The Saved and the Damned

Head phones had to be the greatest of man inventions. I silently listened to Andy’s music on his phone. Some of his things I remember hearing from a few years ago. Maybe what man called the 80’s? I smiled when his own song came up on the screen. It read, Done For You. I felt something in my heart that told me it was a song for someone special. No one makes something this beautiful just to share with the world. Everyone had an intent. I closed my eyes and let the music take me with it. How was such beautiful music made by man?

“Having fun?” Andy asked pulled out one head phone and sitting by me.

“Yes,” I nodded giving him his phone, and head phones. “You have nice songs.” I smiled as he put his phone in his pocket.

“I think so too.” He smirked.

“You ready to be back stage at a concert?” He asked.

Today was the first day of their new tour. So they said. And I was giving two choices. Be included in the crowd or be nice and cozy back stage. I took the latter. The crowd was fun, but in the back I would be able to just listen. I nodded as Jake came up to him.

“It good?” He asked pointing to his face.

“Yeah man.” Andy gave him a thumbs up and asked the same thing.

“Perfect as always!” Jake ran off and joined Jinxx who was playing his guitar.

“Does Ashley always take three hours?” I asked.

“Nope. Sometimes he takes four.” And chuckled. “He’s the beauty queen of the group.

Beauty queen? What was that supposed to mean? I shook the thought away and looked down at my lap. “Hey!” CC yelled tapping me on the shoulder. “Cheer up!”

“I’ll try,” I laughed.

I tried hard to think about heaven. What Daemyn was doing. If God saw how I felt at the moment. But I didn’t want to think about my home. I looked at Andy and his blues eyes seemed to stare me down. They were gorgeous. I could see the lake in Heaven through his eyes. What was he doing to me? How could one person be so drawn to another that they want to give up everything they used to know? He smirked at me and that was when I had to look away. But I couldn’t. I wanted to keep his stare. His smirk eventually turned into a smile. I realized I was doing the same and giggled looking away from him.

“My eyes are too much for you?” Andy asked proud.

He had no idea. “No!” I said like a child. “I just don’t like eye contact.” I pouted.

“Sure,” he chuckled.

Shortly after they were called up on stage and I was left in the back with a few other band members that were local. The way they acted made me laugh. They were all so excited to be there. They acted like how I felt when Andy was around. Excited. Was it that he was something new? Or was it actual feelings for a Fallen Angel? It would be blasphemy to be with him in anyway. But every part of me told me yes when Heaven told me no. I had to stop. But…I didn’t want to. For the first time in 3,000 years I wanted to break the rules. What if God looked away for a few seconds? What if I just let my feels through a little bit?

I couldn’t. I needed to get back to my home soon. I could feel my ability as an Angel fading. I no longer made people as happy as I used to. My touch had almost no effect on most now. And the demon…he was close. To close for comfort. I wanted him to just come out and give me what he has already. But staying in the dark made me nervous. He was playing with his food. He was watching. Every move. I didn’t feel him most times but when I did, I knew he was closer than before.

I could hear the crowd scream telling me they were almost done. I moved my hair to the side with my hand and sat up straight waiting for them to come back. “You, are insanely pretty.” One band member from LA sat down next to me.

“Uhm, thank you.” I knew he was drunk. And that made me nervous.

He put a hand on my thigh, “no, I mean really pretty.” He got in close.

I didn’t know what to do. I never had this happen in Heaven. And no one I watched over ever had this happen to them. I stayed still and kept my arms crossed over my chest. I tried to back away but his hand kept traveling up my thigh and his face got closer to mine.

“Stop, please.” I asked when he got too close for me to take it.

I couldn’t hurt him, it was forbidden. I kept my arms tight to my chest and tried to sink into the couch. I didn’t know what I was going to do. I started to get scared. No one was back here now. They all went out to get fresh air. If I yelled would anyone hear me?

I finally stood up to get away from him and he followed. He grabbed both of my arms and shoved me against a wall. He pressed himself against me and brought his face close to mine. I could feel his hot breath against my cheek. I tried to turn my face away from him but he wouldn’t go away.

“I said stop!” I yelled trying to throw him off. But this body was too weak.

“Ooo, that’s sexy babe. Say it again.” He breathed into my ear.

“Get off of her!” I heard Andy yell as the guy flew off of me.

I was too traumatized to stop Andy from beating the guy. “Andy! Stop! What the fuck!” CC yelled along with Jake.

All his band mates tried to get Andy off of him. Andy finally was overpowered by his band mates and the guy got up. He wiped his bleeding mouth. He already had a black eye.

“I was just playing around man.” He said trying to make it seem like raping me was going to be a game.

“You don’t play with any woman that way!” Andy spit still being held back by Ashley and CC.

“Leave, now.” Jake threatened to the guy, “before I beat the shit out of you.”

The guy ran off still holding his face. Andy was finally released by his friends and rushed to me. He gently took my face in both of his hands and looked me up and down making sure I was not hurt.

“I’m fine, Andy.” I assured him taking his hands off of my face. “He didn’t hurt me.” I gave him a fake smile. I wanted so badly to cry.

He put his hands on my shoulders and looked me in the eyes. “Are you sure?”

I nodded feeling my eyes water. He pulled me close to him and wrapped his arms around my shoulders. I crunched my arms in his chest and let a few tears fall before stopping them. The last time I cried a woman by the name of Claira Jones died from cancer. She had three children and none of them came to see her as she laid dying in the hospital. They only came after she was dead to reclaim the money she left them. Why does God let things like that happen? Did God turn away when he saw the man’s intent on me? Or did he send Andy to save me?

Andy pulled me away from him and asked if I was hungry. When I shook my head he walked with me to his house. He let me chose a movie to watch and forced me to at least take a bite of ice cream. I obeyed and chose one of his many Batman movies.

“That’s a good one!” He yelled.

From my understandings the other band mates had their own house that they stayed in. Andy only had this one from a previous time. He put the movie in his DVD player and sat on his couch with me. He wrapped me in a blanket that called his couch home and crossed his legs on the couch ready to watch a movie I was sure he had seen at least a hundred times before when he began to quote the movie word for word. Every time he did that I couldn’t help but laugh. Andy was so much more interesting than Heaven could have to offer. I felt horrible for saying that. But…it was true.

I felt my eyes grow heavy and I leaned my head on Andy’s shoulder. He was in the middle of a quote. When I did that he stopped talking. I closed my eyes. I was too tired to care what he thought. I drifted off to sleep. On a man’s shoulders I wasn’t supposed to have feelings for. But I did.

Notes

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