Scarlett’s P.O.V.
I gripped Alex's hand and dragged her up to my room, ignoring the usual questions from my dad. My parents should be used to me ignoring them by now.
“Woah slow down tiger!” Alex said as I basically threw her on the bed and paced around my room.
“Sorry.. I’m just… I don’t know.” I said almost on the verge of throwing myself into a panic attack.
“Hey, hey. Calm down. Breathe.” Alex said as she came up to me and rubbed my back. I closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths and calmed myself.
“Now what’s going on. Why are you all freaked out?” She questioned, looking worried.
“I keep trying to convince myself that I don’t like Andy, that he won’t like me. But I’m so goddamn nervous!” I said gripping my hands together tightly, causing my knuckles to turn white.
“Why are you so nervous? Scar, he’s just a guy. I mean an extremely attractive guy, but for the most part, a normal person. Just be yourself.” Alex said trying to soothe me, but it only made me more nervous.
I wasn’t telling her the whole truth. I wasn’t just nervous because I might like him, I was nervous because I knew he would ask about my cutting. I knew he wanted me to open up to him, but im so fucking damaged that I cant do that. Im too scared, and I have no idea why.
“No Alex, you don’t understand…. Oh god.” I said putting my hands on my face and melting onto the floor. I knew I had to tell her sooner or later. I was just hoping for later. But I knew I just couldn’t act this way and not give her an explanation.
“Hey, hey. It’s okay. What’s wrong. Scar, I’m your best friend. You know you can trust me, right? Now really what’s wrong?”
I sat there for a few seconds, my face still in my hands. I took a deep breath and looked up at her worry covered face.
“Alex, I know. It’s not you, It’s me. You know how hard I find it to open up to people… But I know I have to talk about this with someone, so it might as well be my best friend” I paused.
“No, my sister.” I smiled at her, and she smiled back reassuringly.
I looked down at my arms, and instead of saying anything, I just pulled up my sleeves and heard her gasp as she looked at my countless scars and angry red cuts.
I squeezed my eyes shut, afraid of her reaction. I felt her pull me into a hug and I relaxed a bit and hugged back, feeling my eyes tear up a bit.
She held the hug for a while and finally let go. I saw her face and was crushed. She was crying… for me?
“Alex…” I said gently as I wiped away some of her tears. I’ve never seen her cry… See me and her were alike in that way, we never liked to cry in front of people. We always put on a strong front.
“Scar… Why?” She looked sadly back down to my arms.
“I… I don’t know…” I looked down feeling ashamed and shy. I felt tears start to come forward and I started to blink more to make them go away.
“Scar, you do know. God I cant believe I didn’t notice. I mean I cut too, I should know the signs…” She trailed off.
I knew she cut, and I was always there, trying to help her through it.
“No, no Alex. It’s not your fault! No one knows…” I paused
“Well, except for Andy..” She looked at me wide eyed.
“So that’s why you were so pissed off at him last night and why you’re freaking out about hanging out with him??!” She asked
I bit my lip and nodded
“Remember how I went to the bathroom the first time?” She nodded at me
“Well I had cut, and then when I came back to where you guys were and met all the guys, CC had caused one of the cuts to start bleeding again and it started to bleed out from under my bracelets, so I went to the bathroom again to clean it up, and Andy followed me and….” I trailed off, picking at my nails feeling ashamed.
“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?” She questioned
“I don’t know… I mean you have your own stuff to worry about, you don’t need to worry about me..” I said quietly.
“Look at me.”Alex commanded.
I looked up at her and she had more tears forming in her eyes.
“I love you Scar. You’re not only my bestfriend, you’re my sister, I’m always going to worry about you no matter what. If something were to happen to you…. Well let’s just say I would follow right behind you. You cant get rid of me that easily, we’re stuck together.” She said letting a tear drip down her face.
“Forever.” I whispered back, finally letting the tears I had been so desperately trying to hold back fall.
We hugged again and I felt like a little weight had been lifted off my chest. We pulled apart and smiled at each other, giggling slightly. I wiped at my eyes.
“Good thing I didn’t do my make yet.” I said being sarcastic.
“Speaking of, we have to get ready for your date!” She said basically jumping up.
“Maybe I shouldn’t go… I mean he probably wont even like me after he gets to know me… And you know I have really bad commitment issues…” I said looking at her unsure.
“No you are definitely going, even if I have to drag you to him. And Girl he does like you, you should have seen him smiling like a Cheshire cat after you guys got off the phone. Speaking of, where is he taking you anyway?”
“Uh, he said it was a surprise, but to wear something comfortable.”
Alex rolled her eyes.
“What is up with guys always trying to be cryptic?! I mean it is so not cute. Well maybe a little… But a girl needs to be prepared!” She yelled as she pulled me off the floor and all but dragged me into the bathroom to do my hair and makeup.
I stopped her quickly.
“Alex, thanks. I love you.” I smiled at her.
“No problem, what are bestfriends for? And I love you too. Ashley is going to be jealous that I like someone more than him.” She winked at me
“Wait what!!? Are you and Ashley like… a thing?” I questioned.
“Not yet. But he does want to take me out on a date” She said in a girly voice and jumped up and down a bit.
“AWWW! Just as long as he doesn’t hurt you, or else I will literally fucking cut off his dick” I said laughing.
“Hahahaha, noted! I’ll let him know.” We giggled as she pushed me into the bathroom.
She stopped again and turned slightly to me.
"Oh, and Scar, you and me are gunna flush our razors together." she said to me, more like a command rather than a question
I gulped and nodded. She was right. We both needed to. But at the same time it was like i was flushing my only escape down the drain. Oh well. That's not what i need to be worried about right now. I need to think about what i'm going to say to Andy.
God I’m so nervous for whatever Andy has planned….

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Guy's, i really need feed back! it helps a lot. I'm not too sure where i want this story to go and i was thinking about maybe even a co-author. idk what do you think?
OH! and where should Andy take Scarlett ? I haven't picked out their secret destination yet. Thoughts?