Shadows Never Die

**Ashley's POV**

~Time Laps 1 hour~
got back to the bus with Roxy. breakfast was great but she didn't eat a lot which kinda scared me but at least she ate something right?
"ill be right back. gotta go pee" Roxy said walking towards the bathroom.
"okay hurry back" I laughed a little. she did too. Damn she has such a cute laugh. I love it.

I heard the bunk door open. I looked up to see it was Andy. I'm surprised he's up this early. its like 11.. I'm surprised myself I'm up this early too but I woke up to be with Roxy. I think I might have feelings for this girl.

**Roxy's POV**
well I'm going to hat to do this but I need to do this. I feel fat.
I turn the water on and let it run. while it was running I opened my mouth and stuck my two old friends down my throat. Yes that's right. I have an Eating disorder. both types. I hate it but it made me feel Skinnier. After all this throwing up this food, I felt better. I just hope Ashley wont get mad. yeah I know he doesn't judge or anything but I don't want him mad at me.
well I guess its time to head back to Ashley.

I walked out of the bathroom to see Andy and Ashley sitting on the couch. I'm a little shocked Andys up... but oh well.

"hey Roxy" Andy said to me.
I replied "hey Andy! your up early. cant sleep?"
"well that's exactly why I'm up this early" he laughed a little. damn that laugh.
I sat next to Ashley of cause and we all started talking.
"So what are you guys doing today" I asked
"oh the band is going to practice at 3 and then after 4 we have the rest of the day. wanna hang out with all of us?" Andy asked.
"yeah sure Id love to!" I said sounding all happily.
"great!"

"wait don't you have to go home? wouldn't your parents be worrying?" Ashley asked
"umm.. no they wont worry.. they hate me.. so why go back?" I asked staring at my legs.
"what do you mean 'hate' you?" Andy asked sounding a little concerned.
"they yell at me. abuse me. that's why.. I hate it there because of them.." I said still staring at my legs.
"they abuse you?!" Ashley asked kinda loudly.
"umm yeah.. they start all this shit when I changed.."
"changed? how so?" Andy asked.
"well story is, I use to be this sweet, shy, country girl.. now I'm not any more. well you can clearly see that.. I just felt like I didn't want to be country anymore. I found different friends. I was better off with them instead of my old ones. but soon after I started wear black and darker colors, people, my old friends, started to make up of me and call me names. like 'gothic bitch' 'fat bitch' 'whore' even tough I was a virgin. but after 10th grade, I was raped by the two same people that did yesterday.. but then back to my parents. after I started dressing in darker colors, listening to Punk Rock, they got pissed. they didn't like it at all. they think country is everything we need! I hated it so much. then I got hit repeatedly by my parents. I felt so lonely. my friends left me. my boyfriend, at the time, left me. I was alone. then I got blades. I started to cut. I started to.. to.. um starve myself.. then I felt somewhat better.. then things went down hill. more shit at school happened. I started thinking about suicide. but I stopped thinking about that when 'Carolyn' came on Pandora. 'you're not alone, we'll brave this storm' make me feel and think different. I saw who it was by. I looked them up then heard 'savior' I feel in love with that song and you guys! you guys change my life. but I kept cutting. I was still abused. then that raping happened. I'm glad you guys took me away. I needed help. badly. thanks"
"oh my dear god! sweet heart! I'm so sorry! why haven't you told the police?" Ashley asked
"because I was scared. I have bad anxiety." I replied.
"want to maybe go tell the cops about it after practice?" Ashley asked her.
"well if you guys will go with me yes."
Of course we will!" he said
"Thanks! I feel better now!"


--------------------------------Time Laps 2 hours------------------------------------
**Ashley's POV**
all the guys have been up now. they were all confused when they saw Roxy. I explained every thing. they understood. we made our way to practice.
I cannot stop thinking about the story Roxy told me and Andy. it was hear breaking. I hated to see so much depression in her eyes. felt bad. but I now know why she didn't eat that much at Denny's.
----------------------time laps one hour---------------
after practice we got dinner. it was good. I made sure Roxy ate something.
after we ate, me, Andy, and Roxy went to the police. all the guys went back to the bus to play GTA. When we where there they took Roxy to a different room and asked her some questions. I hope she wont be breaking down in there.

**Roxy's POV**
after I told Andy and Ashley about my ED I actually did eat when we went to eat.. it felt good to eat a meal and keep it down but I still felt fat. but fuck it. I'm just going to deal with it. after we ate we head our way to the police station. they took me into a room to ask questions. some questions made me brake down but I was okay afterwards. they told me they needed proof. I lifted my shirt of some bruises my parents did cause. They approved and said my parents would go to jail in a week. since I'm 17 I can stay with whoever. so I stayed with The band. I'm glad they excepted me.
we went to my house to collect my clothes and some stuff. I of course got all my make up my straighteners and all my band shirts (14) and 5 favorite skinny jeans and all my vans and converse. then went with the guys. my parents weren't home so that's good.

-----------------time laps one week------------------
** Roxy's POV**
I've been with the guys for a week now. I've had a blast! their like my family. I already love them. and Ashley, damn I love that man! he's so sweet and nice to me. and he's so nice to let me sleep with him. I enjoy it. I maybe have a huge crush on him but he wouldn't back. I'm ugly and no one would like me so why even try?

Notes

yay the chapters are posted! hope they don't suck.. ~Lizz