriously. You deal with so much shit that I look up to you more than you would ever know. You may be adorably soft spoken in the outside...but I know that everyone has their Phoenix deep down inside of them, burning bright, not matter how shy they are. You're a lot stronger than what you give yourself credit for, babe."

She smiled softly at me, and she finished the last curl on her hair. We both went ahead and got changed. I sat her down and did her makeup. She reminded me so much of my other sister, Dahlia. Dahlia, Gehenna, and I were triplets. Dahlia was the youngest and was also soft spoken, but strong willed at heart. We had an older brother, Roman. An awesome DJ and tattoo artist. He took care of us more than anyone since dad died.

I paid attention to the details of my work of art. Making sure everything was perfect and even, I put all of the makeup back in Angel's kit as I let her know that I was done. Her eyes sparkled in awe as she saw herself in the mirror. After hugging me and thanking me, she ran off to go get her shoes while I started on my own makeup.

Notes

Made of Stone; Evanescence.
So, that was my first chapter..
Please let me know what you think honestly, it would be nice to know if I'm doing okay with this story for me to continue. I feel like it was quite boring, but I wanna hear what you guys think. Thanks!