Sometimes You Just Have To Let Go
Wave Goodbye
Scarlett's P.O.V.
"Finally,"I thought to myself.
Today was the last day of my Junior year and i was more than thankful.
I wasn't very popular in school, nor was I unpopular. I had my own group of friends who loved me, but none of them really knew me.
I was one of those people who hated to share my emotions with anyone, I find it incredibly awkward. Maybe it's the fear of being judged, or the fear of my emotions not being accepted, I didn't know what my problem was.
At school and around my friends I was one person, the Scarlett who loved laughing and having fun and made everyone around her either smile, or think she was annoying. But when I was alone, the real me came out. I am utterly depressed. I cut myself and thought i was worthless. I put on fake smiles and everyone believes them only because they've never seen this side of me.
I feel constantly alone, and i don't want to be alone anymore, but I also can't bring myself to tell anyone that I need help.
I was lost deep in thought and hadn't notice one of my bestfriends, Alex, sneak up behind me.
"Hey Girl!" she yelled making me jump slightly
"Geez, Alex! You scared me!" I laughed
"Oh whatever, anyways, guess what I bought for you and I!" she smirked with excitement playing across her face.
"Hmmm, uhh monster?" I asked sort of hopeful
"Ha, no, but we can totes get some later!" she said.
"Well then what?" I asked totally confused. What could she have gotten for both of us?..
" Well, I've been saving up for a while, and I finally got enough money for...." She paused for suspense.
"BLACK VEIL BRIDES VIP TICKETS!!!" she basically screamed in my ear and jumping up and down, causing us to get a few looks from people walking around us trying to get to their bus.
My mouth dropped.
"Not. uh." I said in complete excitement.
Alex had turned me onto their music almost a year ago and i was completely in love with them and their music. Music was the only thing that i felt i could connect to, especially their music.
"You best believe it babes" She said winking at me.
We slowly made our way to the student parking lot where our cars were as she filled me in.
"Okay well, i know it's last minute, but i totes wanted to surprise you. It's tonight at 8." Alex said nervously, probably afraid i would be mad that she hadn't told me sooner so i could plan out an outfit and all that, but i was way too happy and excited to be mad.
"OMG, i need to go home and get ready!!" I screetched, running for my black convertible Audi.
"Hey! Let's take your car, we need to arrive in style! I'll meet you at your house at 5!" She called after me.
"OKIE DOKIE!!" i called back and jumped in my car. I quickly put down the roof and turned up my music, blasting walking on a dream by Empire of the Sun.
As i pulled out of the parking lot, i waved towards the school.
" Bye, hellhole. See you next year" I thought to myself as i waved goodbye to my biggest stressor.
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*Time lapse to 5*
I had just gotten out of the shower and was blow drying my hair when my dad came in.
"What are you doing?" He questioned
"Getting ready, I'm going to a concert with Alex tonight," I said calmly although he bugged the shit out of me.
"What?! you didn't ask me!" He said with a hint of anger in his voice
"I asked mom and she said yes, besides, Im 17, i think i should be able to go to a concert with my bestfriend once in a while" I said with attitude in my voice
"Now leave me alone while i get ready!" I yelled at him.
He turned and stormed out of my room.
I know my dad loves me, but sometimes he really pisses me off. I can't even go downstairs to get water without being pounded with questions. 'where are you going, who are you meeting, what's going on?!' Like goddamn! But since I'm an only child, he completely spoils me as much as he can, which sometimes i feel horrible about. But i never deny it, I am grateful, he bought me my beautiful car.
All of a sudden Alex burst through my door with a bag of makeup in her hand and her hair still damp.
"I'm here, and I'm ready, now give me that hair dyer, i still need to do my hair and makeup!" She called out in a rush.
"Geez, calm down albino kangaroo!" I laughed at her
I call Alex my albino kangaroo sometimes because she is super pale and we both love kangaroos, it was something i made up a long time ago and it just always stuck.
"I will not be calm Scar! tonight we get to meet the sexiest band in the world!!!" She said jumping up and down.
