You Are Not Alone ~ Andy Biersack Love Story

I folded my clothes and put them in the dresser in my new room across the hall from Andy's. I finished that and shoved my suitcases under the bed and set up everything else. It felt nice to have a home that actually felt like.... home. I laid down on the bed and closed my eyes for a little bit, but it wasn't too long until I felt someone lay next to me. I looked and saw Cc. I smiled and laid on my back just as he was, he was looking at my ceiling.

"Cc?" I said looking over at him as he turned his head towards me.

"Yes, Grace?" He asked.

"I am sorry. For everything that is. I brought all this drama onto you guys, and I wanted you to stay out of it so we didn't have to brawl out in the front yard." I said wiping away a tear.

"Don't worry about it, Grace. It is totally fine. Shit like this happens to people and it sucks, but just know we are here for you. It's a bummer you aren't going on tour with us for 6 months." He said getting up.

My eyes widened and I sat up quickly, then I was standing. "What! You are going on tour? When?" I asked, worry in my eyes.

"Andy didn't tell you......" Cc said rubbing his makeup free face.

"He didn't tell me that you were going on a six month tour and leaving me." I said beginning to cry.

"Oh, Grace. Don't cry." Cc said and walked over and hugged me.

"You guys are leaving, and I might die." I said hugging him back.

"You won't die. You will be just fine." He said tilting my chin up to look at him. "I promise."

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It was a few mornings later, and today the guys were leaving for their 6 month tour. I slept soundly as I heard shuffling in Andy's room. I continued to sleep, but then I remembered what as going to happen today. I heard my door open and in came Andy. He sat on my bed and kissed my forehead and just as he began to stand up, I grabbed his hand and looked up at him.

"You will be fine, Grace. I will see you in six months." Andy said and hugged me. "Just stay strong. and stand up for yourself. Don't be afraid. I will call you when we get off the plane." He said and kissed the top of my head and left. I sat in bed for another hour after they left and ran my hands through my hair. Everyone always leaves when I need them most, but Andy was in the band way before he knew I existed. Andy and the rest of the band were gone fore six months and I had to defend myself like I have been my whole life. I walked downstairs and made myself some coffee as I watched Batman and began to wait.....

--------------------2 MONTHS LATER-------------------------------------

I ran inside the house screaming, and crying. Today I just found out my sister had died of an overdose while during a drug deal. I ran upstairs and opened the secret spot where I hid my razors and grabbed a fresh new one. I locked the front and back doors and then locked myself in the bathroom. I sat in the bathtub and took the razor and drug the blade across my scarred skin. Watching the blood roll off, I did many more times to my arms and then I got into my under wear and cut my legs. I hated my sister, but she was decent. She treated me like family unlike my parents. I cried endless rivers of tears and then threw the blade away and watched myself bleed. I turned on the cold water and just sat in the shower as the water beat down on me, not caring I was still partially dressed. I didn't move for an hour, and just let myself freeze. I turned off the water and let my numb body crawl out of the shower. Not to mention, I started going back to school and everyone hated me except Callista and Kyle of course. I looked at my wet self in the mirror and opened it up as I saw many text messages popping up from Sadie, Justin, and all of their friends.

'Kill yourself'
'Die you stupid little, cunt'
'You are wasting my air.'
'No one likes you and you should just die, BITCH'

Endless threads of hateful texts popped up over and over. I picked up my phone as I pulled out a bottle of old prescription pills and filled a glass of water. I filled the bath with warm water and then called Callista as I kept crying.

"Hello?" She answered.

"Callista, thank you for being my friend." I said as I dumped at least 35 pills into my hand.

"Grace? Are you okay?" Callista asked worry in her voice.

"People always ask that, but I always reply with 'I'm fine' but I really am not fine." I said looking down at the pills as I swallowed ten, then another ten, then five more.

"GRACE! What are you doing?! KYLE CALL THE COPS AND HAVE THEM GO TO ANDY'S NOW!" Callista yelled. "Grace, hold on. Don't do anything, I am coming over right now."

"No one will miss me. I might as well just die." I said stepping into the bathtub and turning off the water as my eyes began to close. "Tell Andy I love him and the rest of the guys thank you. I will be happier now." I said and dropped my phone onto the floor next to the bathtub as my eyes began to close.

"GRACE! GRACE! NO DON'T DO THIS!: Callista was in tears as I heard sirens and then everything when black

Notes

;; that was an emotional chapter for me, it's not over yet though, my lovelies. We still have a lot to cover. (: ;;