Devil Choir tour. (sequel to Unbroken)

I cleaned up my sister's blood I sang Never to late. I sat backstage shaking, while everyone around me pretended this day was normal. I needed to talk to Ashley. I wanted to stop, I wanted to leave this place. Go back to Washington. Find my own place. Live my own life. My life was crumbling down, the last thing I needed was to go back.
"QUINN!?" Ashley Called, I really didn't want him to see me a wreck.
"What?!" I shouted back, a second later I felt him wrap his arm's around me.
"You are a wreck....."He whispered, and kissed the top of my head. Great, I thought.
"I know. We n-need t-to talk."
"About what?" He asked, pulling me closer.
"I want to leave. I'm not going to sit and watch kit go over board." I mumbled, burying my head into his chest.
"You can't leave. I mean where would you go. How would you get there? You motorcycle won't get you there."
"Back to Washington, Plane, and I'll bet my motorcycle there some how." I said answering each question, and softly pulling away from him.
"Hhhhhhm. How long have you thought about this?" He asked brushing the hair out of my eye's.
"Just today."
"Then you're not leaving."He said cupping my cheek, and smiling.
"Ashley. Quinn. One get a room. Two Kit's okay we need to go see her." Jake said, I rolled my eye's and took my bike key's out of my pocket. We stood up, and headed out to the parking lot. Before I got on my bike. Ashley of course had to give me a kiss.
"See you in a little bit." I said, starting up my bike, and putting on my helmet. I hope Kit was awake. I also hoped she was awake. I wanted leave without her trying to stop me. The only people needing to stop me was Ashley, Andy, and Chris.
When I got to the hospital, and found Kit's room. She was awake. I looked at Andy he looked tired, he didn't look like Andy. He loved my sister so much. I loved my sister so much. But she needed to realize I was joking when i said I couldn't be here when she broke.
"Quinn.--" Kit started.
"Don't.. Andy we need to talk." I said, holding up my hand to Kit. She sighed and Andy followed me out to the hall.
"What's up?"
"I can't do this any more." I started, heat flooding to my cheeks.
"What do mean?" He said, sending me a worried look.
"It's not you guys. I can't be here, I was thinking going back to Washington and..........Moving out of Kit's." I explained putting my Skeleton jacket.
"You can't leave.... Especially moving out of Kit's house. Quinn she need's you. She think's that she is just a big mistake right now.." He told me. Mistake? Really? If anyone was the mistake it would be me. I thought running a hand through my hair.
Now I really didn't know what the hell was going to happen.
"Shit........" I said staring to cry, not again.
"I need some air." I said throwing my hood over my head and finding my way downstairs. The pain of thinking she felt that way about herself. The way she thought about herself. Hurt me, It hurt so much it felt like I was just hit by a truck.I sat on a bench just feet away from the Hospital entrance. I cried to myself. No one was going to fix my problems. I believed in Kit, She was the only person I looked up to. I loved Kit and to know she thought of herself like a mistake. And seeing her fighting for her life. To clean her blood from the bathroom floor.... It ruined me. I thought my life was suppose to be happy. I knew she felt depressed around me, She never did anything wrong to me.
"Quinn?" Chris's voice broke the almost silence I was sitting in.
"G-g-go away. P-please" I stuttered, covering my face with my hands.
"Really? I think I might stay." He said lighting a cigarette. I finally broke last night and had a cigarette. I told you I would be back. You broke last night, and now look. You've got to deal with the guilt of seeing you're sister in more pain. Don't you? The voice said echoing in my head.
"Fucker" I murmured, and focused on my breathing.
"You're funny.......Quinn.......You can't leave." He said, sitting next to me. I wanted to leave but I realized I couldn't what if Kit tried it again? And I wasn't leaving tomorrow Kit wouldn't be with us tomorrow. Damn What was I going to do tomorrow.
"I know." I said standing up and heading back inside, before going to Kit's room I calmed down and redid my makeup in the bathroom. Dammit Dammit Dammit! I thought going up to Kit's room. She looked at me her eye's were a guilty grey. I shook my head and hugged Ashley. His shirt absorbing any tears I let drop. I didn't know what to say to her once I pulled away from Ash.
"I love you Kit." I said hugging her. She's okay. But are you okay? The voice said.
"I'm sorry." She whispered, I shook my head.
"Why?....."
"Guys out." Andy ordered, and they left. I pulled away from Kit, Heat rushing rushing back to my cheeks.
"You don't hurt me........You're not a mistake........You're Kit............." I said, shaking.
"I'm sorry because you saw me like that. I just................I don't know." She whined, i ate at me. The guilt ate away at anything I did.
"I uh.....I guess I'll see ya in a little." I said, pushing back tears, and taking my key's. And leaving the hospital. I needed some time to think. I wasn't done getting ready for the show tonight. Ashley called, and told me they were bringing Kit back. She's going to see me? On stage. WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I thought, to myself as I threw on my bikini top and Skinny jeans.
I took the paper I wrote Paralyzed on a read it.
Just because you look at me this way
doesn't mean you feel my pain.
Just cause you see my face
doesn't mean you feel this way.
I could be like any other.
I should feel like the only one,
Stuck this way,
I can feel you're pain.
Can you feel mine?
(Just because, Just because)
I! I feel broken,
My speech spoken.
(I feel you pain,)
The rain, washed over you're face
The hurt, a lie, as you touch the sky.
I feel.........Paralyzed!!!!!!
(Will you sit behind the desk for the of you're life as I watch my crumble before me)
Paralyzed!!!!!!!!!!!
The song, Kit's song. Chris's car purred as I walked back to the Venue. There was a line, surrounding the front entrance And I couldn't help but walk past it.
"OH MY GAWD!!!!! IT'S QUINN!!!!!" A girl screamed, as I walked past..... The line seemed to never end. I ran to the back entrance where Chris met me.
"How's it feel to be famous?" He asked swiping his key card, I followed him.
"I am not famous just cause one chic like's me doesn't.........Oh god." I said, realizing that if one chic liked me, a bunch of other people liked me.
"Yeah!." Chris said, smiling. Ass...Hole.....I thought helping set up. Andy, Kit, Ash, CC, Jinxx, Jake, And every one else soon made there way to the back stage.
"Who's first?" I asked, looking at Jackson."Where's Ronnie?" I added, looking around. Chris pointed outside, and the scream of girls came through the door.
"I heard my name!" Ronnie shouted, and looked at Kit.
"No you didn't."I mumbled, "Quinn goes first!" Jacky Said, pointing to the stage.
"Quinn?" Ronnie, asked,
"Who?"Andy asked,
"Me!?" I asked looking shocked as hell.
"Yeah, C'mon. Don't be chicken." Chris said, patting my shoulder blade.
"You're gonna get knocked out." I said, raising my eye brows

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