She snatched the blow dryer out of my hand and went on drying her hair.
I walked out to put together my outfit. I ended up settling on a bvb top, ripped skinny jeans, black and white vans, and my black shoulder purse.
I walked into my bathroom where Alex was currently doing her hair.
I decided to do a simple winged eyeliner and a bit of cover up.
(Scarlett's outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=109375999)
I walked out and looked into my full length mirror. I couldn't help but judge what i saw.
"Ew you're so ugly and FAT!" Yelled the voice in my head.
I looked down at my bracelet covered wrists. They hid all my scars. I was clean from cutting for about two weeks, but i can't help the need to cut. It was the only thing that helped with the pain and that made the voice go away.
Alex all of a sudden sprinted out of the bathroom and threw herself at me, hugging me from the side.
"Alex, calm down, you almost knocked me on my ass" I said giggling.
"Oh shush, look at us sexy beasts," she said as we both looked into the mirror.
Alex looked so much better standing next to me. I felt like the fat ugly friend. I sighed and looked away with her still clutching onto my arm.
"Hey," she said sympathetically, "You look amazing, and tonight is going to be the best night of our lives" She said smiling ear to ear with a sparkle in her eyes.
I love Alex so much, she is like my sister, but i still can't even tell her my true feelings. I feel like im slowly dying on the inside. I'm so alone, and it's all my fault.
I looked at the time and noticed it was 6:10
"Oh my god Alex, let's go!!" I said instantly putting back on my fake smile and pulling my arm out of her grasp. She studied me for a moment and then smiled back.
"Let's get the fuck out of here!" She yelled and bounced to my door.
I followed behind her as she ran to my car.
"BYE!" i yelled as i slammed the house door behind me.
I Jumped into the drivers side and slid the top down once again. Alex turned up the music as In The End came on. We sang along and giggled the whole way there.
I couldn't help the thought that tonight might not be as great as i expected it to be, i had an uneasy feeling about it. But i quickly shook it off and put on my famous fake smile, except as more and more bvb songs played on the way there, i found my smile becoming less and less fake.
"Finally,"I thought to myself.
Today was the last day of my Junior year and i was more than thankful.
I wasn't very popular in school, nor was I unpopular. I had my own group of friends who loved me, but none of them really knew me.
I was one of those people who hated to share my emotions with anyone, I find it incredibly awkward. Maybe it's the fear of being judged, or the fear of my emotions not being accepted, I didn't know what my problem was.
At school and around my friends I was one person, the Scarlett who loved laughing and having fun and made everyone around her either smile, or think she was annoying. But when I was alone, the real me came out. I am utterly depressed. I cut myself and thought i was worthless. I put on fake smiles and everyone believes them only because they've never seen this side of me.
I feel constantly alone, and i don't want to be alone anymore, but I also can't bring myself to tell anyone that I need help.
I was lost deep in thought and hadn't notice one of my bestfriends, Alex, sneak up behind me.
"Hey Girl!" she yelled making me jump slightly
"Geez, Alex! You scared me!" I laughed
"Oh whatever, anyways, guess what I bought for you and I!" she smirked with excitement playing across her face.
"Hmmm, uhh monster?" I asked sort of hopeful
"Ha, no, but we can totes get some later!" she said.
"Well then what?" I asked totally confused. What could she have gotten for both of us?..
" Well, I've been saving up for a while, and I finally got enough money for...." She paused for suspense.
"BLACK VEIL BRIDES VIP TICKETS!!!" she basically screamed in my ear and jumping up and down, causing us to get a few looks from people walking around us trying to get to their bus.
My mouth dropped.
"Not. uh." I said in complete excitement.
Alex had turned me onto their music almost a year ago and i was completely in love with them and their music. Music was the only thing that i felt i could connect to, especially their music.
"You best believe it babes" She said winking at me.
We slowly made our way to the student parking lot where our cars were as she filled me in.
"Okay well, i know it's last minute, but i totes wanted to surprise you. It's tonight at 8." Alex said nervously, probably afraid i would be mad that she hadn't told me sooner so i could plan out an outfit and all that, but i was way too happy and excited to be mad.
