Sometimes You Just Have To Let Go
Awkward Mornings
Alex’s P.O.V.
I woke up with arms around my waist. I smiled remembering last night. But soon remembered getting drunk and leading Ashley onto the bus. After that things were a bit hazy…
I panicked and started to turn to see Ashley staring down at me. “Good morning beautiful” He said with a lazy grin.
I half smiled.
“Morning… So what exactly happened last night… I didn’t… We didn’t…?”
“Oh! No! no! uhh I mean you kind of wanted to but I didn’t want to take advantage of you like that…” He replied quickly.
I blushed. I was embarrassed… But at the same time what he said was sooo sweet! “Oh…” I looked down and realized he was shirtless. I suddenly felt really weird….
“Like what you see?” He asked winking at me.
“I uh, I have to go to the bathroom..” I said quickly, basically jumping out of his grip and made my way out of the bunk. I got in the bathroom and locked the door, letting out a sigh of relief. Why was I being so awkward?! Usually I can always keep my cool… There’s something about Ashley that makes me all… Flustered.
I looked in the mirror and cringed. “EW.” I thought to myself. My makeup was smudged all over the place and my hair was a mess. I tried to fix both as best I could, but eventually just gave up and sighed. I knew I wasn’t completely hideous, or completely fat, but I also wasn’t the prettiest or skinniest people ever. I have curves, but in all the right places. Usually im pretty confident about my body, but around Ash, I feel so self-conscious. I looked over at my phone sitting next to the sink, knowing very well I had a blade in the case.
I grabbed for it and started to take out the blade, but stopped, and remembered Scarlett. She thought I stopped a while ago… I can’t let her down like this. I quickly put it back and walked out of the bathroom to come face to face with a hyper CC.
“ALEX!!!”
“CC!!” I yelled back giggling.
“Are you and Scarlett gunna hang out with us today?!” He said, sounding like a little child.
“Uhh, I’m not sure, I should text Scarlett and find out!” I said. Actually I really need to talk to Scar now that I think about it. Something was up with her last night…
“YAYY!!!” yelled CC as he ran into the kitchen where the rest of the guys were. I giggled and felt arms loop around my waist from behind. I tensed slightly.
“Hi” I managed to peep out.
“Hi. Got any plans for today beautiful?”
“Uhh I dunno. I have to call Scar and see what’s up…” I said.
“Well then I’ll let you do that, but based on the giant smile Andy has over there, she may be busy.”
I glanced over at Andy and saw him with a huge smile, staring at his phone. I laughed.
“Let go of me so I can go call her and see what’s up!” I said in a playful tone.
He reluctantly let go and I stepped off the bus and dialed Scarlett’s number. Oh this is going to be good..
I woke up with arms around my waist. I smiled remembering last night. But soon remembered getting drunk and leading Ashley onto the bus. After that things were a bit hazy…
I panicked and started to turn to see Ashley staring down at me. “Good morning beautiful” He said with a lazy grin.
I half smiled.
“Morning… So what exactly happened last night… I didn’t… We didn’t…?”
“Oh! No! no! uhh I mean you kind of wanted to but I didn’t want to take advantage of you like that…” He replied quickly.
I blushed. I was embarrassed… But at the same time what he said was sooo sweet! “Oh…” I looked down and realized he was shirtless. I suddenly felt really weird….
“Like what you see?” He asked winking at me.
“I uh, I have to go to the bathroom..” I said quickly, basically jumping out of his grip and made my way out of the bunk. I got in the bathroom and locked the door, letting out a sigh of relief. Why was I being so awkward?! Usually I can always keep my cool… There’s something about Ashley that makes me all… Flustered.
I looked in the mirror and cringed. “EW.” I thought to myself. My makeup was smudged all over the place and my hair was a mess. I tried to fix both as best I could, but eventually just gave up and sighed. I knew I wasn’t completely hideous, or completely fat, but I also wasn’t the prettiest or skinniest people ever. I have curves, but in all the right places. Usually im pretty confident about my body, but around Ash, I feel so self-conscious. I looked over at my phone sitting next to the sink, knowing very well I had a blade in the case.
I grabbed for it and started to take out the blade, but stopped, and remembered Scarlett. She thought I stopped a while ago… I can’t let her down like this. I quickly put it back and walked out of the bathroom to come face to face with a hyper CC.
“ALEX!!!”
“CC!!” I yelled back giggling.
“Are you and Scarlett gunna hang out with us today?!” He said, sounding like a little child.
“Uhh, I’m not sure, I should text Scarlett and find out!” I said. Actually I really need to talk to Scar now that I think about it. Something was up with her last night…
“YAYY!!!” yelled CC as he ran into the kitchen where the rest of the guys were. I giggled and felt arms loop around my waist from behind. I tensed slightly.
“Hi” I managed to peep out.
“Hi. Got any plans for today beautiful?”
“Uhh I dunno. I have to call Scar and see what’s up…” I said.
“Well then I’ll let you do that, but based on the giant smile Andy has over there, she may be busy.”
I glanced over at Andy and saw him with a huge smile, staring at his phone. I laughed.
“Let go of me so I can go call her and see what’s up!” I said in a playful tone.
He reluctantly let go and I stepped off the bus and dialed Scarlett’s number. Oh this is going to be good..
Notes
OMG sorry i haven't updated in forever!! Since I don't have to do anything today though, I'm gunna try to update a couple more times. YAY!
@bvb army girl 64
Thank you!!!!
8/30/14