I'm Sorry , I Can't Love You Anymore (Completed)

Vinny's POV
I opened my eyes just enough to notice 2 things:
1.I was hungover as fuck ..
2. Kim balling her eyes out talking to Andy and the rest of the guys on FaceTime . The bright light made me squint painfully . I didn't say anything because I didn't care all I wanted to do was die. Jinxx cheating on me was the last straw . I need my journal . I need to write . Or better yet a razor. I could use a little joy . At least for a minute or two. My mind instantly reconciled on the mesmeric memories of Jinxx and Ashley . All the memories came back in a flood of emotion . It brought tears to my eyes and made my deepest cuts throb in want for the silver friend to re-open the cuts in a rush of crimson pleasure and hint of pain. I looked down slightly to see my cut ridden wrists covered in bandage. 'She must of found out , Damn it , you fucking worthless piece of shit , no wonder Ashley and Jinxx cheated on you . You are disgusting ' My inner voice said . "Stop it your wrong' I whispered . 'WRONG BITCH FUCKING PLEASE YOU A WHORE YOU ARE WORSE THAN JULIET !' My inner voice screamed 'No I'm not' I whimpered .'Yes you are' it reminded me again 'No No No No ' I Said shaking my head . Tears spilled out of my eyes. "And guys she's really fragile . And shes upset . I know because she walked to the front door because somebody beat her up i think it was Liam , and i don't think she fought back because there was nothing on her boots or under her finger nails like usually when somebody beat her up . And she was slurring her speak really bad , then she puked up blood and passed out instantly after . And she started ".. she hesitated before she said . "Started Cutting herself again" Kim whimpered into the phone. "WWWHHHATT" they all screamed into the I-phone. "Yess I know because I went to change her dirty shirt because there was alcohol on it and I saw them . And guys there not dark red like her usual ones they were almost black . And moved her hands around and it you move it to the right angle you can see bone ". "Oh my god, what do you think caused her to do this" CC said with all the joy gone from his voice. "I think I know what might have caused this .. Jinxx" she said accusingly . "What" he said. 'Lieing stupid fucker you know exactly what you did my mind said As I lied there on the couch listening to everything to everything go down . It made me feel better knowing that someone actually show a tiny bit about me . But that's CC .He loves everything . And I mean EVERYTHING ! "According to Vinnys journal you butt dialed her and she heard you having sex with some girl and she writes quote-unquote 'That made me feel so fucking shitty , I could throw myself off a bridge and not even care . Because I thought I finally found somebody who I could be myself with , somebody that I could not have to worry about wearing makeup and getting up in the morning and being ugly . Because I knew he would still say I'm beautiful no matter . And I thought I finally found someone who loves me . For me ." After a moment off silence . Nobody said anything . So Jinxx knew he was busted. Then it hit me . 'MY DIARY!!!' My brain screamed . I was about to pounce on Kim when she flipped the page and I knew what she was reading . The . Fucking . Song . No . Please . Fucking . God . No . "Wow guys she wrote a song and the pages are covered in blood ". Kim held to notebook pages up to the I-phone so they could see . "Holy shit" muttered Jake . "That's it we are canceling the next few weeks of Warped Tour , you two clearly need us ". Andy said . "Yeah I'm sure the BVB Army will understand" Ashley said . Then they hung up . I winced in frustration . Because Jinxx was coming . HERE. 'No' I whispered . Before passing out again for the second time .

Notes

The chappy was longish ;) Lmk how it was ..
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