"OMG, i need to go home and get ready!!" I screetched, running for my black convertible Audi.
"Hey! Let's take your car, we need to arrive in style! I'll meet you at your house at 5!" She called after me.
"OKIE DOKIE!!" i called back and jumped in my car. I quickly put down the roof and turned up my music, blasting walking on a dream by Empire of the Sun.
As i pulled out of the parking lot, i waved towards the school.
" Bye, hellhole. See you next year" I thought to myself as i waved goodbye to my biggest stressor.
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*Time lapse to 5*
I had just gotten out of the shower and was blow drying my hair when my dad came in.
"What are you doing?" He questioned
"Getting ready, I'm going to a concert with Alex tonight," I said calmly although he bugged the shit out of me.
"What?! you didn't ask me!" He said with a hint of anger in his voice
"I asked mom and she said yes, besides, Im 17, i think i should be able to go to a concert with my bestfriend once in a while" I said with attitude in my voice
"Now leave me alone while i get ready!" I yelled at him.
He turned and stormed out of my room.
I know my dad loves me, but sometimes he really pisses me off. I can't even go downstairs to get water without being pounded with questions. 'where are you going, who are you meeting, what's going on?!' Like goddamn! But since I'm an only child, he completely spoils me as much as he can, which sometimes i feel horrible about. But i never deny it, I am grateful, he bought me my beautiful car.
All of a sudden Alex burst through my door with a bag of makeup in her hand and her hair still damp.
"I'm here, and I'm ready, now give me that hair dyer, i still need to do my hair and makeup!" She called out in a rush.
"Geez, calm down albino kangaroo!" I laughed at her
I call Alex my albino kangaroo sometimes because she is super pale and we both love kangaroos, it was something i made up a long time ago and it just always stuck.
"I will not be calm Scar! tonight we get to meet the sexiest band in the world!!!" She said jumping up and down.
She snatched the blow dryer out of my hand and went on drying her hair.
I walked out to put together my outfit. I ended up settling on a bvb top, ripped skinny jeans, black and white vans, and my black shoulder purse.
I walked into my bathroom where Alex was currently doing her hair.
I decided to do a simple winged eyeliner and a bit of cover up.
(Scarlett's outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=109375999)
I walked out and looked into my full length mirror. I couldn't help but judge what i saw.
"Ew you're so ugly and FAT!" Yelled the voice in my head.
I looked down at my bracelet covered wrists. They hid all my scars. I was clean from cutting for about two weeks, but i can't help the need to cut. It was the only thing that helped with the pain and that made the voice go away.
Alex all of a sudden sprinted out of the bathroom and threw herself at me, hugging me from the side.
"Alex, calm down, you almost knocked me on my ass" I said giggling.
"Oh shush, look at us sexy beasts," she said as we both looked into the mirror.
Alex looked so much better standing next to me. I felt like the fat ugly friend. I sighed and looked away with her still clutching onto my arm.
"Hey," she said sympathetically, "You look amazing, and tonight is going to be the best night of our lives" She said smiling ear to ear with a sparkle in her eyes.
I love Alex so much, she is like my sister, but i still can't even tell her my true feelings. I feel like im slowly dying on the inside. I'm so alone, and it's all my fault.
I looked at the time and noticed it was 6:10
"Oh my god Alex, let's go!!" I said instantly putting back on my fake smile and pulling my arm out of her grasp. She studied me for a moment and then smiled back.
"Let's get the fuck out of here!" She yelled and bounced to my door.
I followed behind her as she ran to my car.
"BYE!" i yelled as i slammed the house door behind me.
I Jumped into the drivers side and slid the top down once again. Alex turned up the music as In The End came on. We sang along and giggled the whole way there.
I couldn't help the thought that tonight might not be as great as i expected it to be, i had an uneasy feeling about it. But i quickly shook it off and put on my famous fake smile, except as more and more bvb songs played on the way there, i found my smile becoming less and less fake.
Notes
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8/30/14