I'm Sorry , I Can't Love You Anymore (Completed)

Vinny's POV
I scolded myself for walking out in the rain . I knew it was gonna rain but I went anyway . I was just so boreaddd . But I internally cringe because instead of rolling of me it goes through me .

"Eww " I mumbled to myself . I walked for miles and miles and hen I decided to see Kim because I just couldn't watch Ashley anymore .

I walked through her house and saw her . Pretty as ever and she wasn't completely huge yet , but she was up there .

I instantly regretted it . I wanted to stab myself because I could watch her . Being happy or sad , nothing . Because I couldn't say anything she could hear , anyway, or hug her and sit and talk . Nothing we use to . "Damn" I mumbled before walking out of Kim's and into the pouring rain once again .

"I guess I deserve this I was a crappy girlfriend to Ashley anyway . or why else would he come home at stupid o'clock fucking drunk off his ass " I mumbled to myself , each step making me sadder and sadder .

After a while I got bored so I started singing Iris , I heard the Sleeping With Sirens version god knows how many times , I mean it was only my favorite song , but apperanertly it was written by the Goo Goo Dolls .

" And I'd Give Up Forever To Touch You , Cause I Know You Could Feel Me Some How , Your The Closest To Heaven , That I'll Ever Be And I Don't Wanna Go Home Right Now , Cause All I Can Taste I This Moment And All I Can Breathe I Your Laugh , Sooner Or Later It's Over , I Just Want You To Know Who I Am " .

I walked by Ashley's and saw him run out and I stood there and watch the other guys come out and chase after him . Then he soon confessed some information that I never wanted to hear .

Juliet is pregnant and he's the dad .

"Im so fucking stupid , you know what Ashley I'm done" I saI'd putting my hands up in surrender . "I'm done trying , no more , I will do nothing for you . "Because you obviously have to get your fucking shit straight , Congrats Daddy ." I said words filled with anger .

"No more , cause guess what it's not my flaut this time is allllll yours , haha I'm an idiot for believing you ever loved me . Ad you truly are the biggest man-whore in the world Ashley Fucking Purdy " . I said again screaming at the top of my lungs.

"Cause you never know I could have a fucking heart attack in my coma and you could be rid of one of your little flings and strap your big boy pants on to be a daddy . Happy fucking trails " I said before stomping through the rain back to the hospital to wallow in my invisible sadness .

Notes

Sorry I'm writing saddy chapters I just guess I'm venting :(
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Well for you that don't know there is a thing called the lock project . Well what you do is you draw locks on your wrist each in a diff color , each color represents something (and if you don't do anything there's a color for that too) .
Red=Self-Harm , Blue=Depression , Yellow=Bulimia , Green=Aneroixa , Purple=Anxiety , Black=Sucidal Thoughts and Pink=Just Supporting . You do this on JANUARY 10th also the day you wear all black or white (like the K&P video) to show we are the misfits of today and don't give a fuck about today society and its goddamn limitations and its high ass fucking expections . (Sorry for the rant ) but I'm wearing all black and the colors I have are Red , Blue , Purple , and Black . What colors are you doing ? (Don't be shy , be proud because it shows you survived. )
Well Bye Beautifulzzzz
<3 Stay Fucking Strong <3