I'm Sorry , I Can't Love You Anymore (Completed)

Vinny's POV
~2 Months Later~
Its been 3 days since Jinxx stopped talking to me . 'JESUS WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO THIS TIME TO DESERVE THIS AGAIN' ?? I thought . I burst out into tears. My eyes flickered to my jewery box . Kim took away my razors and through them in the garbage . But i always kept 2 or 3 of my sharpest ones it there . 'Cut , just this once , you'll feel so much better'. My mind said . I couldn't let the voices win . I just couldn't , because dispite my rough-and-tumble exteior , I'm the weakest person in the world . "No" i said out loud . I quickly turned on my speaker plugged in my i-pod . And chose
Fashionably Late by Falling In Reverse
I'm letting you know , I'm letting you go , I want your best friend Ronnie sang .
'God those lyrics are so ironic'. I thought . 'Just ONE'? My mind pleaded . 'No' i said again . 'VINNY JUST ONE FUCKING CUT ? YOU WILL FEEL SO MUCH BETTER ..YOUR SILVER FRIEND IS HERE TO HELP YOUUU ' my brain said again "NO JUST NO" I SAID AGAIN . 'C'mon ..., Vin... , Vin, ...Vinny, ... You Know you want to , VINNY... JUST PICK UP THE RAZOR AND CUT ONCE HOW MUCH DAMAGE CAN A CUT DO ?' . My brain pleaded with MYSELF over a number on mins. "JESUS SOMEONE PUT ME IN THE LOONEY BIN I'M FIGHTING A WAR WITH MYSELF". Then I remember Andy's words . "Use Pens When You Mostly Feel Like Using Your Knives". I quickly grabbed a pad of paper and a pen and tried to write down how i was feeling . No came to me but frustration. "DAMN IT" I screamed. Then The razors voice was heard again . "Just one"? It asked devilishy . "Fine" i was tried of fighting a war i obvouisly wasn't gonna win. I grabbed one of the razors and rolled up my left sleeve exposing my scar-ridden wrist littered with old-ish scars and deep scars . I pushed down so hard on my wrist i knew bruise . Then dragged my sliver friend across it . Leaving a large trail of deep red crimson across my wrist . 'There 1 cut , happy now brain'? We both knew it wasn't enough . So i dragged it again . So one cut , turned into 2 , 2 to 3 and 3 turned into 37 . I picked myself up off the floor . And went to the bathroom . I ran water over my cuts in the sink . I winced a little . Then i put some toilet paper on my wrist . And i went to my room . i grabbed the pen and pad of paper and then suddenly ideas , lyrics , flowed into my mind ...
When i was done i had this wrotten on my paper in messy print
Waking Up Your Neighbors ,
Downstairs
I've Been Inside Your Bedroom ,
A Thousand Years
As You Tie Me To Bed , For Good I Say
That I Want In The Most Unromantic Way
Oh, Louisania
You're Toturing Me With Beautiful Face
Anna , Come On i Thought We Had A Damn Good Thing
A Penny In A Couch , And A Diamond Ring
So Baby Stay Away From My Friends
Cause I Need Them To Carry Me
When Its Over
I'll Count Back From 10
And you Can Listen To Glass Hearts
Shattering
Oh I dont know How You Got Into Me
Down My Throat and Made a Home In My Veins
They used to be the rivers that would take us away
But now you only call every Christmas and my Birthday
And I still Cant believe , How You Look Next To Me
Just Like A Strip Club Bedroom Scene
So Baby stay Away from My Friends
Cause i need Them to Carry Me
When its Over i'll count back from 10
And Can Listen To Something ,
That You Never Heard Before
Cause Baby You Don't Know What It's Like,
To Wake Up , In The Middle Of The Night
Scaring The Thought Of Kissing Razors
This Blood Evacuation
Is Telling Me To Cave In
Oh, No
Just Stay Away From My Friends
.....
Just then My Fone vibrated it was a call from Jinxx
"Hey Babe "i said cheerfully
No body said anything back , i just moans and alot of grunts . I thought it was like Jake Or Ashley fucking some random chick , Just as i was about to hang up . Some girl moaned "Jinxx" . I burst into tears yet again . And hung up . Then 5 mins later it was a call from Kim she sounded troubled . "Vinny please come over its uberly important" she said
"Sure, by there in 10 " i said pushing everything out of my mind as i shut the door to my apartment . And got into my car and drove to Kims....

Notes

The wrote in his chapter is Called "Stay Away From My Friends" by Pierce The Veil . Although i wish i wrote the song :( ... So a really long chapta :)