Sometimes You Just Have To Let Go
Break down, build back up
Scarlett's P.O.V.
I made it to my car before i needed to just stop.
I sat, staring at my steering wheel.
Was this even real?
I was just hanging out with Black Veil Brides, my favorite band, yet i couldn't wait to get out of there.
"What the actual fuck is wrong with me?!"
THE Andy Biersack wanted to help me, and i basically told him to fuck off.
I'm so messed up.
I started to think of all of the bad things about myself, and let the little voices inside my head take over and tell me how much of a stupid fuck i am.
I stared longingly at the building where i knew they were all sitting and getting drunk, while i sat out here feeling sorry for myself.
I wiped away a tear that was beginning to form and banged on my steering wheel, letting out a frustrated screech.
I put my forehead to the steering wheel and closed my eyes, and just decided to let it all out.
Any normal girl would be embarrassed about telling 5 of their role models one of her most embarrassing secrets, but i guess i'm not normal.
I was mad at myself. Mad that i push everyone away, mad that i'm not who i want to be.
I sat there sobbing for a couple of minutes before looking up and started to see a door open.
I saw Andy's black books before i actually saw him. I quickly started the car and started to pull away, but managed to see some blonde bimpo with cakey makeup all over her face and a fake tan hanging all over Andy.
Ugh. Figures. I knew i could never be the one for him, but i guess i just thought he had higher standards.
But what hurts me the most, is that it seemed like he truly liked me, like he truly cared and wanted to help.
I rolled my eyes and honked and flipped him off as i drove by the two in my awesome car.
He looked startled and pushed the blonde off realizing i was there the whole time.
I heard him yell something but i was already too far gone.
I broke down only to rebuild my walls, even higher this time.
I made it to my car before i needed to just stop.
I sat, staring at my steering wheel.
Was this even real?
I was just hanging out with Black Veil Brides, my favorite band, yet i couldn't wait to get out of there.
"What the actual fuck is wrong with me?!"
THE Andy Biersack wanted to help me, and i basically told him to fuck off.
I'm so messed up.
I started to think of all of the bad things about myself, and let the little voices inside my head take over and tell me how much of a stupid fuck i am.
I stared longingly at the building where i knew they were all sitting and getting drunk, while i sat out here feeling sorry for myself.
I wiped away a tear that was beginning to form and banged on my steering wheel, letting out a frustrated screech.
I put my forehead to the steering wheel and closed my eyes, and just decided to let it all out.
Any normal girl would be embarrassed about telling 5 of their role models one of her most embarrassing secrets, but i guess i'm not normal.
I was mad at myself. Mad that i push everyone away, mad that i'm not who i want to be.
I sat there sobbing for a couple of minutes before looking up and started to see a door open.
I saw Andy's black books before i actually saw him. I quickly started the car and started to pull away, but managed to see some blonde bimpo with cakey makeup all over her face and a fake tan hanging all over Andy.
Ugh. Figures. I knew i could never be the one for him, but i guess i just thought he had higher standards.
But what hurts me the most, is that it seemed like he truly liked me, like he truly cared and wanted to help.
I rolled my eyes and honked and flipped him off as i drove by the two in my awesome car.
He looked startled and pushed the blonde off realizing i was there the whole time.
I heard him yell something but i was already too far gone.
I broke down only to rebuild my walls, even higher this time.
Notes
Kinda short, and i know i havent updated in forever, but i had exams and stuff so i was busy with all that, I can't make any promises but imma try to update more!! (:
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8/30/14